monday may.26.2oo3 1:07am
edit - 7:18pm isnt it strange how a person's feelings can fluctuate between the two extremes within a few hours? its amazing...cos im that kind of person =] been doing a lot of thinking recently...good + bad thinking...i wonder how many hours of the day am i happy + how many hours am i upset? i suppose no one would really know apart from me. so not point in asking. but anyways, i got working again...my motivation is sorta coming back which is a very good sign =] like alan said, "we can do it" =] been talking to a few ppl who i didnt talk to for a while (a while meaning from a few months to a few days)....+ its all been nice conversations so ima happy girl =] hahaha now that i think about it, this is the time when im glad i live on my own (sorta)...if anyone saw me this morning (wee hours...1/2am) + compared to now...hahaha oh i amuse (or amaze) myself =] aaanyways....dont you realise that we tend to think more at night? esp those hours between 11pm - 2/3am....there's something about those early early hours in the morning that make you think so much....it's not true for everyone but its true for me. been having quite a few things on my mind....wondering how u 4 girls are coping in your internals....my own exams...my baby...a few other people...what to do in summer...+ the one's i havent spoken to in ages. sometimes i think i think too much, sometimes i think i dont think enough. maybe if i stopped thinking about whether i think too much or think enough ill have more time to think about other things. did i just confuse everyone? hm i think so. oh haiiii. hmm there are some people i havent seen in ages...like literally ages. people in school and people out of school. after my exams ill go out + try see everyone. well the ones i can see anyways. im sure u 4 girls are feeling very bored/lonely/sad/upset/depressed (choose the appropriate word) without me in school =] ill be in school...soon =] but of course, i miss u all too =[. home can only be good for a short while, + right now...its just getting boring + fustrating. boring cos theres nothing to do...fustrating cos theres revision to do. sigh... anyways on a happier (well...?) note, the positions for "the people who talk to/with me the most" has changed already. within a day. now isnt that amazing? i think so. =] the first 3 remain the same (well theyre kinda unbeatable) but 4th + 5th have switched around. baby GO online + stop lazzzing around on your bed! you're falling behindddd...hahah =]. anyways im gonna continue with my chemistry...ive done chemistry ALL day....happy happy joy joy. tata.
sunday may.25.2oo3 12:03pm
edit - 12:46pm oooh i forgot to talk about friday night...well i didnt end up watching the movie with kat + kate (SORRY!) cos it was just too far + i was lazzzy...met with irvin in cwb + waited for sweta + janis then headed to central....lankwai was pretty packed but it was all the oldd people....maddogs is renovating so all the young ppl were scattered around everywhere....maddogs we miss u already!! heh well we ended up in hardy's (or now called "infinity")...the music was all hiphop but it was the hiphop that u cant dance to, but we danced anyways! the dj wasnt bad looking either! haha OOOH kat i saw your "sex god"!! haha anyways then janis suggested we go to dv8 but it literally took forever to get there....it was on the other side of wanchai! damnit the place was like closer to cwb then it was to the rest of wanchai! my feet were KILLING so i wasnt very pleased at all...irvin was dead tired + when we got to dv8 we kinda stood there for ages deciding what to do...so the night kinda went downhill from there....but overall it wasnt so bad i guess! i finally found the bus that goes straight home from cwb!! YAY!! =] so that was definately the highlight of the night! hahah =] anyways! today ill attempt to study, + when irvin calls im gonna have to go out + try my formal dress on! heh YAY!! =] okaaay i need to work now so tata.
edit - 2:02pm
friday may.23.2oo3 11:45am
edit - 1:24pm well ive been reading stuff on materials + stages of production for the past hour or so...so not intrested but hey at least im revising =] was talking to alan just then...he was touched by the little thing i made for him last night =] so im happy cos i made someone else happpy =] anyways he's got internals but he doesnt have school....u girls have internals too but u girls have school...now how unfair is that? while you're all slaving away at school im at home lazing/revising....now arent u ppl jeaaaalous? mwahaha okok enough evil-ness....im gonna meet kat + kate + ppl later to watch how to lose a guy in 10 days...perfect chick flick that'll probably leave a grin on my face! =] then im gonna be heading to lankwai to partaaay! woooOt havent been out in absolutely AGES so im anticipatinggg =] oh i also figured im gonna have to head to school next week some day cos ive got stuff to ask playford....dont know exactly how to revise for graphics + i need more past papers...i have like...uh 3? hahah so yeeeh...anyways im gonna go revise some more cos im a NERD...mwahaha okok tata.
