My Peektures
I just put one pic of me in here but I figured if anyone actually knows this exists, they might like to see it.

Peekture
Enjoy

Why I am pissed today:
Its Sunday, and I had a volleball tournament at EA. Do you really want to know how it went? Or should I save you the pain? It ferking sucked. My God. If it went any worse I think I would have broke down and cried. Ok, so the first match, I missed all of my serves which really pissed me off. So I'm pissed as it is and my ENTIRE family is there. No joke. Brian, Lynn, Lexi, Jane, and my dad were all there. So I was so mad that everyone saw me playing at my worst. So Bastardo Steve goes, "Serve underhand this game." So I'm like fine. So I did and it went better. But I felt bad because I was serving underhand lalalala...! So I'm still pissed, but then we won that game. Then the next game, I served overhand because I thought I could do it and Steve didn't say that I shouldn't/couldn't. And I made one in and he didn't say anything...I missed the next one. Lauren was the libero so I had to rotate out and as I'm coming out Steve goes, "DID I TELL YOU TO SERVE OVERHAND?!?" And I was just like, "I forgot, sorry." WTF!!!!!!! WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO READ YOUR MIND?!!?!?! AND IS IT REALLY NECESSARY TO SCREAM AT ME IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE GYM!?! YOU FERKING LOSER! GOD I HATE STEVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I CANNOT WAIT UNTIL THIS VOLLEYBALL SEASON IS OVER AND I NEXT YEAR I AM

NOT

PLAYING FOR PAZAZZ!!! I WILL FIND ANOTHER CLUB WITH A PERSON WHO ACTUALLY CAN COACH AND I WILL SHOVE THE BALL DOWN THAT BASTARDS THROAT!!! FERK!
"But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love"
~The Lost Prophets - Last Train Home

Just got back from Iowa!!!
HELLOOOOOOOO! I still haven't finished that story about Sorin and I'm not sure why. I mean, thats like the reason I live my life :D The one about Curtis was pretty awsome cuz he actually live in my town. But I really wish I could see Sorin again. God do I miss him.

On Thursday, my dad, Kris, and I went to St. Ambrose, Knox, and Monmouth Colleges to go lookin. We weren't impressed with Knox, but our tour guide was pretty cute!!! :) lol he was sort of a dumbass tho. lol. We like St. Ambrose and Monmouth, but Monmouth had cuter guys. We actually saw a guy standing in a towel after he got out of the shower! LMFAO! Twas so hilarious!!! It was so hard to walk past him without laughing! LoL! But we just got back, so yea!

Last Thursday, I was standing in the hallway waiting for Mrs. E to come get a volleyball so I could do my presentation and David was comin down the stairs and I thought I heard him go "OOOW!" So I was like, 'What did you do now?" And he goes, "Wha?" And it went on like that for a lil while and then he slapped my cheek, just kiddin around like we do. And so I slapped him back and then he grabbed me! I am so pissed at him, but how am I supposed to tell him! I called him a bastard but mrs. penkala was right there so I decided not to go any further with that. :) But I'm so upset with him. :((

I think I'm going to finish my story and then head on out of here. See ya lataz!!
Oh, by the way, I just got my results back for my test for HS. I DID SO GOOD!!! Algebra I honors, English I honors, Physical Science I honors, and a foreign language. I'm not sure what I'm gonna take for my electives yet and i'm so scared I have to decide by TUESDAY!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! Plus, I'm not even gonna take phys. science, I'm gonna end up taking Biology my first year. I wanna take home ec. and art I aaaaaaaaaaaaaand....History World War I and World War II...I gotta decide by tuesday and there's so much I wanna do, how am I gonna do it all in four years?!?!?! At least things are going well with Cullen...!
"Sadie Hawkins Dance..in my khaki pants! There's nothin better! OH OH OH! The girls ask the guys its always a surprise, there's nothin better, baby do you like my sweater?!"
~Relient K - Sadie Hawkins Dance

Holy Bajeebus I haven't written in here in like...forever!!!
Well...A few interestin goin on's have happened that I should say.

First off, I wrote the story about Sorin, but I hafta finish it off. I'll post it soon.

Secondly, last Sunday my family and I were at the resturant. There was this cute guy there and I sorta looked ova at him and he just smiled and said hello. And it turns out, my mom knew his mom cuz they apparantly used to work together. So then as they were talkin he comes over to me and goes, "Hey, so your Kelli?" And I'm like, "yea...!" And he's like, "I'm Curtis." And he shakes my hand. I was like all estatic!!! And then he's like, "So you come here often?" And I'm like, 'Yea here all the time." And he goes, "Kool Kool. So would it be alright if I got your number...so I could like call you sometime...get to know u better?" And I'm like not thinking at all so I go, "Sure!" And I was just thinkin like, 'he's kidding and he won't take my number." So I turn around and my dad and Kris are sitting there laughin their arses off and I turn around and he got a pen and is all ready to write it down. So I'm just like "heh...umm...would it be alright if I took your number so I could like...call you?" And he goes "Sure." And he wrote it down, winks, and walks away. EXCITING!!!!

