February 26, 2000
Dear Howie:
Wow, pretty interesting... I think this talk seems to be getting interesting.. hehe..... I kinda expected that you'd be there at the Boo... Yeh, it was a coincidence that my friends know our friends. And Dawn happens to know my sister's friend, Lanh, too (the girl who came clubbin with us last time.. "QueenKatrina"). My friend Denny told me Dawn or Roselyn are his sister's friends. You know what? Everything seems to be connected. Seems like everyone knows each other. I had a chit chat with Karen on the phone last night, and she knew this girl from before who used to be my best friend. I heard rumour now that my ex-bestfriend is a prostitute?? But I don't care much about it. It's kinda strange, and everything seems so different.
About this girl u like... yeh, I kinda already guessed... and remember her name now. hehe.. And I promise I won't tell anyone *pink swear*. On and off feelings, huh? I've been thru that.. and still kinda going on... It's been 2 yrs now. hmm.... I guess I can tell you this.... but don't say a word to anyone, 'kay? Well, I've been kinda thinking about Kenny, the guy I met. He seems very nice and he calls me all the time too. We've been hangin out a lot, so far every weekend and sometimes Wednesday nites. I'm alright with it.. he always put a smile on me.. In a way, I feel somewhat weird cuz there's other things. So I'm still a bit in a mood swing: about this guy, my friend who's on vacation, friends around me (past and present), and school.
Lately, I feel like the "I don't care anymore" type of feeling. And I'm doing things the last minute too. I'm still pissed off at some things... Anyway, as I said to my friend, I'm gonna be a bit riskier this year. Seems like I'm so bad now, eh? Like I said, I don't care! I still wanna get radical.
Hey, I sorta have the same thoughts as you do about going to the States. I remember that last year, I wanted to move away somewhere on my own. I talked to people about it too. I wanted to leave... hmm.. I like to go to Cali too. New York would be nice too. I wouldn't go back to HK. The first time I went there I hated it. ..not my kind of atmosphere...
Don't worry too much about stuff, 'kay? It'll get resolved. and that feeling would go away eventually. For me, I'm just holding onto my decisions/my paths and waiting into the future of how things are gonna turn out, and also kinda work it through at the same time.
*Yawn* I'm so sleepy today. I'm gonna go take a nap. I didn't get home until 2:30am. Probably go out again later tonite.. I'll catchya later.
Jen
"The little things are most worthwile -- quiet word, a look, a smile"