so when jamie & i left class today...it was pouring rain & right outside the door, in the rain, was a guy relatively nicely dressed with a dozen dark pinkish roses...jamie said loudly, "that guy knows what's up! props to him" i laughed & all i could wonder what who was the lucky girl from our class...
after cooking decal i was walking home in the dark w/ my umbrella & i couldn't help but feel a bit lonely...why? cuz of a day that was labelled for love? that's so insanely stupid...granted i wasn't sad at all...& i was like maybe i should go home & watch chick flicks & then i realized how masochistic that would be...& as i thought that i saw a guy sitting in the dark in the rain with a disappointed look on his face...i couldn't stop my imagination from dreaming up a story about him in my mind....& i wondered why people were so masochistic & self pitying...
so we don't have anything to do on this day so what? 1st of all not only should every day be a day filled w/ love & when you show your love for your special someone...but why does it even matter if we DO have someone...
oh you don't feel complete
oh these are just excuses
oh you just want to be loved
wah wah wah all you want but as a person, single or with someone, you are supposed to be self sufficient....
you ARE supposed to be complete
& there are people that love you ALWAYS
even people that spend their lives giving to others & trying to make a difference are still living for themselves...they are trying to make this stay on earth worth their while....
i've said this a lot but not anytime recently but i will repeat it for the sake of vday....
the key to happiness is being happy with being yourself & NEVER should be defined by others around you....it's not about who loves you...it's not about who you help....it's about who & what you love & what you gather to develop yourself from each experience/interaction
i know i have worded it better in the past...but yea...i'm busy:P haha