Laundry Day 27: HEY
XxshortmantranxX: FUCK
XxshortmantranxX: lol
XxshortmantranxX: its tied
XxshortmantranxX: mhmm
Laundry Day 27: yeah..
Laundry Day 27: life is a load of bullshit
XxshortmantranxX: nahg its not
XxshortmantranxX: its fuckin awesome!
Laundry Day 27: bullshit.
Laundry Day 27: the meaning of anything.. is only temporary
Laundry Day 27: shit.
Laundry Day 27: oh guess what
Laundry Day 27: me and peter broke up
Laundry Day 27: shudve happened last week tho
Laundry Day 27: like i said.. i learned to move on
XxshortmantranxX: mmm
XxshortmantranxX: from who
Laundry Day 27: i just did.
Laundry Day 27: fuckin life
XxshortmantranxX: pain?
Laundry Day 27: well i feel two things now..
Laundry Day 27: no feeling and a bit of pain on the inside of my heart
Laundry Day 27: i mean wen i really think about it.. im okay
Laundry Day 27: but i dont feel okay
Laundry Day 27: u know?
XxshortmantranxX: yeah
Laundry Day 27: my mind says its all good... my heart says ouch
Laundry Day 27: well.. now i can tell u anything..
Laundry Day 27: [1] vulnerable [2] eh. no bf.. no secrets..
XxshortmantranxX: i dont know what too do with that
Laundry Day 27: u dont have to do anything
XxshortmantranxX: do tooo
XxshortmantranxX: just...dont get too deep into things next time
XxshortmantranxX: so fast
Laundry Day 27: i know..
Laundry Day 27: im trying hard to not get so deep
Laundry Day 27: he started it
Laundry Day 27: so i thot... okay.. i will too..
XxshortmantranxX: haha...
Laundry Day 27: mistake
XxshortmantranxX: he started it?
Laundry Day 27: shudve taken it slow
Laundry Day 27: yeah, he said i love you first
Laundry Day 27: he wrote a note first
Laundry Day 27: he poured out his feelings first
Laundry Day 27: he dragged it out too fast
XxshortmantranxX: i c...
Laundry Day 27: [sigh].. wen i remember it hurts the heart.. but wen i really think.. i know it was just something that happened..
XxshortmantranxX: yeah...
Laundry Day 27: i want drugs for this..
XxshortmantranxX: no...
Laundry Day 27: ahaah this mex guy tried to spell soccer.. "S-O-K-R.. uhh.. S-K-R.. soccer!!"
Laundry Day 27: at least something thatll put me to sleep until saturday
XxshortmantranxX: hahaha
Laundry Day 27: no school.. and i get to spend time with my always loving family from dallas
XxshortmantranxX: always lovin family...?
Laundry Day 27: yeah.. theyre cool..
Laundry Day 27: my cuzzins
XxshortmantranxX: awesome
Laundry Day 27: i hate seeing him..
Laundry Day 27: [sigh] but it was mutual
XxshortmantranxX: why
XxshortmantranxX: how did you guys break up
Laundry Day 27: the break up was mutual..
Laundry Day 27: i just said "i guess we're over"
Laundry Day 27: he kept on saying im sorry
Laundry Day 27: we talked about how we felt before that
Laundry Day 27: in my head.. i didnt think the same way like "in love" and all... but my heart was like "wtf?"
Laundry Day 27: i slept for so long today.. occasionally waking up.. and putting myself back to sleep with the thot of moving on
XxshortmantranxX: lol
Laundry Day 27: i tore up everything with a trace of peter
XxshortmantranxX: :-\
Laundry Day 27: everything except for the letters and the hippo
Laundry Day 27: letters are for keepsake.. memories.. and the hippo is way too cute to return..
Laundry Day 27: i dont wanna burn his shirts.. becuz i like them
XxshortmantranxX: gimme it!
XxshortmantranxX: :-D
XxshortmantranxX: oic...
Laundry Day 27: ahah nah... keepsake
Laundry Day 27: now i have to stop kissing the lil v-day teddy bear...
XxshortmantranxX: yeah...
Laundry Day 27: and im avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak..
XxshortmantranxX: you cant just...leave ur memories behind
Laundry Day 27: i want to!
Laundry Day 27: i have to..
XxshortmantranxX: but u cant
Laundry Day 27: only way to heal..
Laundry Day 27: as fast as i can
XxshortmantranxX: are just ignoring the wound
XxshortmantranxX: or*
Laundry Day 27: [sigh] i know thats bad..
Laundry Day 27: i did that to this one guy.. and now we dont even talk... i still hate him..
XxshortmantranxX: who si it
Laundry Day 27: but another guy.. i faced everything.. and we're back to bein good friends... i thot i wud never heal from that..
Laundry Day 27: lam.. and the friend is henry
Laundry Day 27: peter doesnt want me to ignore him.. but i want to..