thursday may.22.2oo3 6:28pm
tuesday may.20.2oo3 1:17pm
edit - 10:30pm sooo i went out to have dinner with my baby just then...we ate at spaghetti house...heh a more expensive dinner to sorta celebrate that his exams are over! but there's like a proper one tmr! there's a dinner with his wholeee class...+ there's me + his best friends gf....haha us 2 are like the only non-fis ppl...hehe oh well! we're having dinner in regal hotel in cwb...high class! =] heh anywaysss so then i went around mongkok to do some formal shopping...i bought these real funky earrings to go with my funky dress...+ bought some fake diamond studs just incase i didnt like the funky earrings that night + ive always wanted some! i bought pink + black studs too! =] and i bought this funky diamond chain that wraps around my waist to go with the dress...i thought the dress was a bit plain...the chain will spice it up a little =] pure funky-ness =] BUT i still cant find a bag/clutch!! damnittttt....gonna have to go shop for one again! aiii ma fan! hehe oh well dont matter shopping is good! but im brokeee...stupid father...came back yesterday but went without leaving me my money...CHEAP ASSHOLE...grrrrr...anywayssss enough about him! im generally happy that i got quite a few things! so im only missing a bag...or else im doneeeee! =] okkk ive slacked too much need to revise for gs tmr! good luck to the rest of u poor poor as ppl who need to do gs! tata.
monday may.19.2oo3 9:51pm
sunday may.18.2oo3
edit - 9:17pm im sooo sorry baby...i really dont wanna miss your graduation ceremony but ARGH STUPID FKING GENERAL STUDIES EXAM! im SOOO sorry =[ ill make it up to u somehow....ill be there for dinner but i cant get there earlier.....IM SOOO SORRY =[ whoever decided that all year 12's should do gs should GO FK THEMSELVES.....GRR SO not pleased...
sunday may.18.2oo3 4:54pm
edit - 7:21pm i made this when i was on a break from revising
saturday may.17.2oo3 4:08pm
friday may.16.2oo3 12:49pm
edit - 10:37pm i can literally feel my mental health going downhill. right down. i need to get into FULL revision mode. god help me.
thursday may.15.2oo3 12:59pm
edit - 3:16pm to ada, kat, kate + gajie - Somewhere b e t w e e n the procrastination....and the homework.....and the incessant forwards.....and the friendships.....and the calls to each other complaining about crushes!!
edit - 9:14pm What's YOUR sexual fetish? wednesday may.14.2oo3 9:09pm
tuesday may.13.2oo3 11:18pm
monday may.12.2oo3 12:54am
edit - 8:19pm my FIRST day of study leave + my day hasnt been very productive. i ate + napped + surfed + chatted but thats about it...well i did manage to do a little gs revision. for those of you who dont know how to revise for gs go here! well its been quite a nice day today tho...feels like holidays...again! man i hope my revision motivation comes back soon...ive gotta psy mock tmr + i cant screw it up or else ms pykes gonna KILL me...+ i really dont want that! OOOH i forgot to add last night...that on sat i watched xmen2...SHIT hugh jackman is SO SEXXXAY even tho hes a little furry in the show....haha but i loveddd the movie, better than the first one! but irvin doesnt agreee...PSHT i like the second one more =] iceman is SO cool...hes pretty cute too! haha i wish i could blow some cold air into my coke to make it chilled! damnnn...heh oh well! not gonna say anymore so i dont ruin it for the ones that havent seen it (kate)...haha =] oooh i wanna watch this movie called "bruce almighty"...saw the preview + it looks pretty damn funny...its got jim carrey + jennifer aniston in it...hehe + i wanna watch matrix2 + how to lose a guy in 10 days!! DAMN exams...ill try + watch them anyways =] okok i think ive written enough so im outt...needa revise =] OHHH im in school tmr so ill see u all IB ppl =]
feeling - tired
feeling - very very blank....
