i woke up today really thinking i was gonna be productive & then i turned on the tv...
& maybe that's where i went wrong
it was $40 a day & there was a commercial for voting on the semifinalists for next food network star
i felt a huge pain in my stomach & heart (minus the instantaneous crying it felt like when i found out ken had a new gf)
this was not about boys
this was about one of my life goals & it was ruined
even thinking about this now i want to cry
i can't even explain this pain...i feel sick