Laundry Day 27: i dont want to see him..
Laundry Day 27: i feels so weird..
Laundry Day 27: but i dont show it..
Laundry Day 27: he treats me like his friend...
Laundry Day 27: people were surprised that i was the one that was badly effected by this.. they thot he wud be the one
Laundry Day 27: but he was the first to tell how he felt..
XxshortmantranxX: yeah...
Laundry Day 27: i shudve told him first..
Laundry Day 27: but im not into hurting people..
Laundry Day 27: i stayed so i wont hurt him.. and maybe i cud find that feeling again
Laundry Day 27: and i did.. my mistake
Laundry Day 27: [sigh] i feel like shit.
XxshortmantranxX: yeah...i know
Laundry Day 27: and he wants to come over tonite.. for games.. =/
Laundry Day 27: thats gonna suck so much.
Laundry Day 27: im strong tho.. i didnt cry in front of him..
XxshortmantranxX: hes takin back the games
Laundry Day 27: tears ran down my face before and during 1st period
Laundry Day 27: no, i dont have any of his games...
Laundry Day 27: he wants to play
Laundry Day 27: hopefully.. he'll be too tired to come..
XxshortmantranxX: hopefully...
XxshortmantranxX: how do u spell hte past tense of the word bleed
Laundry Day 27: bled
Laundry Day 27: i am sick to my stomache
Laundry Day 27: i dont feel like eating.. but i have to.. and now i wanna barf it all up..
Laundry Day 27: shit.
XxshortmantranxX: u can if you want...
Laundry Day 27: no i hate throwing up
Laundry Day 27: shit.
Laundry Day 27: damn.
Laundry Day 27: piss.
XxshortmantranxX: fuck!!!'
Laundry Day 27: [sigh] fuck.
XxshortmantranxX: i know exactly how ur feeling
XxshortmantranxX: back in eighth grade wen i was melodramatic
XxshortmantranxX: i felt like woo
Laundry Day 27: and wtf do i have low self-esteem...
Laundry Day 27: SHIT
XxshortmantranxX: u do?
Laundry Day 27: I DONT WANT TO CRY!!
Laundry Day 27: but i dont want to ignore him like i do to lam..
XxshortmantranxX: cry..
Laundry Day 27: yeah.. no one believes me wen i say i do.. but i do
XxshortmantranxX: you have to let it out...
Laundry Day 27: no i dont!!
XxshortmantranxX: do too
Laundry Day 27: i dont wanna ruin my face..
Laundry Day 27: NO no i wont
Laundry Day 27: i will not cry..
Laundry Day 27: ill keep it all inside if i have to
XxshortmantranxX: why are you trying so hard to fight against the pain
XxshortmantranxX: dont do what i do...
Laundry Day 27: becuz i dont want this pain!
XxshortmantranxX: then just let it go...
XxshortmantranxX: it'll go faster than just holding it in
Laundry Day 27: easier said than done..
XxshortmantranxX: whatever..
XxshortmantranxX: its your heart
Laundry Day 27: [sigh]..
Laundry Day 27: memories..
Laundry Day 27: suck.
Laundry Day 27: i TRY to aviod it..
Laundry Day 27: anything i say..
Laundry Day 27: can lead to him..
Laundry Day 27: somehow.. a memory..
Laundry Day 27: hits the heart//
Laundry Day 27: this is supposedly supposed to help..
XxshortmantranxX: yeah
Laundry Day 27: pouring everything out..
Laundry Day 27: let it run dry..
Laundry Day 27: i cry wen i know my friends care..
XxshortmantranxX: *nods*
Laundry Day 27: wen theyre around..
Laundry Day 27: i let it out..
Laundry Day 27: or if theyre listening..
Laundry Day 27: i need to go out..
Laundry Day 27: do something fun..
XxshortmantranxX: lets go!
Laundry Day 27: but im out of that..
Laundry Day 27: poor like fuck..
XxshortmantranxX: i got money
XxshortmantranxX: lets go
Laundry Day 27: spent last money on.. [sigh]
Laundry Day 27: ahaha
XxshortmantranxX: i'm serious!
XxshortmantranxX: get one of ur friends to pikc me up:-D
Laundry Day 27: hah.
Laundry Day 27: stopped talking to him since peter
Laundry Day 27: my lifes altered again
Laundry Day 27: why the fuck did it get so serious
Laundry Day 27: i am too young for this..
XxshortmantranxX: yes
Laundry Day 27: i need some more rest.
Laundry Day 27: >__<
XxshortmantranxX: a gaping hole..shot through my heart...
XxshortmantranxX: yeah
XxshortmantranxX: go sleep
XxshortmantranxX: makes you forget temporarily
Laundry Day 27: not enuff
XxshortmantranxX: it helps...
