Before I reflect on my year, I just want to say that I am SO glad to be coming home. And, as stupid as it sounds, I'm a big girl now. I'm enrolled in college, I (hopefully) have found a big girl job, I'm going to be involved in as many clubs and organizations as I possibly can, and I'm hungry for knowledge. If someone would have told me how much growing up I would do in this program, I don't think I would have gone through with it. Before I came into AmeriCorps, I was a child. I acted like a child, and not to mention, I looked like a child. When I came to California, I was a cherub faced, blue eyed brunette who never wanted to grow up. All I wanted to do was play... perhaps that's why I love to babysit. Because it gives me a chance to escape the real world and play!!! I just LOVE to play and act like a kid. But, after 21 years, it's time to live. I think it happend when my reality check bounced at the begining of the year. Most of the people I live with are successful 21-24 year olds, who've graduated college and have worked in the real world. Here I was, a 21 year old college drop out who's never had a "real" job. I was a Targeteer, and an Osco employee, a Claires quitter, a Chuck E. Cheese runaway and a member of community service. I started at Claires when I was 16, and gradually switched jobs. I stayed at Osco and Target for a long time, but where did that get me?! Durring my time at Osco, I got a 20 cent raise the whole 2 years I was there. My time at Target was spent developing film for snobby housewives. My community servce was my passion though. I LOVED my volunteer jobs! Childrens Therapy Group, AWESOME! Arthritis Foundation, AWESOME! Bell ringing with Hayley, AMAZING! I love community service! Community service will always be my passion, and it'll definately be something I never give up. Now it's time to share my passion with other people. I'm trying to get a "big girl" job at a non-profit. I had my job interview at Habitat the other day! It went REALLY REALLY REALLY well, and I have a 2nd interview on the 24th. (Keep your fingers crossed.) The position is as Volunteer Coordinator... but, it's kind of decieving, because there already is a volunteer coordinator... I'd kind of be the assistant to the volunteer coordinator. Ok, I just said volunteer coordinator 4 times... wow. This is my chance to reach out to the community I live in, and share my passion with them. I will get to recruit volunteers to help me make a difference. I'm VERY excited about it, and I hope it works out. :-D Well, the cherub faced, blue eyed brunette that loved to play and never wanted to grow up who left Kansas City, is leaving as a cherub faced, blue eyed blonde who is ready grow up! :-) I can't wait to see everyone at home... as I say in every e-mail, I miss you terribly. love you!
Hope everyone had a great 4th! Mine was pretty good, 4 of my teammates and I went to San Francisco for the day. Pier 39 was a hopping place! Live bands, street performers, famous people (Lindsey Lohan, Vin Diesle, Orlando Bloom, Al Roker, Jennifer Tilly, and a few others I can't remember.) Ok, so there weren't REALLY famous people, they were just regular people who looked like famous people. Oh, did I mention the temprature was mid 60's all day?! SOOOOOOOO much better than Tucson. When we went to watch fireworks, (they started at 9:30) we went to where the sea lions are to watch them. They had 2 big barges of fireworks they were setting off under the Golden Gate. We sit waiting for the fireworks for 3 hours, and the temp drops to 56 durring that time. SOOOOO cold! Brr. Well, the fireworks went off and guess what... you all know how foggy it is in San Fran, right?! Yeah, the fog was soooo dense, and we couldn't see fireworks. we just saw the fog light up red, purple, green, blue...etc. No pretty sparkley fireworks. What a bummer. :-( Oh well, it was a really really good day! Only 17 days guys. yes!!! WOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOO! :-D Alright, I gotta go to lunch now. Miss you all!
Could my project have gotten any more screwy?!? We just got pulled out of our project. Our sponser was so horrible, and things just got really bad with the lack of communication at the school, and we had another miscommunication on tuesday, so we got pulled out, and that was our last day. We got to say goodbye to the kids on Wednesday, for about 30 minutes, but it was so horrible having to leave them without telling them why. The principal didn't even tell the teachers we weren't going to be there. it's a REALLY long/confusing story that I'll have to tell you all later, but, i'm glad this project is over! :-) I'm back in Sacramento again, and will be starting at the Boys and Girls Club again on Tuesday! YAY! I'm TOTALLY excited about that one, obviously. :-D Well, I can't really write much, because I have to do more job searching. :-\ How are things with you guys? I hope well. Keep smiling!
Ok, so every job I've looked into is NOT working out. I'm so frustrated right now. I sent an e-mail to a company that was hiring a teacher for 0-12 year olds at a women's 12 step recovery program, and the position has been filled already. I sent an e-mail to Habitat for Humanities, and they haven't gotten back to me. I sent an e-mail to a non-profit radio station at UMKC and they haven't gotten back to me either... what am I going to do?! I have to find a job by the time I get back, or else I'm going to be in trouble. School starts shortly after I get back, and I'm VERY excited about it. I'm really really motivated to go. I want to take all these classes, but I don't know which one's I want to take first. There's so much I want to do with my life. I'm really starting to freak out about these things. My team calls it a "prelife crisis." I highlighted my hair again this weekend. I really stick out like a sore thumb... in a town that is primarily latino/a, when you see a blonde haired blue eyed girl walking down the street, you're sure to drop your jaw. The kids at school love to play with my hair, because it's different than the usual dark brown/black. They are fascinated with the fact that hair can be any other color. :-) Well, I must get going. Class has started! MISS YOU!
