ok....so i have a disclaimer for those of you reading this that use drugs of any sort: i'm not attacking you (for the most part haha) & i'm not saying you're any less of a person....so don't get the wrong idea...this is simply the reason why I, personally, would not do them...not that i judge people that do do them...
got it? now don't get all offended on me...
ok...so ppl say to me...
"just try it"
"what harm will it do"
"you have to try it at least once"
yada yada yada....
& then when i say no they ask why?...
i rarely actually go into my true reasons due to time & the lack of genuine interest in the answer from the asker...
so i just say..it's just something i don't do...& i don't plan on doing...
sometimes i say i have an addictive personality & i'd probably get addicted if i ever tried it...
sometimes i even say my control issue...my dislike of feeling out of control of myself...
all are partially true...the last, most likely...
but i was sitting in the car & my mom said something about finishing a whole bottle of robutussin to treat her bad cough & i said that's so bad for you!! & i remembered my friend said he used a certain kind of robutussin to get a high similar to gosh i don't even remember...shrooms? & i sat there thinking if i'd ever do something like that...hell no! i thought to myself...but WHY! why not....
to people our age...health is almost not an excuse..we all think we're invincible & nothing we do now affects anything we are in the future...
i remember a close friend telling me...that she felt pot was perfectly ok...once in a while..you couldn't overdose...you don't get angry...you just get chill & calm & funny & what not...her observation bothered me so much...i guess i couldn't really argue her points besides saying it's expensive and illegal....but that seemed sorta childish & stupid....though i do have to say most people that ARE addicted to pot seemed to be so addicted that's all they do with their free time...
but anyways...
so as i sat there thinking about robutussin & pot...i realized the true reason i felt the whole thing was stupid...
so...people do it to forget their problems...to calm down...to relax....to feel happy/have fun...
(now if you know/understand my thinking enough you already know where i'm going with this)
so why do a drug...drug up your brain & body for that moment...& the moment the sensation leaves you're in the same rut you were in when you started minus a few dollars, brain cells, & time...hell most of the time you don't even remember...or even do something you regret...
i'm thinking...you had better learn to relax & calm down naturally...how else are you gonna make it through your life...
i'd much much rather just hang out w/ friends & talk or go on some adventure...even watching a funny movie would be much more worth your money...at least it will leave you with something to remember...& it will have fed your mind...you were happy, naturally...& it becomes a memory..not just another high/drunken night...
& then i noticed a lot of friends i used to have in high school that i've lost touch with party a lot together & that's how they stay friends...
that's fine & dandy since i don't plan on being in a group of friends that rely on that for friendship
but see the thing is...their friendships are almost solely based on those high/drunken nights..i'm sure if i went there, drank & smoked everything they'd fully accept me...but see...what kind of relationship can they possibly have that is meaningful...when high/drunk they laugh at stupid things & then when they're not they talk about times they WERE high/drunk...& i don't know about most people but i know i would never want my trying to escape reality to define me....