Laundry Day 27: [sigh]
Laundry Day 27: lets start cheering me up first
Laundry Day 27: i dont want to fall asleep sad
XxshortmantranxX: thats one of the easiest ways for em...
XxshortmantranxX: but lets see
XxshortmantranxX: dont u love bringing sticky hands to skewl and like flinging em at people
XxshortmantranxX: its fun!
XxshortmantranxX: doot doo
XxshortmantranxX: i got a bouncy ball
XxshortmantranxX: fuckin awesome
XxshortmantranxX: its blue and everything
XxshortmantranxX: i got taco bell tonight...
XxshortmantranxX: good stuff
XxshortmantranxX: uhnm...annie?
Laundry Day 27: heh
XxshortmantranxX: just throw it back
XxshortmantranxX: for one more night
XxshortmantranxX: adn on my way home from taco bell i saw this billboard...
XxshortmantranxX: it was some tennis championiship thing and like it said in large black bold letters in yellow back ground DEUCE
XxshortmantranxX: heh.
Laundry Day 27: ahaha
XxshortmantranxX: reminded me of myslef
Laundry Day 27: yeah
Laundry Day 27: deuce sucks sometimes
Laundry Day 27: depending on who looks better
XxshortmantranxX: looks better?
XxshortmantranxX: what...
XxshortmantranxX: lol
Laundry Day 27: i mean play better
XxshortmantranxX: oh...lol
Laundry Day 27: sigh
Laundry Day 27: thats all ive done today
Laundry Day 27: sighs
Laundry Day 27: man.. i need attention
Laundry Day 27: bad
XxshortmantranxX: i dont...
XxshortmantranxX: well yeah id o
XxshortmantranxX: but whatever
XxshortmantranxX: u dont need it
Laundry Day 27: yes i do
Laundry Day 27: i need to feel good again
XxshortmantranxX: u jammin?
Laundry Day 27: nope
Laundry Day 27: kills ya sometimes
Laundry Day 27: ..broken promises.. shattered dreams..
XxshortmantranxX: heals me...
Laundry Day 27: [sigh] it can go to hell..
Laundry Day 27: nah.. love songs suck..
XxshortmantranxX: i know, you know its never forever
Laundry Day 27: any songs suck..
XxshortmantranxX: nah
XxshortmantranxX: music is the shit
XxshortmantranxX: want some of my pixie stick
Laundry Day 27: nah,,
Laundry Day 27: not right now it isnt..
Laundry Day 27: hah nah..
XxshortmantranxX: u sure?
XxshortmantranxX: its blueberry...
XxshortmantranxX: the BEST:-D
Laundry Day 27: hah
Laundry Day 27: ssiiiigggghhhhh
Laundry Day 27: -___-
XxshortmantranxX: u cant get cheered up...
XxshortmantranxX: not like this..
XxshortmantranxX: imt ellin ya u should get some sleep
Laundry Day 27: ive had sleep..
Laundry Day 27: ill wake up with..
Laundry Day 27: well ill wake up really exaughsted [spelling]
XxshortmantranxX: fate fell short this time
XxshortmantranxX: your smile fades in teh summer
Laundry Day 27: [=
Laundry Day 27: place ur hand in mine
Laundry Day 27: heh maybe music can help..
XxshortmantranxX: i told you
XxshortmantranxX: listen to young peter
XxshortmantranxX: hes stupider than you think
Laundry Day 27: ahah
Laundry Day 27: u mean smarter
XxshortmantranxX: u sure?
XxshortmantranxX: i think im stpuid
XxshortmantranxX: lol
Laundry Day 27: smarter
Laundry Day 27: u busy?
XxshortmantranxX: so lost in this illusion
XxshortmantranxX: no
Laundry Day 27: can u talk on the phone this late?
XxshortmantranxX: no...my lil brother would hear
XxshortmantranxX: then tell on my ass
Laundry Day 27: oh..
Laundry Day 27: =/
XxshortmantranxX: but why...
Laundry Day 27: i feel like talking..
XxshortmantranxX: oh
XxshortmantranxX: i'm sorry
XxshortmantranxX: ne1 else you can talk to?
Laundry Day 27: yeah..
Laundry Day 27: but i dont want to talk to them..
XxshortmantranxX: oic....
XxshortmantranxX: so i must be someone special huh:-D
Laundry Day 27: yeah
XxshortmantranxX: oh wait...
XxshortmantranxX: ur serious?!!?
Laundry Day 27: yeah i am
Laundry Day 27: i wanted to sleep today.. but u didnt get on until like now..
XxshortmantranxX: i'im sorry...
XxshortmantranxX: well u can sleep now
XxshortmantranxX: i have to go
XxshortmantranxX: my pimp is tellin me too
Laundry Day 27: alright..
Laundry Day 27: good night
XxshortmantranxX: forget the pain...
XxshortmantranxX signed off at 10:17:11 PM.