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Saturday, 23 April 2005
what's in a name
"a rose by any other name would smell just as sweet"



i had been meaning to write this entry for probably almost a year now...

it was this that had orginally inspired me:




it was a name tag stuck onto an emergency pole that i pass on my walk home almost everyday...

it was my name...but it wasn't me...

& i had been meaning to take the picture for a while but i didn't want people to think i was weird so i finally took the picture when no one was around on march 28th w/ my phone...

i remember when i first saw it...

i thought hmm...wow my name is so much more common than i realized

i used to...& i guess i still do HATE it when people used to call me connie chung...whether it be by accident or to be funny...

it's nothing about her really but simply because i want to be known as a separate person & i guess it's one of my pet peeves (of several if you want to say something to piss me off)

since i was little, i hated my name....
i remember being really mean & wanting to steal my cousin's name...i told my mom i wanted to change my name to "diana ballerina" & that was that...

& am i glad now i did not

the diana would be fine but i don't know how well the ballerina would go over in the business world...

so i've often questioned how my name fit me...

i never thought i looked like a connie

but i also can't think of a better name for myself
i mean that i "look" like...

(you know how some people just fit their name...like oh that's how a ruth should look etc)

anyways...i asked chris once...what if i was my middle name...lynn & he said...no not really

so what am i? (name wise)

supposedly i was named after the singer connie francis & my mom chose lynn after my chinese name

& i guess in a way it seems professional...& more recently i have played off of the fact that my initials are CC...

at work...they refer to everyone on paper w/ their initials...don't really know why...i guess it's unique to each person...but i thought it was nerdily cute that one of my bosses referred on a note to me as C^2

i also remember in elementary school when jessica chen & i were best friends & when notebooks were starting to be in...we said our initial were JAC (jess ann chen) & CLC (con lynn chen) so together we were jack the seal's....we named our notebook jack the seal's notebook...it was soo random

i guess it's kinda weird since names really don't seem important because like the shakespeare quote...a person will be the same person with or without that name...

but at the same time...it makes or breaks the person...imagine being called some horrible name that scars you...

& i wonder if people with great flowing names really grow up to be more successful or meant to be hosts...

like on food network "rachael ray" & "marc summers" & "giada delaurentis" & "jim o'conner" those flow so well...or maybe it's just cuz i'm used to them...
i don't know...

& are you supposed to feel like someone robbed you of some identity when someone has the same name as you?...

i know chen is common so there is bound to be other connie chen's...

heck i had a girl in my chinese school class for i don't even know how many years (we stayed w/ the same people as we moved up grades) with the name connie chen...she was also a twin...that must've been horrible feeling...identity lost w/ a twin & now someone w/ her name as well? ahhh

& for girls...when in the movies they practice their name w/ the last name of the guy they hae a crush on...

i don't know what that would feel like...

to suddenly be connie lynn ____fill in the blank____
to think that once you get married you have a different identity than the one you had before you entered...& although that's true...you have to take on new responsibilities..you're not a different person...

& i guess more & more people keep their maiden names...

anyways...i remember having more to say...but i think i lost my train of thought...so that is all...

Posted by blog/c_is_for at 6:59 PM PDT
Updated: Sunday, 24 April 2005 11:55 AM PDT
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