im feeling so blank right now...my mind is SO empty its quite...weird. i feel like im in a trance. ughh anyways...i watched MATRIX RELOADED in cwb this morning (midnight movie - 12:15am)....MY GOD IT WAS SO GOOD....i honestly don't remember the last time i walked out the cinema thinking a movie was THAT amazing....holy shit it was like WOAH!! the effects were stunning....keanu reeves looks SO damn good in that long black coat + his fighting scenes were superb!! the keymaker was unbelievably cute...hahaha i love cute old people....the twins were just freaky but i loved it when one of them went "we feel agitated" and the other goes "i know" or sth...hahah i also loved it when trinity goes "nice move/nice trick" when they disappear into the floor going after the keymaker - hahaha...anyways hahaha omg the guy in the restaurant said the best line - "i drink too much wine, i take a piss" with a french accent....hahaha man that was funnny...does anyone know exactly what he said? hahah it was so funny when he was "cursing" in french....hahahah ='] man I WANNA WATCH IT AGAIN!! its soooooo good!! this has GOT to be one of my favourite movies now!! HIGHLY RECOMMENED!! EVERYONE GO WATCH IT!! haha i loved the bit where one agent smith goes "do we attack?" and the other goes "yes, he's only human"....AHHH im in loveeee =] hahaha oooh im sure neo has a VERY nice ass but trinity covered it...BOOOO...hahahahah =] hehe okok i better shut up before i tell the world about the whole movie + ruin it for the ones who havent seen it! im gonna go brush me teeth so tata.
AQUA
You enjoy life, humor, and being exuberant. Wherever you go you usually find yourself stealing the spotlight without even trying. You love to let go and have fun.
hah yeh i suppose that is me, cept im not sure about the stealing spotlight bit =] and sorry to the ones who tried coming to my site but it didnt load...stupid angelfire cleared out everything in the file AGAIN so i switched to http://www.freewebz.com. its got more space + NO ADS! now arent U ppl happy? =]
feeling - blank
just woke up so not really feeling anything =] been listening to 903 since i woke up.....the "gwong bor kek" made me wonder....why do men avoid questions that ask them why they do what they do? are they ashamed of doing it? or do they not want to explain? or do they just do it and not think about any consequences? or do they simply realise that theyve done the wrong thing as soon as they've done it? but then us girls give up so easily....we dont ask anymore...simply cos we're sick of asking + getting no reply....or sick of asking and getting the typical male answers eg. "i dont know", "yeh", "okay.....", "sorry", "i dont know what to say"....fking hell. im sure most girls/women have been in a similiar situation before....haiii men are just unbelievable.....(insert about half + hour here) went for lunch just then + watched a bit of tv....just the other day...the tv program showed this absolutely perfect boyfriend - good looking, good job, extremely sweet - and he was asking this girl out...i was like wow u dont meet this kinda guy ever in real life....then just then...the same program showed the same perfect guy....but in fact the guy's gay. the girl confronts him + he goes "look im sorry okay? i just wanted a 'normal' lifestyle" fkingggggg asshole....men men men...the good guys are all extinct, thats for sure. anyways enough ranting about the other sex, i should go work so tata.
