CHAPTER16

The next morning I woke up and I saw Justin kneeling in from of me brushing the hair out of my face. Syncer was asleep next to my back. Justin was holding a single rose.

“Wake up sweetie. We are going somewhere today.”

“Where?” I asked sitting up whipping the sleep from my eyes. Justin was still in his boxers. His hair was fruffed out like mine. He looked funny and I smiled.

“It’s a surprise. JC and Kaylena are going too. We are bringing Syncer and Rachel and Joe are stayin here. Lets go get a shower.” We stripped our clothes off and climbed into the bathtub instead of the shower. We put strawberry bath pearls in the water. We washed eachothers hair and rubbed eachothers bodies clean with soap. After we got out, Justin handed me some clothes. “Here. Wear these.” It was a pair of tight white cargo pants, a baby blue tube top, a ¾ sleeve shrug, white silk undies, baby blue strapless bra, white socks, baby blue stripped adidas, and a pair of blue tinted glasses. I took the clothes and got dressed. When I came out I laughed at the sight of Justin. He was also wearing white cargos, a baby blue tshirt and a white button up that was unbuttoned. He was wearing the same glasses and shoes too.

“You look fantstic Justin.” I kissed him and I could smell his tommy hilfiger cologne.

“You look excellent Mrs. Timberlake.” He smiled.

“So where are we going?”

“It’s a surprise.” When we got down stairs I busted out laughing. JC nad Kaylena were wearing the same things we were except the had dark blue shirts.

“This is funny huh Ash?”

“Yup. Atleast they knew our size!”

“I know! Where is Syncer?” She was holding his harness and leash which Justin picked out. Guess what color it was? You guessed it…baby blue.

“Here he comes.” The large puppy came bouncing down the stairs tripping over his extra large feet. Kaylena hooked up his harness and we all go in JC’s jeep. We drove until we got to Johnny Wrights home. We had met him before but we had never been to his home. We came to the door and Mrs. Wright greeted us at the door.

“Hey guys! We missed you around here! Hey girls, how are two doing?”

“We doin good.” Kaylena said for the both of us.

“I am sorry to hear about Tucker Ashleigh. But congrts with Justin.”

“Thanks.” I said smiling.

“Come on in. Johnny is waiting for you.”

“For who?” I asked. I was holding Syncers leash. He was pulling it trying to catch a lizard in the bush.

“For you and Kaylena of course.”

“Why?”

“Oh. They didn’t tell you?”

“Tell us what?”

“Oh this is excellent! It is fantasic news for you and Kay. Come on in and Johnny will talk to you. He is set up in the basement.” She lead us down there. “Johnny? The girls, Justin and JC are here. They brought their puppy too.”

“Wht should I do with him?” I asked.

“I’ll take him. I am sure the neighbor kids will love to play with him if that’s ok.”

“Sur it is. He loves kids! Thanks.” She left with Syncer in her arms licking her face.

“Hello ladies. It’s nice to see you again.”

“You too Johnny.” I said giving him a hug. “So what it is we need to take about?”

“Well they guys called me and came over the other day. They gave me this.” He held up a small tape recorder. I felt my heart sink. I did’nt know what was on it.” By the way, the outfits are very catchy.” He laughed.

“Anyways, they wanted me to listen to it so I did. Do you know what is on here?” He was teasing us big time. We shook you heads nervously. “It is you two, in the kitchen, singin acapella. They recorded it and brough it to me. You two are very musically talented. I would like to hear a demo of you two together if you would please do that for me.”

“I guess.” I gat him a feble smile. I was scard shitless! He lead us to a little stage he had in the basement. We sat on the stools and he asked us what we would like to sing.

“Depends on what you want, I have it on a demo with no vocals.”

“Um…how about Brandy’s version of ‘Every Thing I do’?”

“Yeah I have that. Hold on a sec.” He got a tape and put in a tape player and the music sarted **note: red=kaylenas parts blue=my parts purple=together**

Look into my eyes.

You will see, what you mean too me.

Search you heart, seach you soul.

When you find me, then you’ll search no more.

Don’t tell me, it’s not worth tryin for.

You can’t tell me, it’s not worth dying for.

You know it’s true.

Everything I do, I do it for you.

Look in to your heart. You will find,

There is nothing there, to hide.

Take me as I am, take my life.

I would give it all, I would sacrifice.

