December 16, 1999
Dear Howie (or Dear Diary… hehehe… j/k),
This is actually kinda fun writing to each other like this. …just a way for me to express how I feel. I still kept a journal, dated since January 1999.
Well, school is finally over! For the Christmas break, that is. Hm.. I'm bored right now and I dunno what to write…Ah well… thanx for being concerned for me ^_^ yeh, still got a bit of coughing.. Things are okay with me and Arthur. About Rey, it's just a minor thing.. so that doesn't count. Arthur already knows everything I told him. He understands.
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December 19, 1999
Howie:
HIHI!!! I just got your message. Thanx for the URL. I wasn't really crying. Sounded like I was crying when I called u, but I wasn't. I sounded muffled cuz I was kinda sick and had a cold. Ehm.. actually, I was sorta tearing a while before I got disconnected and then called you. It was nothing really serious. And if you're wondering, Arthur and I are fine. We are still together. We just had a little talk. Like I said earlier to you, he knows what's going on. And he finally realizes and understands what I'm going thru. Before he even asked me out, I already told him that I have 2 situations going on (and he still took that risk): one was about you (which is about something I predicted before you told me) and the other person I had off/on feelings with. One thing you should understand is that there's still always something (that I have with my other friend) is etched in my heart and can't forget. Just somethings that are between us.. but we never actually went out as bf/gf. Before, I waited for him to tell me something, but it seems like he's playing hard to get, so I moved on. Now that feeling's back.
I'm curious about you now. In a way I'm sad cuz I have a feeling that something's up with you. I know that you are still feeling miserable. I just really wanna know why? I still wanna find out the truth. Feels like there's something more (if there is)? I don't wanna pressure you thru this and our friendship. I just hope you'll feel better soon… don't think about it too much.
Friends Always,
Jen