feeling - good but slightly tired
wahaha general studies is ALL OVER =] thank goddd! anyways that was yesterday...well after the stupid exam...went to cwb regal hotel to meet irvin + the rest of his class for like a graduation dinner thing...a little messed up in the beginning cos a lot more ppl showed up than expected...but it was good in the end! =] the dinner was pretty good...the dessert was really good...it was this peach sorta thing...cant remember what its called =] everything was 50% off so me + irvin had this 3 course meal which was like $200 or sth...pretty cheap considering we were in a hotel! =] anyways then some of us went to fenwicks in wanchai...i swear i thought i saw ms goss...but it wasnt her! hahaha anyways it was a little quiet in the beginning...the live band was crap too...SO loud + so crap...hahaha but it was nice to be out again....JANIS remember im seeing u EVERY friday + saturday k? haha gotta go out moreeee...we havent been out in AGES! cant be losers anymore! hahaah =] anywayssss...it got better after a while + some of the fis teachers showed up...haha my god the geo teacher was so strange...grabbed my hand + said he was impressed with how ive been going out with irvin for so long...then he goes "ONE LOVE"....HAHAHAHAHA anyways it was pretty fun tho...just loved being out again! havent been out in AGES but im going out tmr again!! YAY!! =] OOOH kat + kate we'll go party (or partdee for kate...haha) after u guys have your internals k? anyways irvin slept over last night...his mum called at like 5:30...GRRRR if i get woken up during the night ill feel like i didnt sleep for the whole night...which is what happened....i woke up at like 3 today...reluctantly woke up at 3 cos irvin was starving next to me...haha but i still feel tired despite the fact i had like 12 hours of sleeeeep....oh well! anyways im gonna go burn some cd's so ill add more later =] tata.
feeling - great/not so great
im feeling great cos i havent felt so relaxed for a long long time! but i also feel not so great cos i was surfing for some ideas of a new layout...so i started to look at all these pictures of beautiful islands + beaches....tahiti - mauritius - bali - fiji...i really wouldnt mind going to ANY of those places right about NOW =[ SIGHHHH....here are some of the BEAUTIFUL pictures....
i want a holiday! i cant wait till summer....safrica, singapore, beach, "formal" dinners, madd clubbing, bumming around doing nothing.... PURE BLISSS....i cant wait! =] okok ive lazed around enough better get some gs revision done...tata.
feeling - HAPPY
woOt my psychology exam is OVER mwahahah so yeh im HAPPY =] now i can slack a little...well like a few hours...then gotta do some gs revision! =] my goddd irvins formals in like 11 days! arghhh im SO not ready! well i bought my formal shoes just then!! good start...then i need to get a bag...+ makeup...ive got jeweller already...so not thattt screwed i suppose =] LALA im in sucha good moooooood...haha so glad psychology is overrrr...so now...3 exams done...9 more to go YEH I CAN DO IT =]...i hope so anyways! aiii chemistry has like the double amount of stuff compared to other subjects...STUPID STUPID CHEMISTRY...HATE HATE HATE...glad im dropping it next year!! wont have to go to the lessons after exams too!! wooOt! 4 afternoon freeeeees after exams! ADA i can go out with u on thursday 7+8 thennnnn =] hehe u know u want to! =] anyways im gonna go surf + see if i can find tips on my formal makeup! haha girls will be girls...TA!
feeling - blank
ive been talking to myself all day. all day. before u start calling up a psychologist to cure me...ive just been revising + memorising my psychology units =] i havent gone crazy....yet. ive memorised like 3 units now....another 3 to go =] i got my psy unit 2 mock in the post just then....i got 78% + i didnt even revise for it! so ive got HOPE =] maybe ill aim for 100%....i hope its possible =] make myself proud =] ANYWAYS....i had a strange dream last night...didnt manage to find out the meaning of my dream but it was....um...intresting =] hahah my god this is sucha psychology-orientated post...haha how sadddd. i bought like 5 small packs of animal biscuits yesterday...i just finished all of them in one go...haha im sucha piggg. i need to stop pigging out...im not having fastfood until irvins formal...so thats like 11 days...HOLY SHIT its in 11 days?? WOW FUCK okay gonna start preparing...i havent even bought shoes yet! but ive found a pair....so its okay =] i THINK i know what i want to do with my hair...i think...haha man im so not prepared =p heh just flipped thru the formal pics from last year...im gonna look pretty different...haha thats the point tho right? hmmm yess...okay i should get back to revision now =] good luck to the maths + other psychology people tmr =]
feeling - crap. downright crap.
