ddR styleZ: i know
ddR styleZ: this isnt hip hop
ddR styleZ: this is R&B
Laundry Day 27: rhythm n bluz
ddR styleZ: joe has a song with the all eyes on me beat
ddR styleZ: new=what?
Laundry Day 27: okay u lost my after joe
Laundry Day 27: *(me
ddR styleZ: joe has a song
ddR styleZ: with tupacs all eyes on me beat
Laundry Day 27: o0oooohh
Laundry Day 27: >:o
Laundry Day 27: now new what?
ddR styleZ: new equals what?
Laundry Day 27: translation please
ddR styleZ: new = what?
ddR styleZ: new equals what?
ddR styleZ: equal = is
ddR styleZ: new is what?
ddR styleZ: what is new?
Laundry Day 27: OOHHH
Laundry Day 27: ahahaha omg..
Laundry Day 27: that was so confusing
Laundry Day 27: -__-
Laundry Day 27: well nothing really.. havent spoken my "bf"
yet about the issue.. and thats given me time to think
ddR styleZ: uh
ddR styleZ: i guess u should be going at ur own pace
ddR styleZ: or something like that
Laundry Day 27: yeah.. i dont think ill be breaking it off
Laundry Day 27: giving it a little bit more time.. he's trying to
seek forgivness.. but i dont really know if he's true to that
ddR styleZ: well, jus make sure u bring extra caskets
ddR styleZ: cuz int he end, ur gonna break his heart into four
pieces instead of two
Laundry Day 27: four?
ddR styleZ: like the halves in half :D
Laundry Day 27: ahah yes.
Laundry Day 27: i know..
Laundry Day 27: i have so many doubts in this.. but ill just
stay to see what happens..
ddR styleZ: great, it seems that u have made up ur mind about this
so i shall refrain from further underhanded implications regarding a
more efficient route to the enevitable
ddR styleZ: inevitable*
Laundry Day 27: heh yeah =T
ddR styleZ: touche ;D
Laundry Day 27: XP
Laundry Day 27: so what has been up with you
ddR styleZ: uh
ddR styleZ: i gave my homegirl that got caught that time i got jeans
some breathing room
Laundry Day 27: aahh
ddR styleZ: so i reestablished communication yesterday and
suffered unexpectedly adverse repercussion
Laundry Day 27: hmm
ddR styleZ: as it stands, i have lost my oldest associate via
miscommunication due to differing levels of intellectual aptitude
Laundry Day 27: greatt
ddR styleZ: relatively miniscule casualty in regard to eloquent
confabulation, really
ddR styleZ: the loss was in the effort and time consumed and
conceivable subsequent time
Laundry Day 27: yeah understand all that patrick
ddR styleZ: so in english
ddR styleZ: she didnt make much for meaningful conversation
ddR styleZ: but i still spent alot of time on her
ddR styleZ: she thought i didnt care
ddR styleZ: and couldnt grasp the concept of my not speaking to
her for a while
ddR styleZ: and then questions my apparent lack of conern
Laundry Day 27: hrm.. sounds familar
Laundry Day 27: very scary..
ddR styleZ: whereas if i were in her position i wouldnt not wish to
recall those particular events
ddR styleZ: then questioning my inability to back her up during
interrogation, i argued that i could not simply say that it was not her
ddR styleZ: my rebuffing arguement gave the impression that i
was betraying her even after all this time
ddR styleZ: being the naivete she is, reason was of no use
Laundry Day 27: oohh damn.
ddR styleZ: she concluded the conversation herself, which wasnt
a good sign, since by nature she is passive and requires some sort of
indiciation of the next action
Laundry Day 27: =T awh thats gotta.. be a waste of
energy..
Laundry Day 27: im sorry im just tired.. energy's low
ddR styleZ: i guess that makes communication a ltitle harder
ddR styleZ: contradictory to u, i wake up at night and apply
vocabularly that i would never use in normal conversation
Laundry Day 27: yeahh =T
Laundry Day 27: ive noticed
Laundry Day 27: understanding all this is a bit difficult
ddR styleZ: its as if we were antinodes on a standing wave and
the amplitude increases with the passing of time
ddR styleZ: passage*
ddR styleZ: aosidjasiodjasiodjasi
ddR styleZ: yeah so anyways
Laundry Day 27: ahaha
ddR styleZ: she didnt react as how ive known her to
ddR styleZ: that means she has changed
ddR styleZ: which means that she isnt the same person that i once
knew
Laundry Day 27: yeahh of course she would!
