'IT IS FINISHED'!!!--WELL, ALMOST!--GOD
'OUR SITE' WILL BE DONE 'SOON' ... 'THEY' WILL COME TO IT WHEN 'IT IS DONE'! GOD [AGAIN]

'ALL WORK' AND 'NO PLAY'?...GOD
Yes Sir--lots of work and annoyances! The new site is being done mostly by HTML and I "lost" about 5 hours of building. Had to start over and I'm upset.

If you've come to this site to seek God--great! Take a look around our former Home! If you're here to see what I'll write next--'THAT' MAY TAKE A 'WHILE' ... AS 'SHE IS BUSY' 'DOING MY FIRST-WORKS' AND 'OUR eNEMY' ... AS 'SHE' WOULD HAVE ME 'WRITE' THIS ... IS 'BUGGING' HER ALREADY--VIA 'HTML' AND YES! 'ENEMIES' DO 'ATTACK' YOUR COMPUTER SYSTEM ... AS 'YOU CAN TELL' BY HER 'PREVIOUS ENTRIES' ON THIS PAGE! ENJOY 'YOUR VIEW'...GOD

God's Provision in Time of Need
If you've reached this page via the link on 'OUR NEW' HOME PAGE? 'I WAS' WONDERING 'WHEN' YOU'D 'ALLOW' US TO 'PROVIDE' THOSE WHO 'SEEK ANSWERS' WITH A 'NEW HOME' ... 'IT WILL BE DONE' 'IN DUE TIME'--AMEN?
Yes Sir--You Provided the funding and now Our site will be re-created. It will be hard work,

'BUT 'IT WILL' BE 'WORTH IT' ... AS 'YOU HAVE' BEEN THINKING?...GOD
Yes Sir--well worth it.

Since you're here, you can check out the site as it appears now

OUT OF EGYPT' 'WILL' HAVE A 'NEW LOOK' SOON ... UNTIL THEN ... KEEP LOOKING AT 'THIS SITE' UNTIL 'ALL THINGS' ARE FINISHED...GOD--AGAIN

Papa, I was going to let You have the 'LAST WORD'? 'YOU SHOULD' ... BUT 'YOU' WANTED TO 'DISCUSS' NOT ONLY 'MY PROVISION' IN TIMES OF 'NEED' ... BUT 'WHEN' IT IS 'NEEDED' ... LIKE WHEN YOU 'WANT' SOMETHING? (Yes Sir--You Provided me $800 to get "Out of Egypt" when I needed it years ago and You've Provided things I really don't need--but have) ASKED ME FOR--EVEN WHEN THEY WEREN'T NEEDED? (Yes Sir, like "things" I've asked You for just because) 'BECAUSE' 'YOU KNOW' I'M 'YOUR FATHER' AND NOT 'A GOD' THAT LOOKS DOWN ... ONLY TO 'SEE' WHAT YOU'VE DONE 'WRONG' FOR THE DAY? 'I WILL PROVIDE ALL THINGS' ... THAT MEANS 'STUFF' ... 'AS WELL AS' 'NEEDS'. 'DESIRES' ARE GIVEN WHEN ONE SEEKS ME WITH ALL THEIR HEART--'THAT IS' NOT ONLY IN SCRIPTURE, BUT 'ALSO' IN YOUR HEART? (It is now, Daddy! Thanks for all things, and I'd like to Pray that You'll)

'PROVIDE' 'ALL THINGS' EVEN 'ANYTHING' FOR ALL THOSE WHO 'SEEK' ME FROM THIS SITE--WHATEVER THEY ASK ME FOR? (Well--only those that are asking according to Your Will. If it's an abuser asking You to bring someone "back home"--like my ex-husband has done in the past--then NO SIR, I don't ask those Prayers to be granted. I Pray that those types of Prayers WILL NOT be in Your Will--ever!)

'CHILD!' YOU'RE ON A 'TANGENT' AGAINST 'ABUSIVE-TYPES' AGAIN! SIGN OFF--'THEY' KNOW THAT 'I'LL PROVIDE' ... IF 'THEY WILL' SEEK ME FOR ANSWERS AND 'THINGS'--EVEN FREEDOM FROM 'EGYPT'...GOD

Getting in Touch With Your Feelings
One thing survivors (of abuse) learn to do really well is store our feelings away until ... God knows when. I had a good survival skill--bury my anger that I felt toward the abuser to keep myself safe. The downfall? Once I was free those bottled up feelings came out when I didn't need them to. Solution? Stop ignoring my feelings and work through past traumas so I could heal inside and go on with my life without all the baggage. Some of you who come here are still finding your way out of "Egypt" ... others have long since been free and you're still crying for "no reason" or blowing up too quickly and you don't know why.

'I WILL' TAKE OVER--EVEN IF 'YOU' WON'T 'ALLOW' ME TO SOMETIMES--PAPA GOD

'IF' 'YOU ARE' STILL FEELING ANGER ... 'COME TO ME' ... 'I WILL HELP YOU' 'DEAL WITH IT' ... AS 'SHE' CALLS IT!