wow look at my name analysis :
Your name of Delilah gives you a clever mind, good business judgment, a sense of responsibility, and an appreciation of the finer things of life. You are serious-minded and not inclined to make light of things even in little ways, and in your younger years you had more mature interests than others your age. Home and family mean a great deal to you and it is natural that you should desire the security of a peaceful, settled home environment where you can enjoy the companionship of family and friends. Whatever you set out to accomplish you do your very best to complete in accordance with what you consider to be right. In the home you assume your responsibilities capably, having the self-confidence to form your own opinions and make your own decisions. Others can rely on you; once you have given your word you will do your utmost to fulfil a responsibility. However, there is a tendency to be a little too independent in your thinking and it is difficult for you to accept the help of others when you should. Due to your strong sense of responsibility, you could experience worry and mental turmoil through assuming more responsibility than you should. Friction could arise through others feeling that you were interfering with their rights and privileges, even though you are only trying to help.
yup thats me alright. that description up there is ME. my name reflects a lot of me...cept i dont have a clever brain. i really dont. oh wait before i forget...click on your own name to see your name analysis...ada, kat, kate, gajie. have fun reading =]
grrr my stomachs been giving me attitude + its been hurting all afternoon. i cant concentrate. i simply cant. and its fking driving me insane. i need concentration. fking hell i even turned off my computer mon, turned off all sounds (music, radio)...bloody hell its just me + the book + i STILL cant fking concentrate. fking stomach ache. argh so much hate so much hate. FKING hell....im so not pleased. SO not fking pleased. ima go kill someone.
feeling - hot + sticky...temperature hot
im personally not much of a car person...ive always had a thing for ancient little cars....i looove the mini cooper + the old beetle + the smart car...all the little cars that would fit me and like no one else...but last night...i found a NEW love =] i present the HOT PINK S2000 :
OMG i am in LOVEEEE...the WHOLE car is in pink...the interior + the exterior! OH MY....its beautiful! state of art =] its featured in the fast and furious 2 which is gonna be out in the states in june...so im guessing it'll be out in hk...like in september? sigh movies in hk come out SO late its quite pathetic...anywaysss...another thought...isnt it amazing how some people can tell you how important you are to them but when you stop talking to them, they make NO effort to talk to you whatsoever? i dont understand how that can even happen....oh well i suppose there are lots of different ppl in the world....so we'll just have to tolerate with the assholes right? righttt....whatever. gonna take a shower so im outt.
feeling - not that great
aiii cooking noodles again...ive had noodles for like what 5 days in a row? fucking hell my grandma's all "how come you're eating noodles again?" UH cos the stuff u cook taste's like SHIET + u never ask me if i wanna have lunch or not maybe?? psht selfish bitch...might as well starve me to death....sigh whatever...think im gonna have to start cooking my own meals...haiii we pay her and she doesnt even COOK for me...dont even know why i should bother paying...ugh whatever. i wanna move out...aii...
Somewhere b e t w e e n the phone calls to old friends.....and the "I miss you's" & the "I love you's"....... and the "What are we doing tonight's?".....and somewhere b e t w e e n all of the changing, growing... Somewhere b e t w e e n the classes.......and the skipping classes.....and the studying for tests.....and the pretending to study for tests......and the downright NOT studying for tests.
I forgot........I forgot what growing up is all about. I forgot what it meant to cry.....I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy........and that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart.......I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future.........I forgot that you can't control falling in love and that you can't make yourself fall in love.
I learned that I can love........I learned that it's okay to mess up.......and it's okay to ask for help.......and it's okay to feel like crud.........I learned it's okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day.......I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have. I learned that the greatest thing about school isn't the Dances or the DRiNKiNG or the hook-ups....It's the friendships, which means taking chances.......I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about.......I learned that letters from friends are the most important thing. And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better.
But, basically, I just learned that my friends........Both o l d and new........are the most important people to me in the world. And without them, I wouldn't be who I am today..... So this is a thank you to all of my friends. For always being there and I love you.