Well, I can't believe it's already Wednesday! Holy smokes, where has the time gone?! Seriously, my time in AmeriCorps is coming to an end. (Thank God!) Only 28 days left, not including today. WOOOO-HOOOO. :-D School is going really really great. The principal is really pressing for me to stay here and work at the school, but we all know I can't do that. :-\ This weekend was an eventful one! I bought a new outfit! My FIRST new outfit that I have bought. The ENTIRE outfit... I got a skirt, a shirt, a hair tie, shoes and earings! It's sooooooooooo cute! I look like a watermellon. The outfit is bright pink and bright green. :-D It's very fun. Hm... what else... I went dancing again on Friday. I'm becoming quite the dancing fool. It's funny, cuz I used to NOT like dancing, but my hips just won't stop moving. I've become a dancing diva. We leave for Mexico soon. Puerto Pinasco. (sp) We are all REALLY excited for that. The team keeps making fun of me, because I'm kinda scared to swim in the Mexican water. If you can't drink it, what makes you think you can swim in it?! Seriously... I bought arm floaties, and put my address in them so if I float away, the coast guard can find me and send me home if I am delerious. I also bought a helmet so I don't hit my head on a rock. THey think it's all fun and games, but I'm playing it safe. *sigh* IT'll definately be a different 4th of July experience than I'm used to. I miss my family. :-( This is the 1st 4th of july i haven't been home. :-( Maybe they will bring a picture of me and hang it up so I'm there in spirit? ;-) Who knows. Well, I've gotta go look for a job and get back to class. Love you!
How are you guys? I'm doing pretty dang good if I may say so myself! I finally got to go dancing this weekend! TWICE! I went to this shady club on Friday, where Sugar Ray Lenard (sp) goes. And on Saturday, I went to this college club, with like, 400 people! It was insane!!! But SOOOOOOOOOOOOO much fun. I LOVED IT! I used to never dance, but now... my hips just won't stop moving! Even when I'm walking up and down the stairs, I feel like I'm salsa-ing. It's great. :-D Hm... what else... My class is still marvelous. I love it still. I'm going to go crazy though, because 3 of the kids I work with are dyslexic, and I don't know how to help them, and so it's VERY frustrating! My teacher doesn't know what to do with them either, so I'm kind of up a creek without a paddle. Yikes! It's frustrating for the kids, too, cuz I don't know how to work with them. But it's working out pretty well. We all love each other. *sigh* I wish I could bring them home, too. Some of the kids tell me I'm the closest thing I've ever had to a mom. That's really hard, because it's only my 2nd week here!!! But they say they see me more than their real parents. That makes it kinda hard to be around them, BUT, the kids are so strong, and positive!!! I love it. Well, I've gotta go play a game of tag and then run the snack bar. Hope you are all doing well. Smile!
Yeah, it's me again. I'm at Kinkos right now, just chillin'. There are some things I Forgot to mention in my last e-mail that I thought people would like to know about. I moved on Sunday, and it went really really well. It took a few hours, but we managed to get done quickly. Dave was sick, I can't lift anything, and neither can Ben, so we were kinda up a creek without a paddle. But it ended up being alright. :-) I also had my first Mexican HotDog. I don't know if any of you have had those before, but omg, they are PERFECT! It's a hotdog, with baccon wrapped around it, and chille ontop, and mayonaise and mustard and avacado and onions, pickles and cheese! it's amazing!!! I also had a seatle-style hotdog! It's a turkey dog with cream cheese. Also a great meal! Hm... what else... I had this whole big list of things to write about, and I forgot them all! I went swimming today for a field trip. WELL, I didn't go swimming... I was in my uniform. But 12 kids PUSHED me in!!! Oh shoot, I gotta go... My time is up! Sorry for the random e-mail! SMILE!
I LOVE SCHOOL! I look forward to school, I feel sad when I go home at night... it's wonderful. These kids are just so perfect. I'm officially named "Miss" now. NOt Miss Tara, just MISS. That's it. "Miiiiiisssssss, I have to go to the bathroom!" "miiiiiissssss, he stole my pencil!" "misssssssss, can you read me a story?!" it's wonderful. I can't wait to be a teacher. :-) So my class has grown. I have 18 kids now. 10 girls, 8 boys. I'm running/supervising 2 afterschool programs now permanantly. Cheerleading and Breakdancing! It's awesome. The breakdancers are amazing. My instructional assistant, Mr. Jesus, teaches the breakdancing, and he's awesome. We've also been doing Zumba more and more in class. I've gotten pretty good at salsa! I'm quite the hip-shaker. They said I'm ready to go to the clubs and salsa! YES! I'm excited! My teacher wants to take me out, but I'm nervous. She's the kind of girl who like, probably likes to dance more than I do, so I'm nervous to go cuz I dont' want to just stand around. *sigh* C'est La Vie. We move into our condo on Sunday! I'm excited! It's a lovely appartment, with real beds, and a pool, and we are buying a slip-and-slide. YES! Our apartment has grass... I haven't seen any grass since... San Bernardino, really. It's been nothing but brown. Oh, guys... I'm done with my ISP's, and I'm caught up on my hours!!! YAY!!!!! Time to celebrate. :-D Ok, well, I must get going. We are watching Shrek 2 today! YAY!