Anyway, this is just for me. I know that noone is going to look at this so whatever. Anyway I'm having a shitty summer, following a shitty year. I've learn alot this year. About myself and others, and what i've found out is unpleasant mostly but some good. I never really dated until this year and I always blamed my boredom or loneliness on that. but it goes deeper than that. Noone esle can solve my problems for me. (yikes to bad about the people who have tried). I don't know its just maybe who I'am. I get bored easily and don't really let anyone get close enough so that i'm not lonely and isolated. Well i can get close to friends, but that's because really the feelings are less intense and i don't feel like I'm going to get hurt. So hmmmmm a little self anyalis determines i have a fear of getting hurt. Ok well I'm not the only one. So how do I get over that? I have no idea. Anyways no ones going to read this and comment so whatever. I wish someone would i need outside commentary to you know piss me off or challenge me whatever.
anna