i found this email forward so i decided to dedicate it to u guys while you're all slaving away at school...+ while im relaxing at home...mwahahah =] hope you all feel special after reading this =] a biggg *MUAH* + *HUG* to u all for being so WONDERFUL k? no matter how much we argue + disagree (ada) or how little i go out with u (ada) or how lame u are (kate)...remember u people are VERY special to meee + when we all go our seperate ways in about a years time we'll stay in touch no matter what! aww man this is all emotional...hahah =]
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feeling - okay...kinda blank
well i had my first exam today...stupid general studies...a waste of time + money! aiii anywaysss...wasnt so bad i suppose...the revision i did helped so im gladd...if i didnt do any revision i wouldve been so confused by the questions...hmm its starting to rain again...BIGGG lightning...ARGHHHHHH THUNDER!!! *shivers* i HATE thunders...i cannot emphasize how much i HATE thunders...it so SCARRRY...*ahem* anywayssss im listening to the joey yung cd...its pretty good actually =] hmm okay here goes my day...met irvin for lunch in hunghom...walked around in granville...back to school for prs lesson (there was only 4 of us...haha)...then down to shatin with kat kate + ada since the STUPID gs exam was at 545 (kat - shooting "jun ju's" at ada...hahaha)...then the stupid exam itself...then HOMEEEE!! =] gonna get down to some serious revision tmr...psy's on MONDAY...ARGH.....i can feel the stresssssssss already! =[ aiii im gonna go destress myself by taking a showerrrrr so im outtt.
feeling - content
hmm i dont usually say "content"...haha oh well dont matter! i think its the gs revision that's making me say weird things! before i forget...HAPPY 18TH KAT - you're getting OLD haha anywayss...i could swear i lost all motivation for the past few days...i got seriously worried...my mind kept drifting...i just could not concentrate!! i would read sth...then completely forget what i read like 3 secs later!! i literally could not think straight...i would just sit there and my thoughts would drift + ill just be staring in one direction...BUT now im a LOT better...cos i can concentrate now!! =] well sortaaa...with the aid of music...special music tho! music that motivates me.....its also music that reminds me of many things...but i suppose motivation is more important right? right. anywayssss ive got my first exam tmr - gs...as chris puts it "its like a poodle jumping up and biting on ur balls...its a pain in the nuts!"...hahaha well i wouldnt know how that feels but i do agree with the fact that its a pain! STUPID STUPID gs..other schools dont even have to DO the bloody exam....grrrr whoever thought making everyone in the year do gs made a BAD choice...sighhh anyways i suppose its a little late to be complaining right nowwww...been reading stuff on politics...PSHT like i really care! STUPID EXAMS...cant wait till they're ALL over haha its a bit early to say that...havent even done ONE...hahaha =] OOOH did a psy mock today! aiii disaster! anyways gonna get back to revision so im outtt.
feeling - blank
i've decided to blog again. for those of u who dont know what happened, everything on my page was cleared out except for the html + body codes...i dont know if it was a prank or im just very unfortunate. whatever it was, trust me i was devastated. for the ones who blog as well, you might understand how pissing off + upsetting it is to lose all of the thoughts you put down...but for some of you, u probably dont care. anyways i was (sorta) lucky cos i changed my blogging acc recently, so in reality i lost about a months worth of blogging...ARGH im still pissed off tho. *sigh* anywaysss...spent my whole weekend with irvin...did nothing cept eat, tv, movies + sleep! not productive at all but it was so nice...havent spent times like these with my baby for sooo long. like SO long. so it made up for the unhappy stuff. anyways on friday went down to shatin with kat kate + hayley...haha omg we laughed so much in mcds i swear ppl think we're psycho =] + we probably are! then went to fw afterwards with kat...talk about fate, i saw an old friend while i was in mango....my god was it awkward. (kat - shes so UGH...=[) then went to log-on + saw the strangiest hat-sorta-looking-thing...it was made of like this net sorta material but trust me, it was UGLY. cant even see when u put on the damn thing...funny how the log-on staff thought we were gonna steal it! psht fat chance. oooh + we won tag rugby on friday! what an achievement! =] winning ONE game...hahah =] anyways i need to be more productive since my first exam is in 2 days time...even tho its gs + u cant exactly revise for it. to all my friends who are also slaving over books for the exams - GOOD LUCK its now monday so its my first day of study leave + im up blogging...not a good start! the fear of exams comes + goes...im not panicing yet...but i should be! oh well im sure it'll kick in soon. thanks to kate + jenny for the sexxay signs! if im bothered ill post them up later =] anyways i really should sleep...just thought ill add a little note to my baby - when our exams are over we can spend days doing nothing cept watchin conan + eating okay? =] heh ily loads baby...never forget that. =]
