HEY
Mood:  sad
Topic: WHAT TO DO!
Hey people
its almost christmas and there is just nothing fun about it this year. my mom is so excited cause her husbands kids are gonna be here and she loves them in an obsessive kind of way. there is just nothing to think about it right now. WHY does she have sooo many problems with the kids that she raised and then the kids that she didnt know till we were older she doesnt have a problem with them at all? How can she do this to us? i only wish that nobody else has this happen to them and maybe if someone out there does feel this way then they can know that there is somebody else out there that can understand their feelings and knows what the pain is like and that I will listen to them and i will try to console them to the best of my ability. how can we be so bad if we are the product of her raising techniques and abilities? maybe thats the problem. she doesnt like that she did a horrible job and that we have so many problems with out past. i hope this can be the beginning of the end when it comes to her and her horrible things she says.

as always.

Miss Ashley.

WHY are we like this?
Mood:  down
Topic: Not the best of things.
Now there is so much going on. Friends are trying to hide their feelings for other friends and it just isnt working out for them at all. I played a nasty little trick on a friend to make them think that i liked them. i even got another one of my friends to believe it as well to make sure that the person i was joking with truly thought that i did. it was a harsh trick that i cant believe i did to this person. it was mean and not like me. i apologize to that person, even though they dont know about it yet until they will read this passage. i dont understand why people do things like this. why is human nature so evil and cruel. if i could change anything what would it be. i would change a bunch of things but mostly i would change the fact that people would destroy others to make themselves feel better. Soon this will be a thing that all people avoid.

Welcome.
Mood:  a-ok
Topic: Introduction to me!
Welcome fellow bloggers. I gues that i should introduce myself to you all. Well ok. I was born into a small little family. 3 kids and my parents. I was the youngest of the three. The oldest of my siblings is my sister and then my brother. My parents divorced when i was 8 years old and of course i went to live with my mother. my father of course got remarried a little later to some chick that was the best cook EVER. of course being married to my father, the real living ROSS (as in FRIENDS ross)in my life, he got divorced. of course there are many things that fit into the situation. after a while my mother got married a man and we ended up moving 2 hours away from my friends and family. i started going to school in the big bad city and fell in love with it. life was good. then my mother and step father made a decision that changed everything. we were moving away...again. this time it was to a tiny little town tat was filled with many people so unlike me. i was soo different and now i wasnt accepted. although life has sucked living in this little hell hole for 5 years well im finally getting free. i graduate this year and get to live on my own for the first time in my life. soo excited. i guess all that i want is some freedom and space of my own.