161 studying
well erick & i went to crepevine & ont he way back some guy in a truck & sunglasses yells at us in particular "rock out with your c... out"
& we were thoroughly confused
but it was quite the laugh break while we were pseudostudying
we were at strada for a while & then migrated to the super DC...
let's say you can see the effects of caffenine in both of us right away
it reminded me of 140 in the basement
it was a feeling of i have no control over this anymore i give up...but i'll feel guilty if i fully give up type of thing
& we remembered john meehan said before our 166 final "why is it ieor students are always laughing before their tests" (it's soooo true)
& we decided it's cuz we cover our stress with laughter
anyways..the night was filled w/ strange conversation including many burgstone & lim references which i won't go into hahah...& drooling like homer simpson
we finished all we could & then went to bed to get up at 7 to meet again to study the last chapter
we dragged ourselves to cafe milano by about 7:30
we were too tired to be funny
we were rather productive & it is & probably will be the most i will ever understand markov chains
then we got sick of things & we headed in the direction of the final
we had a good half hour or so to spare so we lay on the grass & fell asleep (good thing erick set his alarm...& that we were on the grass right under the campanile so it was ringing loudly at noon)
i had always seen people sleeping on the grass & i never realized how nice it feels....
as i was falling asleep i was artsily thinking
wow it's like the warmth of the sun is my blanket and the earth my bed
& then i probably proceeded to water the grass with my slobber haha jk....
erick woke up with a funny pattern on the side of his face from using his backpack as a pillow haha
the final was horrible
i'm not sure if it was just me
but it was definitely harder than both the midterms & there was at least one question that i had never seen the likes of before...i felt so shitty
but afterwards erick had promised to let me watch ellen degeneres (her standup stuff about procrastination) & it was hilarious...she totally picks up on people's little idiosyncracies....i was laughing so hard people probably thought i was insane
anyways...i've been rather unproductive since the final
oh yea i found out that kaori is selling campus market & in a strange way (of course in retrospect) it makes me pretty sad...
i have to take back my cards of course
& i guess that too makes me sad
i'm pretty uninteresting right now haha
finals have really drained the motivation & such out of me
& as anthony "you're a junior! you ahve no excuse!"
& it's true:( haha
i'm just being a lazy butt
i guess i should study since i have two finals left still...booo
i need to do well in 165...rah
& i can't believe gareth's "rawr" is making itself into my regular vocabulary
it's just kinda funny though sooo yea
i think have come to terms with the fact that maybe things won't turn out the way i want them to....i realize more & more & i am becoming what i've always wanted to be....though it's not what i expected it to be...it does feel nice...i'm a lot stronger & independent....
i've been putting on the chub oy...
i thought i wouldn't this finals season but i can feel it! it's cuz of my lack of sleep i decided becauze i haven't been eating an excessive amount (besides fondue)...i have been slacking in exercise though...whatever....i'm not as upset about it as i would normally be
i will be going to a party at john meehan's friday....hopefully it will be fun! i think knowing people there will help:P
i will also be going to the commencement reception on saturday cuz i offered to volunteer...maybe we can sell some yearbooks as well!
the thought of the seniors leaving is making me more & more sad....unless we make the effort to keep in touch i know it won't happen....& that bothers me
because as i told chanda the other day
it's not like high school...in high school you're kind of stuck with your group of people....you have to stay friendly...otherwise there is unnecessary drama...
in college we choose our friends
we choose who we want to be associated with & who we want to hang out with & how much....
how close you want them to be...& how much you want to care about them
& some i'm just really sad to see leave....
anyways i can get sentimental later:)
good luck to di on her midterm & paper
& everyone else on their finals
it will be over soon!