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Rambling Incoherently
Saturday, 28 February 2004
Sick and Tired
I'm so fucking sick and tired of worrying about him. If he would have said, "Hey, I'm gonna take a couple of vacation days I'll be back [insert day here]." I wouldn't worry so much. But this shit fucking sucks. I hate not having contact with him outside of work. IT FUCKING SUCKS!!!

I should just give up and be done with it. Fucking asshole.

Posted by blog/delusionalbeauty at 11:53 PM EST
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Wednesday, 25 February 2004





Posted by blog/delusionalbeauty at 12:52 PM EST
Updated: Saturday, 28 February 2004 11:45 PM EST
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I hate brief phone calls...
For someone who slept all day, I sure am a sleepy little girl. I feel as if I've been up for 3 days straight. My eyes are burning, and my tummy is empty. I'm craving chocolate (must be close to my ladies days), but the only chocolate I have is Krispy Kreme Doughnuts. I really don't like them, but I might have to suffer through a few to calm my cravings. I know I should eat some real food, but I'm sick of pizza and too lazy to make soup. I don't feel like standing up. I'll probably just make a phone call, take some more tylenol, put in a movie and go to bed.

*makes phone call*

Well, okay that was short But then again, This is a typical conversation between us
*phone rings twice*

Jay: "This is Jay."

Me: "How's you're night going?"

Jay: "Eh, It's goin."

Me: "Goin' where?"

Jay: *sarcastically* "har har, very funny."

Me: "You know you love me."

Jay: *hears typing in background "What are you DOING?"

Me: "Finishing up some blogging, getting ready to take some tylenol and going to bed."

Jay: "shoulda figgered you were on the computer"

Me: "yeah what else does a thirdshifter have to do on their nights off?"

Jay: "True"

Me: "I was just thinking, When I saw you last, I could have shown you my Bettie Tattoo."

Jay: "I don't think you had it in August."

Me: "You sure. Lemme check." *checks other journal* "Yep. You're right I didn't get it til October"

*walkie talkie beeps*

Me: "Don't tell my you have to carry one of those damn things around"

Jay: "Yep, gotta monitor my people to make sure they aren't saying anything foul over the radios. Plus it makes it easier for me to yell at them. This way I don't have to hunt all over the store for them"

Me: "You're such a dick"

Jay: "Yeah, but that's what the way I'm supposed to be"

Me (remembering conversation about what he was told when he got his promotion):"Oh, yeah. The BMOC told ya you had to be more of a prick huh?"

Jay: "Yup. I don't mind though. They've learned to read me pretty well here. When I'm mad, they just run the other direction"

Me: "as opposed to when you worked with us. We saw you were mad and bugged the hell out of you. OR I just promised you that I would show you my boobies, and you would smile"

Jay: "Just seeing you made me smile"

Me: "You are such a dork"

Jay: "Yeah, well..."

*call waiting beeps*

Jay: "I'm beepin'"

Me: "Yeah I heard. I'm going to bed anyway."

Jay: "Try and get some rest."

Me: "you're one to talk"

Jay: "Fine, Have a good night"

Me: "I get to sleep. I will. You try not to bust too many asses tonight"

Jay: *laughs* "I love you."

Me: "I love you too."

Jay: "G'night, Punky"

Me: "G'night, Baby"

*End Phone Conversation.

Posted by blog/delusionalbeauty at 2:06 AM EST
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Good Mood and a dream...
Jay's in a good mood tonight. That makes me happy. It's not often that I hear that. I'm not sure how to describe it. He just ounds upbeat. I love when he's like that. Anyway, I am SOOOO cold. and coughing up a storm. My chest hurts from it. When I breathe in it feels like ssomeone is squeezing my lungs. I really hate being sick. REALLY REALLY HATE IT!!!! I was supposed to go to columbus today, but I stayed in bed.

There is this guy that keeps flirting with me at work. I told Jay about it and that I was going to break up with him because "I have a new boyfriend." He was just like "Yeah, uh-huh, I see how you are." I just laughed at him knowing he knows me better than that. "The only way I would do that is if you did something unforgivably horrible to me" to which he responded, "I don't see that happening, so I guess I have nothing to worry about."

I still haven't figured out why he loves me so much. Nevermind that we can't be together. In ANY sense of the word. But I guess that's how I know he really does love me. He's not trying to get me into bed (well.. not all the time *wink*), and knowing that we can't have sex (make love, whatever you want to call it) He still loves me. Supports me in everything I do.

Had a dream about The Man yesterday. In the dream, he came home from a show and told me that some random hardcore groupie gave him head, so I kicked him out. If only it were that easy in real life.

I should be calling him back, but I'll wait until later when I know he won't be as busy and can talk for a bit.

Posted by blog/delusionalbeauty at 12:56 AM EST
Updated: Wednesday, 25 February 2004 1:02 AM EST
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