i have drowned my brain w/ watching disk after disk of 24 & unnecessary movies i always meant to watch
i can feel myself get boring ("mean girls" style & i hate the fact that i'm about to quote lindsey lohan who i don't particularly like "i could hear people getting bored with me...")
maybe it's cuz my brains been so idle...or maybe i just miss being useful...i ALMOST miss being in school
i could sense my cousins getting bored by me when they visited...i just wasn't as energetic & excited as i used to be...i don't know what it was...i didn't make smart ass comments...& the lunch w/ dom...it was just him talking & granted maybe he's like chanda who consciously talks non-stop when there is awkward silence to fill that very silence but i can't help but think it's me...even when chris & i hang out...i find myself saying stupid things that i can't believe i just said or mentioned merely because it popped into my head for a second...
ugh...i mean i guess it's not all that important...
& ironically i feel like i'm updating this blog merely because i feel like i want to have something to say but i just don't...so i find myself sitting here typing to fill an awkward silence & lull in my blog/life...
but perhaps it took my babble to realize that very fact & so i end this entry
Posted by blog/c_is_for
at 11:24 PM PST
Updated: Wednesday, 5 January 2005 12:20 AM PST
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Updated: Wednesday, 5 January 2005 12:20 AM PST
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