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Saturday, 4 February 2006
3 days in one
Mood:  not sure
i've had 3 days in one...

in one, i was a businessy fake whatever you call it

on the way to the next "day"

i was on the bart & i sat near an old woman that seemed normal until after about the 2nd stop...
she started her rambling with "i had this teacher once & he gave me a D when i deserved an A"
she continued:
i always went to class one time.
there was this guy that always came in late.
the professor he was always there talking to that redhead.
he said he wasn't racist.
he was japanese.
he had a thing for blondes & redheads though.
& you have to know these people mess around with their secretaries.
the secretaries these days are young.
& then they go home & snap at their wife.
& they snap at their children.
& you know! it's like their kid!
& the wife is home cleaning the house & fixing food.
she should know what he does.
& then the government tells the woman how to raise the child.
but it's her kid.
they say she's not feeding her kids right.
but she's at home cleaning & cooking all day.
someone should really tell her.
he shouldn't be able to do that to her.

she continued on & on...

when she stood up for her stop...berkeley, like me

i looked over & noticed particularly the sign abopve her seat that said "this seat is reserved for senior citizens and disabled"

& it made me think about my life

& how lucky i am to have bounced back from the things & people that have hurt me

it also made me think of the people that would never bounce back & what happened in her life that made her the way she is

about last week i found out some news & i was surprised at my reaction...

i was always one to wish people the best & wish happiness for people no matter how they treated me...

& i've come to realize that in my opinion, some people never deserve happiness...i know this is ridiculously harsh...& i sound like a complete b but you know what? this time, i really don't care...

for me, people that are very into religion that make everything they do wrong ok because they are religious always bothered me....because i always believed that how you treat other people and your actions in general that determine if you are a good person

for people that don't treat others well don't deserve the same...they never learn & they repeat these actions on others & continue to hurt people with the things they do

anyways

the 3rd day today was the car ride home

he ended it

& maybe it was the best for both of us

but i have to admit that i miss him already



Posted by blog/c_is_for at 9:33 PM PST
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Thursday, 26 January 2006
oh yea!
erick reminded me that i needed to put up another one of my mom's quote


in the theater while watching brokeback mountain...

mom: i don't understand! why couldn't they have just been good friends?
me: gah! that's like the whole point of the movie!

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Tuesday, 24 January 2006
I'm sorrrry!
oh blog please forgive me for having ignored you

yesterday i felt really guilty all of a sudden because i was looking for a specific entry in my food blog & i read some of my old entries & i realized all the memories i've had & how funny & entertaining they've been...i really laughed out loud at the iron chef stuff jon & i was talking about at the time...anyways i felt guilty because i haven't updated in a long time...even though i wanted to make myself put at least quotes for the week up

it has nothing to do w/ my friends being uninteresting...or my family for this past month i spent at home but i've just been lazy...

so now i update w/ some random quotes that stick out in my brain


me (referring to the movie): have you seen elf?
mom: *looks at my strangely* what would i have seen an elf..it's not like they're real!
dad: maybe she's seen a leperchaun but an elf? gawd no!
*mom still confused*


looking at the round artsy statues in front of emerybay's "waterfall"
erick (because he wanted to sit down): i wish those balls were dry
doug: that's going on her blog


before the IIE officer meeting

*jon is writing down ppl's officer positions*
doug: write sexgod for me
(erick is there just for fun & to be doug's assistant for the banquet)
me: so what is erick? assistant sexgod?
erick: *poses* i supply the whips

me (to erick): so you're the assistant's assistant?
doug: i'm not the assistant! i'm the chair!
erick: yea! & i'm the legs or the back...*simulates pushing as if back of a chair* i keep him up!

(about 24 the tv show when explaining to jon)
alex: i'm pretty sure besides those 3 "days" (seasons) jack is sleeping...where's jack? he's sleeping


in physics 7B my prof is really nerdily funny...

prof: i'm going to be showing you an experiment with liquid nitrogen...simply because i like to play with liquid nitrogen *continues to just pour the nitrogen on the counter*

prof: so i was advised right before class to only dip the cotton lightly in alcohol but in my experience the more alcohol the bigger the combustion & the more exciting it is so we'll do that instead


oh yea & just to make me & erick laugh: unohotme


that's it for now i know there are others but those are the ones that stand out in my brain

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Tuesday, 29 November 2005
thanksgiving-family quotes
a quick quick update

thanksgiving was great..i love my family so much...i was truly thankful to have spent it with them

after thanksgiving dinner my brother went to look at the shoes that came in the mail

*looking at his custom made nike shoes*
mom: how much were they?
bro: they were expensive
mom: *interrupts him* how much were they? i keep asking how come you won't tell meeeee!

after looking at black friday ads

*dad looks at the clock it reads about 8pm*
(my dad is NOT a shopper but he saw so many things he wanted in the ads)
dad: ohmygosh! we need to go to bed! what are we doing still awake! we need to get up early to shop!

morning of black friday at about 4:30am

my dad is wearing suit pants
mom: why are you wearing suit pants! someone is going to step on you & rip them
dad: i'm more worried about ripping them myself because i'll be running so fast

later on in the weekend
dad to mom: baby!
mom: *startled* you're going to scare me to death!


