When You Bite The Hand That Feeds You
Mood:  hug me
I dyed my hair again, WOOT WOOT! Black, again. And i'm not gonna lie. I look damn hott. Okay so yesterday was one of the most randomist days. Devin and Curtis both came over to my house, yeah i know random. Bu not to talk to me, to talk to my sister and her friend. They were bored so they went to my room, and we talked. Curtis wanted to smash with my sister, but nope, thats not gonna happen. My sisters too big of a square. Way to big of a square. She can say she doesnt, but i know she still loves her husband, jail or no jail. Anywho, Devin and Curtis both wanna smash with me, but, i;d pick Devin over Curtis anyday. I mean no offense to Curtis, but me and his "Lady" are friends, so i couldn't do that, plus Devin's way way way hotter. They're both cool though. And besides I love Christopher more than anyone in the world. I wanna get Sean though, i've wanted sean for a while now. I need to get him before we graduate. I think it's possible.

HE FINISHED READING IT!!!!
Mood:  energetic
I LOVE CHRISTOPHER YAMAUCHI SO MUCH!
I gave him my journal i was keeping for him to read, 98% of it was about him, so i thought what the hell, why not? i gave it to him like a month ago and he barley finished it, he barley told me. And it made me so happy, im like the happiest person in the world, i feel so good. this weekends gonna be so fantazic. Im so ready. I hoope me and Chris spend time together this weekend. I gotta go though. Peace Love And Happiness

sometimes i think i can see right through myself
this weekends gonna be so rad. everything is perfect. Friday go to the game, after the game go to Kyle's. Saturday go to the fuzzy show, after the show.... go to Kyle's. haha. And i know its all gonna go good cuz my sister is having her friends over all weekend, so i'll tell my mom that i dont wanna ruin her company by being there, so i know she'll let me "spend the night" at Raquels. Time to get drunk.

gettin more drunk as the weekends go by... more and more
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: Pink Floyd
Got Drunk... Again. Friday and Saturday. I love getting drunk more than anything in the world. I figured if i go to kyles every weekend, i'll be getting drunk every weekend, and i wont be messing with coke, and i'll hardley be smoking. So go me, maybe my body and lungs will go back to normal, haha, yeah right. I Still smoke my cigarettes, so my lungs are never going back to normal. Now i got my liver to mess up.... damn. HAHA. A lot of drama is going on still with Kyle i kinda messed up on friday, i need to talk to him. And Chris finally admitted to me that he liked me, go me! HAHA. Anwho this weekend should be fun.

paRTy tyME
Mood:  vegas lucky
SOOO i wasnt grounded this past weekend. WOOOT WOOOT!!!!! And being grounded for a month was all worth it. Friday Me and Raquel went to Kyles House and got hella drunk! It was FANTAZTIC that was one oe the best nights i have had in a loooong time. And yes, me and Kyle did hook up that night! When i say HOOK UP i mean HOOK UP, all the way. I have been waiting for that day for so long, i did not expect it ever to happen though. The day after it happened i was completly still in shock, i still am when i do think about it. Holy S*** i had sex with Kyle Moore! EEEEEEEEEEEk! And i got wired Saterday, I love it. AH! Lacy's coming down this weekend, we're gonna get soo beyond baked. Can't wait. Oh yeah i love Chris now then ever, he makes me so happy. And im not a little kid when they say they love two people or whatever. I love Chris and the reason i did what i did friday is cuz i know Chris is doing his own thing too. And i finally know now that he does like me a lot, the way he acts towards me now, hes happier to see me. Gosh i love that boi!

I love being me
Mood:  chillin'
I miss being with Billy. I Just wish he'd come back to Seguin already. I so hope hes in town for halloween. I have so much to do for halloween. Ah the bells gonna ring more on this later...

ah!
Mood:  a-ok
so i called Billy twice this last weekend, i miss him. I forgot about how much i liked him. I just wish he'd come back to Seguin, so we can... yeah you know. Anywho i got to go out Saturday, i hate hate hate hate being grounded so so so much. my parents need to calm down, they smoke weed too, whats so wrong with me doing it to. I just hope and mish with all my heart that they never ever find out that i do white, man if they find that out im dead for sure! Dammit i so hope i get to go out this weekend, theres this really big party going down friday, i better not be grounded. Ha! i sound like im actually going to do somethingif i am. Im lame and hungry, and i dont have any money, but what else is new. Schools okay but yeah im slacking off again. And i finally figured out what University im going to after ACC. Northwood University. Its a business school, which is perfect since i want to major in business. Its in Dallas too, which is cool because its still here in Texas. Dammit i want some white.