st. valentine's day
Mood:
hug me
i started out the day fine
but as i left for class after pe i felt so sick..physically
& then as i walked through campus i saw more girls than normal dressed up...satin outfits..a lot of pink & reds & high heels
i kind of looked at them w/ disgust & a tinge of jealousy
i began to think...
i realize that lot of people find valentine's day to be commercialized but that wasn't really my thought...
my thought was velentine's day was really more of a day that pissed of single people more than it was special for couples
of all the things people have done for me that made me feel loved or special..none of them were on valentine's day...in fact valentine's day fesitivites are so forced that i don't see much thought or love in the entire process
it's a day that people need the corporate world to pump out corny things to give your significant other
& the people that buy them are people that never could put into words what they wanted to say...
it almost makes it less sincere & these things are bought simply because they know that is what he/she wants to hear...
where is the love in that?
i went through most of the day apathetic but somewhat bitter w/ these thoughts in my head...undoing any sincerity of any act of love in my head
but then the day got better as erick & i were drawing faces in class
& then it was the last class of the day for me
& i saw gareth walk in w/ his signature pink shirt and a single orange pink rose...
we all teased him & asked him who the rose was for or who it was from..he grew red
& then he sat next to me & we passed notes & i asked him details
i guessed who the rose was for & i was right
it turns out he met this girl he had a crush on a couple of years ago at a party recently & got her number...he was as excited about a school girl when talking about her & their sense of humor
i gave him some advice on the date & he said that i was partially the reason why he decided to call her up...i smiled
& then i realized maybe all my thoughts were true
but then for just one someone maybe valentine's day is just the reason to give a person enough bravery to pursue something he/she really wants
& then i realized that maybe it wasn't so bad afterall...i just wish i had that kind of inspiration
btw i have a beautiful & smart & awesome valentine!:)