ddR styleZ: thus there is nothing to salvage
ddR styleZ: and in that case i will not try
ddR styleZ: to be efficient i will not waste any more time
ddR styleZ: life goes on
Laundry Day 27: i hear ya
Laundry Day 27: i half wish that i could see life the way you
do.. easier to understand.. less contradictions
ddR styleZ: its quite easy actually
ddR styleZ: me method summed up in a single maxim is to move
forward and not stop
Laundry Day 27: see... im afraid to move forward
ddR styleZ: u can turn to pick something up if u drop it but if its out
of reach keep on walking
ddR styleZ: as with any other fear, it most efficient way to
overcome it is to dive into it without consideration of the consequences
ddR styleZ: from then on you will know the result and not be
hindered the next time
Laundry Day 27: [= like a child..
Laundry Day 27: i USED to be like that.. until the
"consequences" became too serious and i had to deal with
them... making me fear that i will the same mistake, or any at all.
ddR styleZ: consequences such as what? i have yet to encounter
any that require a second thought
Laundry Day 27: lucky you
ddR styleZ: indeed but the question remains unanswered
Laundry Day 27: i dont like people judging me.. what ever i
do.. ends up in other mouths
Laundry Day 27: and i have such low self-esteem to take all
of it to the heart
Laundry Day 27: i am not how ppl see me..
Laundry Day 27: this is all just a shell
Laundry Day 27: so i watch what i say and do..
Laundry Day 27: especially to other people
ddR styleZ: sticks and stones my dear
ddR styleZ: propaganda is a natural occurrance
ddR styleZ: so that boils down to how you react to it
Laundry Day 27: i let it hurt me becuz i want to be
accepted
Laundry Day 27: true
ddR styleZ: accepted by what? its apparently something that hurts
u, so there is no reason to strive for what isnt for your benefit
Laundry Day 27: :-) thanks
Laundry Day 27: really, you're a great person
ddR styleZ: i beg to differ -.-
Laundry Day 27: alright, well you have helped me see
things differently.. and i believe you're great for that
Laundry Day 27: i will always remember that
Laundry Day 27: :-)
Laundry Day 27: or try to
ddR styleZ: nonsense, i just dont like ignorant ppl is all
ddR styleZ: enlightening one lessens the amount
Laundry Day 27: ahah yeah.. thats real nice -__-
Laundry Day 27: you deserve a slap :-D
ddR styleZ: i'll pass
Laundry Day 27: [= fine
ddR styleZ: ugh
ddR styleZ: caffeine
ddR styleZ is away at 3:37:14 AM.
Laundry Day 27: great, share please
Auto response from ddR styleZ: tea
ddR styleZ: k
ddR styleZ returned at 3:42:26 AM.
ddR styleZ: i brewed some green tea and drizzled honey into it
ddR styleZ: its naturally decaffinated but i'll jus tell myself
otherwise
Laundry Day 27: hm.. nice
Laundry Day 27: ahaha
ddR styleZ: care to play a game on yahoo?
Laundry Day 27: sure after this game of gunbound
Laundry Day 27: which game?
ddR styleZ: TYPER SHARK
ddR styleZ: god im gay
Laundry Day 27: never heard of it
Laundry Day 27: outa the closet already?
ddR styleZ: ?
Laundry Day 27: its okay patrick
ddR styleZ: k
Laundry Day 27: nothing to be ashamed of
ddR styleZ: pool?
Laundry Day 27: but whats that game anyways?
Laundry Day 27: and where
ddR styleZ: iono
ddR styleZ: some typing thing
ddR styleZ: yahoo
Laundry Day 27: ohh i see it
Laundry Day 27: uhh lets play pool
ddR styleZ: im in social room: the ocean table 20
ddR styleZ: sn?
Laundry Day 27: imyurlilstar
ddR styleZ: brb real quik, pretending to sleep
Laundry Day 27: gotcha
ddR styleZ: k
Laundry Day 27: hrm.. pool isnt loading.. -__- omg.. i dont
think i have java anymore
ddR styleZ: awesome
Laundry Day 27: oh hey nvm ^_^ pool is workin
ddR styleZ: eh
Laundry Day 27: just took forever to load..
ddR styleZ: kicked him
Laundry Day 27: this will take awhile -__-'
ddR styleZ: sit?
Laundry Day 27: call you when im ready for bed
ddR styleZ: kk
ddR styleZ is away at 5:17:00 AM.