Don’t tell me, it’s not worth fightin for.

I can’t help it. There’s nothing I want more.

You know is true.

Everthing I do, I do it for you.

There is no love, Like you you love

And no other, could give me more love.

There’s no where, unless you there.

All the time, all the way.

You can’t tell me it’s not worth tryin for.

I just can’t help it.

There’s nothing in the world I want more.

Oh I would fight for you, yeah I’d lie for you.

Walk the wire for you. Yeah I’d die for you.

You know it’s true.

Everything I do.

I do it for you.

We looked at the guys just as the last note strung out. Their mouths were hanging open. So was Johnnys.

“My lord ladies! You had…you were…I need to sit down.” Johnny said. We laughed at him. “Their was so much power and emotion behind that. That is what made it so good. I mean Britney Spears has an alright voice but it would be twice as much better if she put a little emotion into it. I don’t care what you say. I am signing you abord.” Kaylena jumped up and into JC’s open arms. Justin jumped up and ran over to me practically knocking me over.

“Sweetie that was excellent! I love you so much!” He kissed me.

“I love you too but Justin, I have stage fright.”

“Well you did ok just now.”

“That was 3 people. Not 3,000 people.”

“We can start small then. No biggy. Now this means you have a reason to go on tour with me. You don’t have to worry about a thing. Johnny will set it all up, get some suff recorded, ship it out, and have you on our summer tour next year. That’s 6 monthes away. You are still going on tour with me, just not performing, arent you?”

“If you want me too. But what about recording?”

“It is easily done on the road too. When we stop a venues and stuff.”

“When does it start again?”

“One month.”

“Ok.”

“Woohoo! My women is goin on the road with me!” I just laughed at him as he did some stupid dance thingy. He looked funny.

“So what do you say girls?” Johnny said. “Are you in?”

“We are in!” Kaylena and I said. We looked at eachother. She ran over to me and we hugged me. We were laughing. I think it was because we were happy and shocked. We said our thank-yous and went to get Syncer who was playing with some neighbor kids. We went to go get some lunch and Mc Donalds. We decided to eat there in the place. We ordered and sat down. Kaylena and JC were talkin with Justin. I ate some french fries and was watching the little baby girl who was in the stroller next us. I noticed no one was with her. She was there all alone. She was so cute just looking up at me and giving me a toothless smile.

“Hello? Ashleigh? You with us?” Justin snapped his fingers in front fo my face.

“Yeah. What?” I took my eyes off the child and looked at Justin.

“Whats wrong?” He asked looking concerned.

“Nothing.” I looked back down at the baby. She was still looking at me. She reached her little tiny hand up at me. I let her wrap her tiny fingers around my finger. I smiled.

“She’s cute.” Justin said.

“Yeah.” I never took my eyes off of her.

“Where are her parents?” He asked noticing no one was with her.

“I don’t know.” I whispered.

“Whats this?” He reached over into the stroller and took a piece of paper off the handle. I hadn’t noticed it before. I looked up and listen while Justin read it.

“Hey guys listen to this.” He said to Kaylena and JC.

“This note says ‘Please, who ever takes our baby, please take good care of her. We cannot provide a good home for her. She deserves a better life than what we can give her. All her medical records and birth certificate are in her diaper bag. Her name is Jessica Taylor and hopefully a good persons last name should follow. She was born September 13. Today she is 3 weeks old. Please take good care of her. If you would like to contact us, tape you phone number and name under the table. We will pick it up and call sometime. Thank you.’ That is trippy!” He said. “What are we gonna do with her?” He looked over at me. I was looking at her again. She was still gripping my finger and smiling up at me with crystal blue eyes. She had platinum blonde hair and she was so small. She was sucking on a pacifire now.

“I think we know what we are doing with her.” JC said motioning to me.

“Hi Jessica.” Justin said leaning down. “You are coming home with us. But first we are going to get some baby stuff for you. Come on Ash. Pick her up. I will get the stroller. Hurry so we can go get a car seat.”

“Really Justin?” I said. I was elated.

