It became more obvious when my father read it and that was the first thing that he said, "Vampires?"...I kind of paused...I couldn't believe that he thought the same thing...so I still denied it. Well, I didn't deny it, but I was like, "Well, I didn't plan on that, but..."
I accepted it when my good friend Renee read it too. She also said it was vampires...then I knew...it was and is. I wrote a poem about vampires and didn't mean to...for that reason (along with the fact that I love the way it's written and flows) it is one of my favorites. The fact that I was led into writing it by some other force...it's very scary in some senses.
And the background image is an altered sketch of Spawn by Ashley Wood.
As the cold rain falls and beats my face
I hate the world and all of it's lies
I watch the rain descend from swollen skies
And moisten my dead skin covered with age-old lace
My eyelids outweigh the will to keep them open
In my mind the rain turns from cold to colder still
The downfall that seemed harmless now is meant to kill
I sheild myself from the bullets of a black sky
Hoping...
Hoping that I am sick beneath this land of life
Into a crack where love and life are replaced with hate and strife
Where I will be king and all the world my wife
And the last thing I'll find in my back is a knife
It is now that I descend...
I descend farther than the rain into a frozen void
Whre my feelings become my most frightening fears
My sweat becomes my blood and dirt becomes my tears
Where suffering is hoped for and pain is enjoyed
Deeper in the darkened hole of myself I sink
Where the hated sun's light knows better than to shine
Where the feet at which the devils bow are mine
Where it's the rose-red blood of innocents I drink
In this empty abyss I see all humankind
They laugh; they cry; they love; they die; they dream; they kill
They envy my emotionlessness and always will
And know this bliss is something they can never find
This bliss, this bliss
Like a lover's kiss
This bliss, this bliss
Is all that I'll miss
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