Posted by blog/c_is_for at 11:59 PM PST
Updated: Wednesday, 30 November 2005 12:00 AM PST
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Monday, 28 November 2005
more random quotes...
from chevy's

(we were talking about how doug & erick & i were looking up mail order brides in the lab one night)
me: one was a lawyer!
jon: she wanted a lawyer? we can ligigate all night long!

(we ordered dessert & there was a strawberry & jon referring to my previous orgasmic strawberry convo)
jon: watch out for connie....she'll need to hold onto the table
alex: you are NOT going home in my car

Posted by blog/c_is_for at 10:51 PM PST
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Saturday, 19 November 2005
quote update
in ieor 153 with professor kaminsky
we were dicussing how certain things are designed to stack & save shelf & truck space like rubbermaid boxes

student: like pringles too

kaminsky: one of the many reasons why pringles are great!

(kaminsky mumbles something for a couple of minutes)

kaminsky: i love pringles! ok now i'm really off topic






erick was talking about how in his building last yr he could see frats' & sororities' roofs (he was on there building the IIE bench for IEOR day)

alex: so you could see the sororities! did you catch a glimpse of any naked chicks?

me: what? why would they be naked?

alex: i dunno like to sunbathe or something or i dunno it's just girls hanging out they do stuff like that

erick: it's not like girls go "Hey girls! There are no boys around! Let's all take off our bras!"






we have a IEOR 190D midterm coming tuesday & in the review

ramteen (our assistant prof): i'm not the person to tell you all the answers to the exam

jamie: & where do we go to find that person?







& erick reminded me of this one:

Alex (in his Russian accent): i have to go back to Russia, and be mail-order bride... even though i am boy.

Posted by blog/c_is_for at 10:39 PM PST
Updated: Saturday, 19 November 2005 11:59 PM PST
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Sunday, 6 November 2005
ok ok quote update
on 131 project(we have to simulate a place/situation):
jon: we went from a fancy restaurant to a fast food restaurant to a grocery store to a convenience store & now we're a 24 hour fruit stand!



(alex & doug try to persuade jon to go to the bondage party)
reverend: do you want to repent your sins?



erick: you should've seen gareth. he arrived at the same time i dropped [alex & doug] off. he had a mouth guard & a collar w/ 3 different chains & a butt plug, not in of course.

alex: & then he hinted that they had all been used by someone recently......



at "Sweet: An Evening w/ Chocolate & Wine"

rachelle (to me): you should take
me (to erick): i should take some pearl necklaces
rachelle: i was just going to say that! this is why we're friends


erick: wow is she a trophy wife...
(i look over to see this guy w/ perfectly slicked back hair & very cleanly shaven & w/ him was a woman in her late 20s w/ a perfectly done curly hairdo & a tight tight top that showed off just her belly button the tiny tight black shirt over her white one said "baby angel")


i'm sure there are more...i can't think

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Friday, 4 November 2005
clifford pooping on disneyland
for our project...posting so we can use the image



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Tuesday, 1 November 2005
the fudge phantom strikes again!
halloween 2005

there was a party at doug & erick's
the decorations were great...fog machine, black lights, strobe lights, the whole deal...

we did that instead of hw sunday

i was supergirl & the costume took a lot longer than planned but it was fun...fake boots, safety pinned a skirt, tucked a cape into my shirt, velcro-ed on a belt & voila

i made a little something for the rhino too:)





mine! all mine!! no skittles...chocolate!

yesterday it felt like a horrible day but today i realized that everything was great...

Posted by blog/c_is_for at 6:21 PM PST
Updated: Saturday, 5 November 2005 1:56 PM PST
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fine line
i have had an ongoing draft of an entry for about a month now...i will still write about those topics & post it later...

i have something random that i need/want to post now...

.........

between staying fit and anerexia. i am realizing more & more how my love of food saves me from myself...

I tell pierre things that i think but outloud & i never realized how insane they are sometimes...what i mean is the emphasis i place on my image of myself & how obsessed i am with my weight...pierre even tells me about this anerexic girl at his sessions & how insane & unreasonable she is & that she's crazy to imply that my thought process is flawed....i sit around knowing that i'm stupid for thinking the way i do cuz i probably have a fitter body than a lot of the ppl that bare their body freely & confidently...i can see my muscles & i know that i'm not overweight...but i constantly think i am...the first thing i do every morning when i wake up is stare at my body in the mirror...not my face but my body & i weigh myself & i freak out at a tiny change in my weight...i plan my eating plan for the day based on that number i see...granted i normally don't follow it since i'm so obsessed with food thank gawd...but it scares me to think...what if i wasn't...

.........

between masochism & the quest for truth. i used to think that the truth would set me free. i wanted to know the truth no matter how much it hurt how much it affected my life & how unnecessary that pain was.

last night i realized that i am not a masochist anymore...things that will hurt me i do not want to know...

i left not knowing. maybe i should've stayed to find out so i could ruin my idealization but i just didn't want to know. my stomach was turning & i instantly felt shitty. i had to go. all my dreams last night were regarding this & finding out. after i woke up early in the morning i couldn't go back to sleep because i was half asleep & debating how i'd react the next day & all the things i needed to do.

.........

between sanity and breakdown. i have been tiptoing on this thin thin border for the past few weeks. i think about all the things i need to do & i flip out. quite literally. i need to actively calm myself down & continue.

.........

i sound like i'm going insane. as pierre would point out i'd say: "greeeeat"

on daylight savings day: pierre said, "I wish everyday had 25 hours & then everyday would be like daylight savings day!"

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