“Of course. She obviouly loves you and I wouldn’t want anyone bad to take her. I think you will make the perfect mommy for her.” He said as her kissed my forhead. I leaned down and wrapped Jessica up in her blanket. She snuggled right up against me and closed her eyes. We got in the Jeep and drove Babies ’R’ Us. First we went to find her size in clothing. After we found it, we left Kaylena and JC to get her a wardrobe. Justin and I went to look at ‘stuff’ like cribs, playpens, basennets, toys, bottles, bathing items, diapers, and things like that. When we left, we literally had to have the stuff put in a shippin truck and brought to the house. JC and Kaylena took the jeep which was packed with clothes. They must have gotten no less than 60 outfits. Not to mention socks, booties, hair clips, pacifire clips, pacifires, blankets, and all that good stuff. I charged over $2,000 on my charge card. When we got to the house I told Kaylena and JC to tell the movers to put the suff in the empty room next to mine and Justin’s room. Justin and I put her in her new carseat and went to the hardware store to get paint, blinds, curtins, boarders and lights. We ended up picking baby blue paint (gee I wonder), a boarder that had little puppies on it, about 3 matching lamps, white curtins and baby blue blinds that were the same color as the paint. Since by thins time it was still only 11:30 am, we rushed home and started to paint and decorate. Joey, Chris, Lance, the other Chirs, Rachel, Kaylena,

JC and Justin all helped out We were done with painting, the border and the window coverings by 2:00. Then we put the dresser, the crib, the bassinet, the lamps and her toys in the room. Kaylena put her clothes away while I arranged her diapers in the closet with her toys.

“Something is missing.” I said turning around inspecting the completed room. I could put my finger on it but something was missing.

“Like what?” Justin said. Her wrapped me up in a hug as I looked down in to the crib where Jessica was asleep. She looked so peacefull.

“Oh! I know what it is.”

“What?” He asked again.

“A rocking chair.”

“Yeah. That would put that finishing touch on it. After she wakes up we will go get one ok?”

“Alright. Thank you so much Justin. I know this is a big step but it will all be worth it. I promise. I mean just look at her. She’s so happy. So peaceful.” I looked up at Justin and noticed he wasn’t looking at her but me.

“I know. You are huh? Whatever makes you happy. But Ashleigh, it’s only fair to warn you, her parents will be back for her soon. Mabye as soon as they get on their feet they will come looking for her.”

“I’m not gonna let them do that. After a while, I will take her to San Diego. She can live there with my mom, Vicki.”

“How long?”

“I don’t know, but my mom will be glad to have her. She always wanted another little girl. But she never could have one.” Tears were welling up in my eyes.

“What’s the matter honey?” Justin asked.

“She had 3 miscarrarages. That is why they finally just adopted me. She couldn’t go through it again. Mabye I will call her tonight and sent her a plane ticket. Come to think of it I haven’t met mine and JC’s mom yet. Shouldn’t she be back?”

“Remember, they decided to stay for another 3 monthes.”

“Oh yeah. Well I am gonna go call my mom in San Diego.” I called her and her and my dad were on their way the next morning to come see Jessica. I still haden’t told them that Justin asked me to marry him. Or about Tucker. I would tell them when they got here. I hung up the phone and went into the living room and layed my head in Justin’s lap.

“Are you sure you want to give her to your parents?”

“Yeah. I think that right now, I am not ready for a child. Mabye after my career takes off and everything, about in two years, I would like to have a child of my own. Our child.” I smiled at him. “I love you Justin.”

“I love you too.” He began to kiss me and soon we were making love. Safe love of course. We didn’t need another little Jessica!

CHAPTER17:

Kaylena, Justin, JC and I arrived at the airport 30 minutes before my parents flight was in. We had brought Jessica and Syncer with us. Soon the plane landed and my mom and dad we rushing over to me exchanging hugs.

“Is this Jessica?” My mom asked bending over the stroller.

“Yeah. Isn’t she cute.” Justin said. My mom and dad looked up. They hadn’t noticed the other people yet.

“Kaylena!” My mom hugged her.

“Hey Mrs. Vicki and Mr. Gary.”

“You must be Justin.” My mom said looking at him.

“It’s nice to finally meet you.”

“You too Mrs. Jones. Hi Mr. Jones.” Justin offered his hand to shake my dads. My dad excepted his hand. Then my mom saw JC.

“Hello. You must be Josh. Ashleigh’s brother. It’s so nice to meet you.” She gave him a hug. After everyone met everyone we went to get their luggage. After that, they got in Justins Benz and drove home.

“Wheres Tucker? Did he shrink?” My dad said laughing as he played with Syncer. I almost started to cry.