Help! God has taken over the website!!! Just kidding Daddy God! Seriously, You raised a good point.

'THE' MOST IMPORTANT ONE, CHILD! COME TO 'ME' FIRST BEFORE 'ALL THINGS' ... OR 'DID' YOU 'FORGET' THAT ONE TOO?
I'm so used to doing it that I just Pray, I...okay, I forgot to tell our visitors to come to You in Prayer FIRST--then dig (but only with Your Guidance or a Counselor). It made healing a lot easier with You Guiding me...

'THROUGH' IT? I HAD TO 'PRACTICALLY' 'FORCE' YOU TO COME TO 'TERMS' WITH THE 'FACT' THAT YOU HAD AN 'ANGER PROBLEM' FROM BEING ABUSED! YOU 'HID' IT FROM YOURSELF WELL, CHILD! 'I AM' FINISHED NOW ... 'SEE' HOW 'THIS' ENTRY LOOKS ONLINE...GOD

Looks good Papa.
'I KNOW' ... 'I-AM-GOD!' AND 'I KNOW ALL THINGS'--EVEN 'WHO' IS VISITING 'THIS SITE'!

Stupid Computers!
I had an entry set to upload and of course it didn't ... the connection "timed out". How ironic! It was an entry
THAT INCLUDED 'MY' OPINION ABOUT RELIGION AND ABUSE? MAYBE 'I SHOULD' TAKE IT FROM HERE?-GOD

(Okay, Sir--we were doing an entry about abusive men using scripture to justify their abuse. I added the scripture that commands husbands to LOVE their wives as Christ loves the Church...so much that He gave His Life for it.)

AND 'I SAID' THAT 'HE WOULD' BE JUDGED FOR HIS ACTIONS 'IN THE AFTERLIFE'...AMEN? (yes Sir. You also Said that the Book of Revelation lists the types that will be Judged--harshly. Aren't "those who shed innocent blood" listed in that category?) 'I AM' SO 'PROUD' OF YOU FOR REMEMBERING A SCRIPTURE TODAY ... YES. 'THERE ARE' 'OTHER TYPES' THAT WILL BE 'JUDGED' AND 'THEY WILL NOT HAVE THEIR INHERITANCE'--AMEN? (yes Sir, thank You for) SHEDDING A LITTLE 'LIGHT' ON A 'SUBJECT' SO 'DARK' THAT IT MAKES YOU WANT TO RUN TO ME EVERY TIME YOU 'NOTICE' IT NEAR YOU? THAT 'DARKNESS' IS AN 'ABUSIVE-TYPE'S' 'AURA' ... SOME WOULD CALL IT--BUT 'IT IS' ACTUALLY A 'DARKNESS' THAT 'SURROUNDS' THEM UNTIL THEY ARE 'FREE' OF A 'TYPE' OF 'BONDAGE' ... LIKE ABUSE! (I just learned something; I always thought that was a demonic force. Thanks Daddy God).

'ALL MEN' WHO ABUSE WILL 'SUFFER' IN THE LATTER DAYS AS WELL--THEY WILL SEEK ME AND WON'T FIND MY PRESENCE TO RUN TO--'I AM GOD'--I HAVE SAID THESE THINGS AND 'I AM' NOW 'FINISHED BLOGGING'...SO YOU'VE 'CALLED' IT! 'POST' IT AFTER YOU 'FINISH' WHAT 'IT IS' YOU WERE TRYING TO SAY."

I think You've covered it--abusers use anything they can to justify their abuse, but You know what's happening and they won't like the end result of their actions. How'd I do? You're not answering...okay, I'll post it now.

Well--after posting this entry I see that the previous entry made it to the webpage after all.

"I AM GOD' ... 'THAT IS WHY' ... AMEN?" (Yes Sir--Amen)

Truth vs. Lies of Abuse in the Scriptures
Topic: Religion and abuse
I feel the need to shed some light on a few misleading religious beliefs related to abuse. I'll be blunt--NOWHERE in the Bible does it say, "abuse your wife and/or children"! Abusers use anything they can to justify their actions--especially Scriptures. They will pay for their actions when they see Jesus face-to-face!

The first "twisted scripture" I want to address is: "Wives, submit to your husbands..." An abuser believes this gives him authority to abuse and that is WRONG! He is not only mis-interpreting what God means but he's setting himself up for an eternity he won't enjoy after he dies.

