love
on my walk home from yoga
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i saw 5 hearts engraved in the sidewalk & 1 word "LOVE"
perhaps it's the first thing that pops into a person's head to draw when they see wet cement
but it is really supported by "love is all around us" from love actually
so if love is all around us why i have spent hours of my life wondering why certain things never happened to me & why i never got the luxury of experiencing such pure & beautiful love...
i'd like to think i wasn't blind then
but that i just needed some coffee to wake me up
my brother's wedding was just the right dose
it all unfolded (now that i think about it) somewhat like "love actually" but in my own life
i went home friday night. things seemed fine until later that night...things fell apart like a poorly scripted soap opera (i do not plan on going into details) there was a lot of crying & i felt like my family was falling apart
at the end of the night i told my brother that we loved him & supported him
& in the middle of the night i heard a crash...being the paranoid person i am sometimes at home i got out of bed to see what happened...
on the ground of the bathroom face down was a handheld mirror we have had for what felt forever...maybe even before i was born...i lifted it...it was broken into a thousand little pieces...& having the flair of a drama queen inside my head...it felt like a bad bad omen
strangely the next day things weren't awkward as we headed on our 4 hour road trip together
it occurred to me that whatever may happen we were still family & i don't think any of us would ever let us fall apart
the road trip i thought would be boring & overly long
but it really reminded me how much i love my family
it was the first time in a long time all of us were together & spending time together even if it was because we had to since we were stuck in a car
our conversations were funny & entertaining
i loved it
through it all my dad was acting his part & there weren't any outbursts
i also realized despite their occassional dips my mom & dad were very much in love & they fit each others nooks & crannies perfectly
the words of the minister during the ceremony crept throughout my body..it tickled my heart & it made me want to cry for joy for the first time in my life
throughout this whole ordeal my dad clicked away with my camera like a good dad should
on the way home there was no talk of this drama & we continued on like we always had...fun & caring for each other
i ran into work late because i accidentally scheduled my work schedule wrong i saw my boss at my desk & i felt so bad i thought he was going to get mad at me..he simply said "i was just worried (because i'm never late or not there) i would've stayed in tahoe if i were you" & moved on...i felt a sense of relief & comfort that someone would care
right after i got off work i got a call from pierre which usually doesn't happen (he's usually not THAT eager to contact me haha) apparently he had missed me...in the whirlwind of the weekend, i did not realize how much i missed him until i saw him...being in his arms, i felt so loved
a couple of days later i was off to LA for the reception
there i felt & saw & heard how much our extended family cared for each other
i had not seen some of them for many many years but when we were all together it was as if nothing had changed...we were family afterall
everyone poked fun as each other & commented on how we had all grown
the laughter alone was worth the trip
during the trip down i also grabbed a lunch with erick & i thought it might either be awkward or fun because we hadn't seen each other since school ended...it was not awkward...we people watched like we always do, talked about random things, made fun of others, & listened to duran duran loudly in the car...it was great (though it did end up making my fam miss our flight haha but it's ok...)
in a short 2 weeks i had experienced & witnessed it all...
love between
a brother & a sister
a father & a son
a husband & a wife
a boss & an employee
a man & a woman
relatives
& friends...
so i can never say again that i haven't experienced love that i haven't seen it working its magic & that i haven't felt it's purity...love is not flawless but that is its beauty...that through it all you know the ones that love you will be there holding your hand along the way & not just waiting at the happy end...