“No Dad. Tucker got hit by a car.” Then I did start to cry. Justin reached over and held my hand.

“Aw honey I’m sorry. I had no idea.”

“It’s ok.” We arrived home and we showed them to their room. We really had a house full!! Then we went into the kitchen to whip up some dinner for the guys. My mom, me, Rachel, and Kaylena went to cook. The guys took Jessica in the living room and played with her and Syncer.

“Mom guess what?” A huge grin cracked over my face.

“What?”

“I am getting married!” I showed her the ring.

“To Justin?” Her eyes lit up in exctment.

“Yeah!”

“Aw sweetie! Congratulations!! When is the wedding?”

“We don’t know yet.” My mom was very anxious. “You’re gonna be there though right?” I asked her already knowing the answer.

“Of course I will be!! I wouldn’t miss it for the world!” She gave me a hug. Then Justin walked into the kitchen. Mom went to give him a hug too.

“Congratulations sweetie. But you know what I’m about to say don’t you?”

“I think so. Um…let’s see. Oh yeah! ‘Take good care of her. I know you will be happy together’ ? Is that about right?” He laughed. “Is diner almost done?” He asked rubbing is stomach.

“Almost.” I said pulling bread rolls from the oven and took them to the table. “By the time you get you drink, tell the others it’s ready, and sit down, it’ll be ready.” He kissed my forehead and went to tell everyone. We also invited Chris Modrow (the guys who is staying with us) to come eat with us. We sat and everyone talked about old times. Mabye not old times that we spent together, but imbarrassing time. Everyone was laughing constintly. My mom and dad were leaving in the morning.

“So you are taking Jessica right?” I asked my mom as we cleared the table.

“Of course. She is such a little gift and just what I need right now. But what about all that baby stuff?”

“I am sure someone will put it to use.” I replied. Then realizing what I said I followed it with, “Oh but not me for a while! Oh yeah!! I didn’t tell you. Justin and JC took us over to Johnny Wrights house, their manager. He had us sing for him and now he is signing us on to Trans Con.”

“No way! That is awsome! So you are gonna tour and stuff?”

“Yeah. First with the guys then by our selves. We are so excited!”

“I bet! Well sweetie, I am goin to bed. You dad…oh…well…I mean…” I cut her off.

“Yeah, dad. What about you guys?” I could tell she wasn’t sure if she should call him my dad or not.

“Yeah, we are gonna go to bed. Our flight leave early, like 4am, so we wont wake you. We will just get Jessica and go alright?”

“If that’s what you want. I was so good to see you again mom.” I gave her and my dad big hugs before they went to bed. After they went to bed, Justin and I decided to watch a movie with JC, Kaylena, Joey and Reachel.

“So, whats goin on with you two?” I ask Joey.

“What do you mean?” He looked down at Rachel who had her head in his lap asleep. “We are dating if that’s what you mean.”

“Awww. How cute! Hey look Joe, no offense, but I know how you are. And if you hurt her…”

“I know, I know. You’ll hurt me. Blah blah blah. It is different with her. I don’t feel the need to always be messing around with her if you know what I mean. It is deeper than that. I have fallen for her and I am just glad she feels the same way.” He was playing with her soft, long brown hair. I didn’t say anything else. For some reason I believed him. Justin was playing with my hands when he took them and put them around his back. Then he put his arms around mine. He lean towards me and I laid back untill my back hit the couch. He began roughly kissing my neck. He had his hand on the back of my head and pressed it forward while he sucked on my neck. I was a little pain for but a good pain. I moaned in delight. My fingers dug in to his bare back.

“Oh yeah! And I am gonna hurt Rachel? Puh!” Joey scoffed from the couch. We ignored him. Justin procedeed to rub his hand up and down my body. “Ew! Go to your room!” Joey shreiked. We still ignored him. Justin began to unbutton my shirt. “OK! THAT’S IT! Reachel sweetie. We gotta go to our room. The two love birds are about to have mad sex in front of me.” Rachels eyes fluttered open. Joey picked her up and carried her to there room leaving Justin and I in our heavy make out session.

CHAPTER18:

“You got all your stuff sweetie?” Justin asked my as I borded the bus.

