i just clicked on my favorites leading to me to my entry with my life's to do list cuz i forgot about it
i read the entries before & after it...& i was in awe...
i was so unhappy i couldn't even describe it in words...granted my entries then were probably better in ways (not the rants but the ones w/ substance) just cuz i was more emotional...& dramatic for that matter
i guess it's good that i'm quick to forget my pain at least the shortlived parts...
i guess that's how i can stay the way i am...
well that & my overly forgiving nature:P
i am writing this to remind myself how happy i am...
even on my downer days i'm relatively happy
i have a bunch of stuff on my plate...yea...but that's how i like it i think
in the end it gives into my wanting to help out & it makes me happy...i think that's why i love work so much...i can see the direct results of my working & i love that feeling...i feel like i'm making a difference even if it's small...
hell i have a quiz this week & a midterm next & yet i'm really calm & i'm really taking my time with everything...
& i love this new me...
i don't think i've been as happy as i am now in a long long time...
things are finally starting to fall into place
on a random note...i'm really excited for the student-faculty banquet...i'm not quite sure why...maybe cuz i get to play dress up (plus i bought shoes that i now have an excuse to wear even though they weren't the original ones i wanted to wear but i could talk about that for an hr so i'll shut up now) & maybe it's cuz it's jack london square which is kinda fun too & cuz we getta eat yummy food! & i want to take pictures of us ieor friends...we don't actually have one...plus if i getta sit with oren or burgstone i think it'd be really entertaining...
anyways...i'm so glad my life is not tangled in the web of tiny insignificant details that just cause me unneccessary pain, sadness, & anger...
i'm happy to be aware of my happiness...
love you all! :)