so as i was studying i was looking for anything to distract me...of course:P
& i picked up a notebook i used to write in when i had a break between classes...i would just spill my little heart out...i was reading it & i read an entry about how there was no such thing as erasure...i might've even written about it in this blog...but i always forget what stuff i write...it was about adam & how when we met up last year he reminded me that there is no such thing as erasure...i had always assumed that i made no impact on people's lives...& in the entry i talked about how i was so surprised that i was sucha big part of adam's life...& how i told dom that i was surprised & he responded that i seemed to think i never mattered to people...
& i guess that was the drama queen in me...cuz it's very unrealistic to think that people that were a part of my life never think about me ever again...
in that entry i had also quoted ben...i said something to him like i wonder if ken ever thinks about me...& ben replied that he did & i asked why he said that & if ken had said anything...ben said...every girl you date leaves you with something...you don't just forget.......& i knew he was right
ok the real point of this entry...was i found the mention of me in a blog of a friend...not by name but i smiled to myself because i knew it was me...i remember a long time ago i was mentioned in another person's blog that barely knew me too...it always kinda makes me feel special to be mentioned as having been there...even if nothing was really said about me...& it made me wonder....how ever long blogs stay around will at least prove that i was alive in this world...haha i know that sounds horrible...but what i mean is...ok i don't really know the point of this...but i guess if random people mention me on their blog only proves to me that people that were actually an active part of my life could not possibly ever forget me...
gawd this is a poorly written entry but please give me a break i've been comtemplating cover letters & reading stats for the whole day...i did not step out of my apt once today....:P
people at berkeley never seize to amaze me (that is not said sarcasticly)...i remember reading a friend's blog that said he is constantly meeting people here that blow him away...i feel the same way....i mean granted there are people here that don't deserve to be....but the majority of them are right on...they have such stories...they have such intelligence i have never seen....& they are all so involved in their own thing whatever that may be...every single one of them has their own creative niche....they're all so artistic & analytical at the same time....everytime i discover someone new i can't stop thinking how amazing they are...sometimes i wonder if people think that when they meet me? maybe i can't capture them with my "intelligence" at least engineering wise but maybe w/ my other aspects....i'd like to think i can intrigue people? haha...
ok ok i'm freaking out now i need to study