“Yeah.” I quickly kissed his cheek then stuggled to get Syncer and my stuff on the bus. Just reached over and took Syncer from me. I found my spot for my stuff and arranged it all. I couldn’t figure out where Justin and Syncer had disapeared to so I started to walk to the back room. Before I got there the bathroom door opened and hit my smack-dab in the middle of my forehead. “Awwwchie!” I grabbed my forehead with my hand and looked to see who had hit me. It was JC.

“Oh my gosh Ashleigh! Are you alright? I am so sorry!” He leaned down and kissed my forehead to make it better.

“Thanks brother!” I said sarcastically. “I’m fine. Where’s Justin?”

“Umm…I think Syncer and he are in the back with everyone else.” JC helped me stand up and we walked to the back room. Sure enough, Justin and the guys were in the back playing playstation.

“Hey baby.” Justin said not moving his eyes off the game. I laughed at him. Then Syncer came running at me yipping and barking the whole way.

“When we get to Jacksonville tonight Kaylena, Rachel and I are going out ok?”

“Sure baby. When will you be back?”

“I dunno. Around…1 or 2.”

“Alright.”

“Well I am tierd. I am going to go take a nap. Which bunk is ours?”

“Uh…bunk number 6.”

“Alrighty then. See you after a while.” I walked out leaving everyone else in there. Just as I was about to doze off I felt Justin climbing in to the bunk.

“You still awake?”

“I am now.” I replied with out openeind my eyes.

“I’m sorry. I wanna take a nap too. Is that ok?”

“Sure Justy.” He wrapped his arms around me I soon fell asleep. I was awakened by Kaylena softly shaking my shoulder.

“Ashleigh, we are about 30 minutes away from Jacksonville. Hurry and get ready.” So I got up and got ready to go. As soon as we got there, Justin was still asleep so I left him a note and we left. We went to a club and just danced with ramdom people. Before I knew it, I was tierd. It was only 12:18 but we decided to go back to the hotel we were supposed to stay in. I got up to mine and Justins room and opened the door. I saw Justin and Britney together naked making love.

“Justin?!?” I said.

“OMG! Ashleigh!” He rolled off of Britney and she covered her fake self with a sheet. I could tell they had been going at it for a while because the were both really sweaty.

“The wedding is off.I’ll be leaving now.” I whispered.

“Ashleigh wait!” I turned to leave as Justin yell after me.

“Just let the bitch go”. Britney said. I really wanted to go back and beat the shit out of her but not while she was naked. I liked my eyesite. But I would get her later. I ran with tears streaming down my face to JC and Kaylenas room and knocked on the door. JC opened it and immediately took me in to a hug noticeing I was crying.

“What the matter sis?” I was crying hisarically.

“Where is Kay?”

“Her and Rachel went to the store. Whats the matter?”

“I called off mine and Justins wedding.”

“What?!? Why?” He yelled shocked.

“I came here and went to my room. He was uh. He was umm…”

“What Ash?”

“He was having sex with Britney.” More tears came gushing out.

“IM GONNA KILL HIM! IM GONNA KILL HIM!!” JC yelled as he jumped up and ran for the door.

“JC! Don’t!” I screamed after him.

“Why not?”

“No matter what he did I still love him. I don’t want him to be hurt!”

“Alright.” He said calming down. He walked back over to me and put his arm around me. “So is the wedding really off?”

“I think so.” I replied sadly. Just then we heard 3 knockes at the door.

“Come in!” JC yelled. Justin walked in now dressed. JC looked up and flipped out! “WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING HERE? Just get the hell out Justin! She doesn’t want to see you!! How can you do that to her??” I gnoreing JC, Justin ran over to me.

“Ashleigh can we please talk?” He hadnt ever shed a tear.

“No Justin. I have nothing to say to you. Except that I will not be marrying you.” I got up and left the room. I went down in to the lobby. I could hear Justin running up behind me. Then I saw her. In all her fake glory walking down the steps. I took off running after her.

“ASHLEIGH DON’T! BRITNEY! LOOK OUT!” She looked back and saw me charging at her. She was too slow. I ran by and grabbed a hand full of her. Her feet were knocked out from under her as I yanked her by her hair down the steps. I pulled the screaming slut ith the middle of the lobby, stood her up and socked her in her jaw so she fell back down to the ground. I reached down and ripped of what clothes she did have on and left her there exposed and nude. Reporters were flashing pictures. I looked up and saw Justin at the top of the steps crying. I let the media eat Britney as I went up the steps and back to my room. I slowly approached Justin and he stood up. Tears starting escaping my eyes. I couldn’t help it, I reached out and pulled him in to a hug crying into his chest.

