sometimes blurry vision makes you see more clearly
in your mind that is
i went to the rsf later in the day & i have gotten into this new-ish habit of taking off my glasses when i workout..at first it was cuz i get all sweaty & gross & i didn't want my glasses to fog up or anything (i know a BEAUTIFUL sight) but then i realized how much more it made me focus...1, on working out & 2, on thoughts...i actually have been thinking a lot less than i used to so it's a good thing that i focus on my thoughts sometimes now...
a couple things that i thought about
* (i've recently been reading this book called "how full is your bucket?") i always knew that "filling other people's bucket" made me feel good...that's why there is the argument that people are always selfish even when they do things for other ppl (to make themselves feel better) but the book (i'm not finished) has yet to discuss or never took into account the case of people like me...they said each moment was either negative or positive...but what about my past experiences? yes the instant gratification part was positive BUT in the long run the lack of appreciation eventually led to a negative result...i bring up the examples in which i filled others' buckets as negative things in my life........then for the book, it's somewhat ironic that i started feeling better the moment i stopped caring about filling other people's buckets & instead filling only my own...granted this is a book about interactions so it doesn't really look at the aspect of filling one own's bucket...but in reality THAT is what life is all about NOT filling other people's buckets as the book implies or that recruiter that gave me the book said...even though she was super nice...
* an issue of confidence in intelligence...ok so maybe it's berkeley that has been beaten into me or maybe it's my grades here but i have come to realize my judgement of my own intelligence has become very very low...thursday i came home to do my hw real quick (it was due later that day) i went to meet up w/ alex & erick to work on it some more erick asked to compare answers & the first thing i said was "i'm probably wrong though" but we did & we had the same answers (granted the questions weren't TOO bad it was all that probably crap) so essentially i had gotten them right but i genuinely thought i had them wrong because i no longer trusted my ability...it was something i was so confident about before & now this is what i have become & as i excercised i felt pretty lame but the only analogy i could think of myself as was an overworked hamburger patty...the environment around it and the hand that works this raw meat has molded me into this shape but the more it works me the more my moisture is drained from me after all the overworking no matter how well you cook me, grill me, or what not i can no longer have that same natural flavor i once had...you can cover me with condiments but that just masks how dry and tasteless i have become.......is that what school has done to me? made me a flavorless, dry, overworked hamburger patty (i can completely understand if you can't take that paragragh seriously at all:P)
anyways...whenever i walk out of the gym i remember how much i love berkeley because of the wonderful breeze to cool me off & as i walk home i see the beautiful bay before my eyes...today there was a vibrant pinkish red streak across the sky that disappeared behind the dark mountain which were set right past the deep blue bay....i can't help but smile
yesterday i got an email about the heathly cooking decal i'm ta'ing for the assignment was to write about a food that best describes our personality in third person, so this is what i came up with:
Connie can best be compared to a fine vintage champagne. She has a bubbly personality. She pairs great with food. But, only good food! Vintage champagne are made of grapes from a single year and are only made if the producer deems that the wines of that year are of a good enough quality. The longer the vintage champagne ages, the more depth of flavor it develops. So, Connie is vintage because, of course, she?s a good grape of the bunch and she?s had a variety of experiences that have led to her becoming what she is today. Also, the older she gets, the more she?s worth!(hopefully) In the final process, the balancing of the acidity of the alcohol and the sweetness is crucial. Connie?s life is all about finding that perfect balance.
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Updated: Saturday, 29 January 2005 7:29 PM PST
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