Written by ME!
This is One of the endings to the story with the same beginning. The other one is called One Sweet Day Please go read it. these mean a lot to me!
“J, I gotta go out for a little bit,” Heidi called out to him as she went out the door of the flat that they shared together.
“Where are you…. Going?” J asked too slowly. He knew in his heart where she was going but could not bring himself to believe that she was actually doing this to herself. He sighed, flopping down on the couch behind him where he had been busy cuddling with Heidi only minutes earlier until she felt the craving come around again. She always felt the craving, more constantly now than ever before. It seemed to be taking control over her life, although she never dared to admit it, especially not around her beloved J. That would be showing signs of weakness, something she could never bring herself to do.
“Hey J mate, what’s up with you?” Sean asked coming in the door, he never bothered to knock knowing if he did, J wouldn’t answer anyway.
He sighed deeply, tears starting to well up in his eyes but he would never show them, not to Sean at least. Only Heidi had seen him cry, only once though when he had begged and pleaded with her stop torturing herself. But she never listened, she just went out. She always went out.
“She’s out again. I’m afraid this will be one of the last times too,” J replied almost subconsciously, forcing himself to accept the fate that was being put upon him. He was too young to experience this, any age was too young to face this.
“You need to get her help,” Sean replied sullenly, he knew how much she meant to J. That was why he could never leave her. Aside from her cravings she was a decent person inside. She helped out with under-privileged children at the youth shelter, that was where he had first met her. But that was before the cravings. The cravings took everything away. Everything but her sense of humour, and her physical attractiveness towards him. He knew if she could only stop that she would be the same person he first fell in love with rather than the one he loves but will not be able to keep her much longer.
“She won’t go, you know that,” J responded calmly, almost expecting something to magically happen, an idea to pop into his head that would solve both of their problems.
“You ever tell her how much you love her, how much you don’t want to lose her? She needs confidence,” Sean commented, knowing it still wouldn’t work but that was how things were. She wasn’t going to get better. Better was not an option for her, not an easy one at least.
“I tell her. Every minute, every minute of every day. I tell her. I tell her how beautiful it is and she just goes off. She needs to satisfy those cravings,” J heeded. He used to think she was coming a long way from where she had originally started off but things progressively got worse and worse. Now they were bad, almost incurable. But if anyone could pull through it, he knew Heidi could. She only needed to try but that wasn’t what she wanted. She wanted to continue, continue on her path of destruction.
“J there is a phone call for you. It’s Heidi, well kinda,” Scott announced, holding the cordless in his hand. He didn’t know what was going on. He was clueless, only Sean and himself knew. J’s stomach lurched, fearing the worst of the phone call. Usually they were nothing but this time he felt differently.
“Heidi?” J said unknowingly, hoping the voice at the other end would be her sweet and soothing one.
“Hi J!” she replied happily. She had fulfilled her craving, for now at least. Another one would come along soon and he could almost bet she hadn’t gotten extra.
“Are you coming home?” J asked apprehensively. Hope welled up inside him, continuously growing with each waiting moment of silence between the two of them.
“Not yet I don’t think. Just wanted to let you know that I am okay,” she responded happily, an unusual voice that J had not heard in awhile. It was in a way soothing for him to hear that voice although it was unclear to him as to why.
“Please come home, come home and stay home. You have to stop this!” J blurted out uncontrollably. His emotions had finally taken control of him, he was unable to stop crying as the phone on the other end hung up leaving a constant dial going until Sean finally picked the phone up out of his friends hand and hung up.
“She’s not going to get better,” J mumbled, sliding down to the floor. It was not right for such an out-going person to succumb to this tragic lifestyle. Sean stared at him in silence for a few minutes, finally leaving his friend alone to clear his head. He knew that was what J would want.
“She’s not going to get better,” J mumbled one last time, the crying subsiding a little but still there after the months of holding it in.
“I am better J. I am better,” she replied softly, hugging him. J looked up surprised, thinking the time had come when she finally left him. He stared in shock, thinking about the angel standing before him, the lifelike angel.
“You said you weren’t coming home, why couldn’t you have lied and told me you were! You just had to leave me,” J yelled out, rage towards this angel being vented non-stop. It was his fault he never tried to stop her.
“J! Stop it! It’s me! The real one! I’m not an angel!” she yelled back, the screams being masked by the tears that had fallen down her face.
“It’s really you?” he asked unknowingly. It seemed too real to be true. Miracles only happened to those who needed it most, not some guys whose girlfriend succumbed to cravings everyday.
“Yeah it’s me. I stopped J. You always thought I was going out to fulfill my cravings but I wasn’t. I was at the drug rehab center, because of you. Because I loved you and knew I needed to stop. I know I was hurting you J but I couldn’t help it. Please forgive me J,” Heidi begged sadly. It was the hardest thing she had to do but she had accomplished her goal. Her goal of getting her life on track for J but most importantly for herself. The cravings were gone, the only craving left was to go to the center and continue therapy and rehab.
“I do,” J replied happily, hugging her tightly, more tears coming down his face. But these were tears of happiness, not the tears of sadness that had overtaken him earlier.
“J I love you,” she replied sweetly, kissing him lightly on the cheek. J smiled, the journey was finally over and they were free. Free from the forces of evil surrounding them. The evil that was still lurking nearby but they were stronger than before and they were now able to face it. To face it together.