“I am so sorry Ashleigh.” He whispered.

“Sorry isnt gonna work this time Justy.

“Do you hate me?”

“No Justin. I can never hate you. I love you.”

“I love you too Ashleigh.Is the wedding really off?”

“If its not then we have some major issues to sort out.”

“I will do anything! I don’t want to loose you!! But you didn’t give me time to explain.” We were still gripping eachother. “She came over and I told her to leave. She said she just wanted to talk about the tour to I invited her to sit down. She got up and made two drinks. Ashleigh, she drugged my drink. That one drug that you don’t know what the hell you are doing.

“Extacsy.” I said.

“Yeah. That stuff. Well all I remember was her coming on to me. And then the next thing I knew you were in the room saying the wedding was off.” I was silent. For some reason I believed him. Mabye it was just because I wanted too but I didn’t think it was. I knew he was telling the truth. We went and explained to JC who was still fumming what happened. He didn’t care, he was still pissed. We went back to our room and I got ready for bed. I was about to climb in it but then I remembered what had happened in it less than 30 minutes ago. I went over to the couch to sleep. Justin walked over and nelt down in front of me. “Can I join you?”

“Sure.” I moved forward so he could slip behind me. I could tell that he wanst sure what to do with his hands since he wasn’t going to put them around me. He probably figured I didn’t want him to. So I reach back and took his hands. I pulled them in front of me. He squeesed me tight. I felt him start to cry. I rolled over to face him and layed my face on his chest. I stoked his hair.

“Shhhhh. Justin. Shhhh. Its gonna be alright.” I reassured him.

“I really don’t want to loose you Ashleigh. I love you so much.

“I know baby. I love you too. Your’e not gonna loose me. Face it. You stuck with me for life.” I leanded forward and softly kissed his lips. He turned it in to a kiss of true passion. We lay there kissing and crying in eachothers arms not knowing what the future was going to bring us.

CHAPTER19

“Justin! I need a word with you. RIGHT NOW!” JC yelled from back of the bus. Justin and I had not been to touchy-feely and lovy since the Britney thing. I slept in his bunk but we only occasionally kissed. Justin jogged off to see what JC wanted. I followed him to eves drop.

“What the hell were you thinking man?!? In the hotel? You knew she was coming back soon! That was totally stupid!”

“Yeah JC I know. But you knew that Brit and I have been sleeping together. You never said a word to her! Is that how a brother is? NO!” I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. Justin has been sleeping with her and JC knew about it. I pushed the door open and both guys turned to look at me. Their faces in shock. “Ashleigh! OMG!”

“What Justin? You looked like you’ve seen a ghost! Anyways I am gonna take the car down to the beach. Ok?”

“Alright.” Justin said letting out a sigh of releif. I pretended not to have hear them. I drove down to the beach were the cliffs were. I wrote a note to Justin and put it on the seat. Then I got out of the car. My tears were hot as the streamed down my face. I looked over the edge.

“I love you Justin.” I whispered. Then I stepped forward, plumitting to the bottom of the cliffs landing on the sharp, jagged rocks.

::::JUSTINS POINT OF VIEW::::

“JC where is she??” We were all back on the bus. Ashleigh still hadnt come back and I was so worried.

“I dunno. Have you tried calling her?”

“Yeah. No one picks up. I am going to the beach to look for her.” With that I turned and left the bus. I got in the jeep with Lonnie and we drove to the beach. I saw her car parked by the cliff.

“STOP!” I yelled to Lonnies. The car screached to a hault. I jumped out of the car and up to Ashleighs car. There was a piece of paper on the drivers seat. I opened the door and read the note.

“Dear Justin,

By the time you get this note it will be too late. I am sorry Justin. I heard your conversation with JC. I couldn’t help it any longer. How could you do that to me? Justin, I thought you loved me. And JC, he’s my brother and he didn’t warn me. Anyhow I took care of my pain and I am no longer a pain to you. I am sorry Justin. I love you.

Love, Ashleigh”

Tears began tp form in my eyes. ‘I can’t believe I did that to her!! What the hell is wrong with me??’ I felt Lonnie place his hand on my shoulder. I went over to the cliff and looked down. I saw her. She was laying in the rocks on her back. I could see mass amounts of blood. ‘Mabye she is still alive!’ I took off running to the stairs that led to the rock. I neared her. I could see her chest haad a slight rise and fall.

