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Monday, 18 April 2005
random pic updates
let's see...i finally uploaded my very random pics mostly to show my cousin...




this is the dress i wore to the party friday




that was today in ieor 171...there was a horrendous sounding fire alarm so we all had to go outside..i had given rick my camera to take yearbook pics so he snapped some shots..without me even knowing i guess

that's it...i found out today that we have a midterm next wednesday (not as in me not knowing/being stupid but he decided that day today & just wrote it on the board...wow my weekend is shot)

Posted by blog/c_is_for at 8:43 PM PDT
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Sunday, 17 April 2005
mini rant
a few things first...

1) don't people know how to "be people" (i know what i'm trying to get at in mandarin but i can't seem to word it right in english)
2) people are freaking immature
3) nothing gets my spirits up like futurama...it's amazing

"the devil's hands are idle playthings" is freaking awesome

Leela: Please don't stop playing Fry. I wanna hear how it ends.

Posted by blog/c_is_for at 9:43 PM PDT
Updated: Sunday, 17 April 2005 9:50 PM PDT
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visions of people
Now Playing: vertical horizon-everything you want
i was looking through my cd's & really missed this cd so i was listening

& i came to that song that was so popular in high school...it's so sad but it kinda made me realize

well obviously you are not everything she wants because otherwise she WOULD be with you

i know that sounds bitchy...but sometimes a person's vision of himself/herself for someone else doesn't really work...

that or she's blinded by something else about you...which is likely...

on another note, sometimes it makes me sad to have to admit that someone does not fit the profile i fit for them...

this guy i always deemed very innocent said something really kinda annoying the other day that made me realize he is like any other guy...which kind of disappointed me...(this is not a close friend but yea)

people need to step out of the box & stop being typical guys/girls

that's all i have to say

Posted by blog/c_is_for at 12:57 PM PDT
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dreams
i haven't had a dream in a while worth talking about...

oh yea cept that weird one about the pope's death...

some guy tried to rob us but somehow we convinced him that we should watch who would be appointed the next pope before he decides if he needs to rob/kill us...so we all sat there watching the television...& i think the dream ended when the appointed person was like dogma style cartoon jesus

anyways that was unrelated to my dream from last night...

this was a dream from the morning cuz i tend to remember dreams more if i wake up sleepy & then head back to sleep...

i was at some party...with dancing...i think i came with a date but he was no where to be seen or else he was always busy...everytime a slow song came on...i stood in the middle of the dance floor, looked around & realized there was no one to dance with...i walked off to the side to make room for other couples...i guess in the dream i really really liked my date a lot...i remember him being very attractive but no one i knew i real life...in my mind i had made this out to be the night where something was going to happen...eg, somewhat let him know i liked him....after a while the lights dimmed & a slow song came on again...& for some reason i knew it was the last song of the night...i looked around again & i saw him on the edge of the dancefloor dancing w/ a younger (like middle school) girl w/ coke bottle glasses & pigtails & she was dancing as if it was a fast song & she was all over the place...& he just politely danced with her....& in my head i was like "ok this is it" i walked over & asked if i could have this dance...the girl got so mad at me...& he said i'm really sorry but she's my date & i DID dance with you the previous dance...so reluctantly the girl left...he hugged me from behind with one arm & i had a smile i could not take off my face...& i was giggling...then he did a weird dramatic dip & kissed me...i was very taken aback...but i was very happy....(it was kind of like "a lot like love"'s new year kiss not that i'm endorsing that movie cuz it kinda sucked)

i used to have the randomest dreams that probably meant nothing...but as i grow older my dreams seem to be more & more realistic (minus the pope one hahah) & well there seems to be more direct meaning...

i'm not sure if they display my most inner desires i want for myself or are they just referring to other things....

but through my dreams you could probably understand me a lot...

though strangely i've never dreamt about cooking much...or card making or any of that stuff for that matter...i guess it's never a source of stress for me though...

recently i've been thinking about this one dream i had when it was nearing the end of dom & my relationship...& i think i've talked about it before but i will remention it because otherwise it will keep swimming in my head & i don't want that...i'd rather just let it out...

so...i forget if i've talked about what i'm about to say here recently or if it's just been in my head a lot & i haven't actually written it...

you know when people say "i'm so happy for you" it's always a polite saying...& most people don't actually mean it...they just say it for the sake of saying it...& to sound nice, of course...