The truth--Jesus said "LOVE ONE-ANOTHER AS I HAVE LOVED YOU"...any man who lays a hand on his wife or children to do them harm is not loving anyone but himself and that is completely against Christ's teachings! The Bible also has a scripture in it that an abuser usually conveniently skips over: HUSBANDS, LOVE YOUR WIVES AS CHRIST LOVED THE CHURCH (AND GAVE HIMSELF FOR IT). When was the last time Jesus punched you in the face? Ladies, rest assured God knows what's going on.
"OR 'I WOULD' NOT HAVE 'POSTED' THIS ON THE WEBSITE...'HE IS' WRONG TO ABUSE YOU...NO MATTER 'WHAT' HE SAYS...'MY WORD' EXPOSES 'HIS TYPE' IN THE BOOK OF REVELATION...A 'LIAR', 'THEIF'..AND 'ADULTERER'...'I AM' AWARE OF 'WHAT' HE DOES AND HE WILL BE PUNISHED FOR IT...IN 'THIS' LIFE AND IN THE NEXT--YOUR FATHER IN HEAVEN...GOD"

Be Encouraged!
We all need a little encouragement now and then. This song by P.O.D. always lifts my spirits:

Alive

Everyday is a new day
I’m thankful for every breath I take
I won’t take it for granted
So I learn from my mistakes
It’s beyond my control, sometimes it’s best to let go
Whatever happens in this lifetime
So I trust in love
You have given me peace of mind

I, I feel so alive for the very first time
I can’t deny you (I feel so alive)
I, I feel so alive for the very first time
And I think I can fly

Sunshine upon my face
A new song for me to sing
Tell the world how I feel inside
Even though it might cost me everything
Now that I know this, so beyond, I can’t hold this
I can never turn my back away
Now that I’ve seen you
I can never look away

I, I feel so alive for the very first time
I can’t deny you (I feel so alive)
I, I feel so alive for the very first time
And I think I can fly

Now that I know you (I could never turn my back away)
Now that I see you (I could never look away)
Now that I know you (I could never turn my back away)
Now that I see you (I believe no matter what they say)

Financing Your Escape
One of the reasons someone stays in an abusive relationship is lack of finances. If someone gave you $1,000--you'd probably take the next bus out of town, right? Sometimes "creative financing" is necessary to fund your escape to freedom. Here are some ideas:

Get a credit card in your name and have it sent to a friend's address. Have him/her keep it for you until you're ready to leave--for good. While you're at it, stash a bag of personal papers you'll need for your new life at their home too (birth certificates, etc). MAKE SURE THE ABUSER IS NOT CLOSE FRIENDS WITH HIM/HER FIRST! SOME OF MY OWN FAMILY MEMBERS BETRAYED ME WHEN I TRIED TO LEAVE MY ABUSER IN THE PAST, SO BE CAREFUL!

Begin buying gold and diamond jewelry and stashing it somewhere until your bags are packed and loaded in the car. When you reach your destination, sell them at a local jeweler or pawn shop. You may decide to sell it before you leave so you'll have cash as you travel. Yes--I said jeweler! Check out the phone book--some retail jewelers WILL buy your used gold and diamonds (especially a wedding or engagement ring!).

If you're "allowed" to work, take a job as a waitress. The abuser will never know EXACTLY how much you made in tips for the week!

Stash, save, scrimp...skee-daddle!

You're where you are TEMPORARILY, though sometimes it feels like you'll be there forever. Think of the last time you felt like you were "stuck" and there was no hope--has that time now passed? This, too shall pass.

Most importantly--DON'T GIVE UP HOPE!!!

Pray your way "Out of Egypt"! You're in my Prayers as well and remember that you've come to this webpage for a reason--God is aware of the trials you face!

Trusting Your Instincts
Topic: How I survived
One thing is for certain--it takes a lot of courage to leave an abusive household. Fear makes it difficult to "just leave" and people don't understand why a woman stays ... or returns. I used to think the same way when I witnessed my mother leaving an abusive partner only to return days--sometimes weeks--later. I always told myself that if I ended up with a man who hit me I'd kill him ... until it happened to me. There is only one word to explain why a woman stays or returns to be abused again and that word is FEAR.

Fear makes you believe that you won't wake up to see another day, and fear makes you return to the abuser when he's stalked you and says he'll kill you (or himself) if you don't come home. The only person who can understand your situation is God Himself or someone who's survived an abusive relationship. I stopped trying to explain my fears to others and did what I needed to do to survive. For some of you, that's the only thing that matters right now--survival.

Your fears are not irrational--nor are you over-reacting when you lie in bed at night wondering if you'll be killed in your sleeep. God gives us a Gift called INSTINCT--use it as a survival tool. Animals have used it since the earth was created. Have you ever wondered why you can't sneak up on one in the wild? They sense you--they sense potential danger--and so do we! God has equipped you with the inner skills to survive this trial you've been facing ... ask Him to help you fine-tune them and lead you "Out of Egypt".

Freedom
I've been free for 3 years now and I'm able to enjoy life as I wish. When in an abusive relationship, that freedom is gone for fear of being "taught a lesson" or hearing the abuser complain and yell. This is a time of reflection--what have you put aside in life that the abuser has taken away from you? Is being held captive by their RULES worth staying in that relationship? Today, I'm off to the beach to enjoy the sun and surf ... something my former abuser never would have "allowed" me to do (or he would have made sure I was miserable for doing it). I Pray that God gives you courage and strength as you plan your way "Out of Egypt".