“Ashleigh? You are alive!! OMG!! LONNIE CALL 911!! NOW!” I was crying so bad. I didn’t want to loose her. I was willing to do anything to save her.

*****ASHLEIGHS POINT OF VEIW******

I was laying on the rock in GREAT pain after I jumped. Then I realized it was stupid to jump. It was a 50 ft. drop which isn’t enough to kill me. I was laying there and soon my body was numb and I didn’t feel any more pain. Then Justin came running up.

“Ashleigh? You are still alive!! OMG!! LONNIE CALL 911!! NOW!” He was crying. I could hear him. I felt his warm tears hit my face as he leaned over and talked to me. “Ashleigh please don’t leave me! I am so so sorry! I know sorry can’t help but I was being stupid. I don’t know why I even did it. Ashleigh please hold on! Kaylena needs you too. Please…don’t go.”

“I love you Justin.” I whispered.

“No Ashleigh! Don’t you dare! Don’t you dare start saying your good byes! You have to make it through this. The ambulance is on its way. Please hold on. Can you do that?”

“Yes Justin. I can do that.”

Before I knew it I was laying in a hotpital bed after an operation on my back. When I opened my eyes no one was in the room. Then the door opened. It was Britney.

“What the hell are you doing here?” I demanded angrily.

“Just helping you finish what you started. One way or another I am getting Justin from you bitch.” She held up a pair of scissors and walked over to the side of my bed where my I.V. was hooked up. I was too weak to fight back. She was about to cut it when the door opened.

“Hey baby you awake?” Justin asked. “Britney? Get the fuck out of her bitch! I NEVER want to see your slutty ass again! Fuckin leav before I call the police!”

“You know you want me Justin! As sson as the BITCH is on her feet again you will be coming back for more.” She smirked. Just then Lonnie walked in hearing the noise.

“Lonnie, please remove this bitch out of Ashleighs room.” Justin said walking up to my bed.

“Sure thing boss man. Come on Miss Bitch..oops…Spears.” Lonnie smiled as he took her out of the room.

“Hey baby. How you feelin?” Justin asked. I could tell he was tired an that he had been crying. His eyes were puffy and there were dark circles around them.

“I’ve been better. Where is everyone?”

“Cafeteria. They will be here soon. I love you Ashleigh.” He softly kissed my forehead.

“I love you too Justin.”

CHAPTER20

***SIX MONTHES LATER***

“And do you, Ashleigh, take Justin Randall Timberlake, to be your lawfull wedded husband in sickness and in health, for better for worse, till death do you part?”

“I do.” I was gazing into Justins bright blue eyes as we stood at the alter on June 22, 2000. All of your friends and family were there.

“I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss the bride.” Justin pulled my close and kissed me softly, pulled away to look at me, the went back in for another, very passionate kiss.

*RECEPTION*

“Ok everyone! We have an announcement to make.” Justin said in to the microphone. “Last week were were informoed that my beautiful wife is 1 month pregnant.” He beemed happily. He leaned down and kissed my cheek as people cheered and said ‘congratulations’.

“Now we are going to sing a song together. It is called ‘From this moment’ by Shania Twain.” The music started and we sang it. The whole time we held the mic in one hand and eachothers hand in the other. We never took our eyes away from eachother. Soon the song was over. Soon after that the reseption was too. Justin and I were off to the airport to go to Hawaii on our honeymoon. We said good bye and thanks to everyone then JC and Kaylena drove us to the airport. We got into our seats and prepared for the 12 hour flight. We arrived at about 9 am in the morning. A limo took us to a little cottage on the beach where we would be staying. I decided to get my bathing suite on while I still fit into it and we laid out on the beach all day until about 4 pm. Then we went to get dressed for dinner. Justin took me to a nice resturant where we ate our dinner and talked. Then we decided to go for a walk on the beach.

“You know what Ashleigh?”

“What Justy?” He had his arm draped over my shoulder as we walked along the beach back to out cottage.

“I love you.”

“I love you too baby.” This was how my life was going to be from this day on. I would be with Justin. The one person I truly loved. And my baby would be here soon too. I never wanted to be away from Justin again. As my life goes on.