& i realize more & more...when i say it i mean it...

especially if it is a good friend or a loved one...

or like i'll say "i'm so excited for you"

i genuinely genuinely mean it..there is no sarcasm & there is no spite or bitterness...& it's not just cuz it sounds nice...

i think i've always been able to detach myself from the jealous state to genuinely mean something like that

the best example is...

people always pursue & pursue a love they cannot have...& when they find out that person is with someone else & they are very happy...the pursuer gets incredibly angry....& he/she say with a touch of spite "well i'm happy for you" just to seem diplomatic...

no one ever means that...

but i guess this dream proves that i really do when i say that...

when you care about someone a lot...you know when to let go....

you know when to throw in the towel & you know when to just say "he/she obviously happier with someone else...so why try to change that" you suck in your pride a bit & the pain to understand that if you truly care, you want what is best for him/her...& i with time you will realize this trickles down to you as well...(if you two were together & he/she was not happy what kind of relationship is that)

so after that long buildup here is my dream...

it started with me planning a wedding...i was dressed up in a businessy suit & i was running around the reception area making sure the favors were perfect (they were glass ornaments with things inside that i think i had made for them) i was making sure everything was in order...
out came the groom...& it was dominic..i think my heart cringed
he checked with me to see if everything was in order
he left & out came the bride...it was "her"
she was super bitchy to me...she was yelling at me for something...i was just trying to stay calm...she said something about the favors not being perfect & there weren't enough...so she told me to go make more
i said there were no more materials so she told me to go buy more...
i went to a michael's like store & it was not open yet so i waited outside til it opened...i picked up some more materials & rushed back to the reception site
i think i finished setting up...
i don't really remember but i think i either said or to thought to myself...i'm really happy for him...& i want everything to be perfect not necessarily for her but for him...i want this to be memorable for him....

& then i woke up

Posted by blog/c_is_for at 12:28 PM PDT
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Saturday, 16 April 2005
gullible
so despite popular belief i'm really not that gullible...i realized sometimes i say "really?" to stupid things just to fill the void...like naturally...not on purpose...

besides here is proof that there are more gullible

*hears really loud music being played in apt*
me: they're probably playing music loudly to get back at us for being loud
chanda: wait...really?
me: no?
c: oh man...yesterday aaron told me a lie & i definitely believed him
*calls him to tell him to remind her*
c: oh yea...so he told me if you don't check your mail everyday it's illegal
me: wtf?? & you believed this?
c: well he was convincing! he said that for example if you got a legal document you can't use "i didn't check my mail" as an excuse...& it made sense! at least at the time....
me: you're stupid

Posted by blog/c_is_for at 11:39 PM PDT
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couldn't have said it better
i think this is exactly what i've been experiencing haha...well kinda


Happiness is good health and a bad memory.
~Ingrid Bergman

Posted by blog/c_is_for at 10:34 AM PDT
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cooking decal party
quote for today

stella: hi i'm stella
damien: i'm damien nice to meet you
stella: you know that i won't remember this tomorrow, right?
damien: um ok thanks

also...erick got food poisoning from thai basil (same place i got mine..they recently renovated & it's a lot trendier & raised prices too) NEVER going there again (erick: yea i know & after i tried to convince you that mine is cooked just fine)

me: yea i'm sure they buy day old meat to make up for the cost of the renovations
erick: yea they got some bad ieor guy on it...if you leave out the meat you minimize your costs of refrigeration!

Posted by blog/c_is_for at 12:14 AM PDT
Updated: Saturday, 16 April 2005 12:17 AM PDT
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Thursday, 14 April 2005
quote
random quote from today:

gareth: but we have til 5 to finish this hw, right?
jon: yea, but i'm not staying here til 5
g: but what about ieor140? (the robotics class)
j: ok that permanently altered my dna...a few years from now i'll have an arm growing out from my chest because of that class

Posted by blog/c_is_for at 11:13 PM PDT
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Wednesday, 13 April 2005
closer
i just watched closer...& it's just proof of my entry about lying in relationships...

i don't even really know what to say...i know it was a good movie but in a weird way i was kinda just eh-ed by it...

maybe because i know how true it is...who knows

lying does no one good

everyone besides larry the doctor was a horrible person in that movie...

it's just so freaking hypocritical how people can be...

in the scene of alice & dan's break up she asked him "what if i fell in love with someone else?" he answered "i'd be jealous"

& that re-rung a bell...
i asked the same exact question
& i received the same exact answer

although the movie was extreme as all movies are...for me it had a strange "little black book" quality to it as i watched it...it made me relive some moments...so i know the movie was realistic because i was relating but at the same time i hated reliving those moments of my life...

i really need to stop writing about this crap cuz i never think about it during the day & i come home to this blog & i keep reminding myself...it's pretty retarded

& so i end the self pity....for now

Posted by blog/c_is_for at 8:18 PM PDT
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quotes
everyday i hear the funniest stuff & i always remember later on & laugh to myself...or i hear, laugh, & forget...so i decided i'm gonna resolve the latter by writing down about a quote a day to remind me of all the little things that make up my life...

today in PE
other guy: are you gonna use this? *points to bench*
charles: yea i was gonna strip
other guy: do you need help?
charles: nah they're *points to me & the other girl* they're gonna strip for me

(in case you don't know we were referring to stripping the bar)

at the moment all i remember something i always sort of remember & laugh about is in the first IIE (Institute for Industrial Engineers) general meeting this year we were voting on which companies we wanted to visit...& google got more votes than yahoo
doug: why is yahoo more popular than google?
jamie: they've only been asking themselves the same thing for the past 2 years

stay tuned for more!

Posted by blog/c_is_for at 3:19 PM PDT
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