The only problem is that I'm really don't think I'm all that attractive. I guess maybe...but not really. I get a LOT a LOT of attention from other people...not guys at school...but older guys. Tis kind of weird...and I don't really like it. B/C I wuz at da mall and my friend was like, 'Hey that guy was just lookin at you!!!' or 'Woah! He was lickin his lips while watchin you!'
Kind of creepy. I also feel slutty. :(
"What would people do if they knew I was a Jesus freak? What would people do if they knew that its true? I don't really care if they label me a Jesus freak. There ain't no disguising the truth."
~DC Talk - Jesus Freak

Have a good night Sorin!
Hey hey hey all! I'm baaaaaaaaaack from Wisconsin and I had the best time ever! Wow I have a great story too. And it makes me really sad to tell it. It's about this guy I met while we were there. Well, at first I didn't really notice that he was lookin at me. He was pushin me and muh fam down the slide, nothing spectacular tho. When I realized As we were riding around the lazy river, I realized that he was lookin at me. Every time we went around he would look right into my eyes. He never smiled tho. That kind of made me mad. LoL. Anyway, after the lifeguarding shift changed he was in the lil kids pool so Kris and I went into the hot tub. We were in there for about 10 minutes and we decided to go into the big pool to play some water-basketball. Every now and then he would glance over from the lil kids pool into the big pool. And usually I'd be watching him drooling. Ha. But then the best thing happened! I was so excited. He was going to be watching the pool i was in!!! So I was like bouncin off the walls, right??? I mean, every now and then he would just stop and stare at me. I felt on top of the world. Most of the time I would miss the basket if I shot for it, but once when I made it he looked over at me, smiled, and gave me a thumbs up. I was laughing and I returned both. I was so happy. So then I was trying to be impressive. Every time I would purposly try to push the ball in front of his chair so I could swim on over there. Usually he would blush a little and look away though. I thought that was cute!!! So then the ball bounced out of the pool and I was like, "OMG THIS IS MY CHANCE TO REALLY SHOW OFF!" So I jumped out of the pool and I was going to slooooooowly, but seductivly going to make my way back into the pool. LoL Obviously that didn't work. I missed a stair and went flying into the pool so me and Kris were rolling b/c we were laughing so hard. So after a little more flirting with the eyes of course, it was 10:00 p.m. So I was sort of upset because we had to get out of the pool. I wanted to steal one more glance so I was "having problems putting my socks on." He was talking to one of his friends so I was REALLY HAVING PROBLEMS! :) His friend walks away and he bends over to pick up his stuff and he looks at me and mouths something. It seriously felt like my heart was in my throat. My stomach dropped to the floor. I didn't understand so I mouthed back, "What???" And he said it again. I really did not think he was talking to me so I turned around to check. Kris goes, "Was he talking to you?!?!" And I was like, "I think so!! OMG I HAVE TO FIND OUT WHAT HE SAID!!!!" And Kris goes, "Noooo!" And I was like, "oh please kris! Please!!" And I was begging to the point of tears and she goes, "Fine, but I'm waiting for you by the elevator." And I'm like "Fine whatever." Omg, I really couldn't believe it. I was actually doing something for myself! I was so excited!! So I walked down the hallway thing and I was looking for him. I couldn't see him, so just as I was about to walk away, he came out of the lifeguards locker room. I was about to die! I couldn't think of what to say so I just kind of stood there for a minute. I finally managed to whisper, "What did you say?" And it all happened in slow motion, but then it seemed like it was over before it even started. He wrapped his arm around my waist, pulled me soooo close to him and said, "I said to have a good night."
Honest to God, I have no idea what I said after that. All I remember is walking out to the elevator and yelling, "HE SAID TO HAVE A GOOD NIGHT!!!" Only to have a few people starring at me. Which is quite alright with me, because the feeling I get every time I tell that story is so pricless. You have no idea, and you will never know what I feel when I tell you that. *sigh* So this is love?
"And years have gone by, but I'm still as much in love as I was that night. The sun still shines, the moon still glows, can someone tell me where did my love go? The world still turns, I still believe, he's somewhere out there lookin out for me."
~LFO - I have no idea what the song is called. lol

Wow..!
Kris and I actually did not fight at all today!! We had a very pleasant conversation, and for once, she was acting like the older sister!!! Its great! It wont last for long tho :))

I still haven't finished my report and I really should have it in by monday :(((((((((

I need to call Cullen!! AAAAAaaaAAAH! I dont want to :'(

See ya!
Keep rockin the free world,
Kel
"Chi town put it on the flo Chi town put it on the floor!!!"

My dad finally set up the new computer!!!
YAAAAAAAAY!!! Thats very awsome. Well anyway, alot of interesting things have happened while he was setting it up:

*Kris and me have not cooled off each other a bit. Except this morning we played a game and managed to not get in a fight which was pretty amazing. Yesterday, she was like throwing a fit because I wanted to look nice when we went to get Abbi from the Pet Store...she was like...freaking out and such. So yea...I've also decided that she thinks she is God's gift to men because ever since some guy at church "supposedly" was checking her out, she thinks every guy on the face of the earth is attracted to her. So yea, thats pretty annoying.

*Kolleen and I went bowling; some lil kid kept writing me notes that said stuff like, "I love you so!" "Will you be my girlfriend?" "You are like a godess to me" ...ect ect ect. When we were getting into our car, there were some people going at it in the car next to us. It was veeeeeeeeeery uncomfortable!!!

*When we went to the mall, there was this guy talking on his cell phone and he was checkin me out and playin with his tounge ring. I was pretty red, thats for sure. lol And also i did the same thing to a guy who was actually good looking and he did it back to me!!! I was like...whoa...thats never really happened to me before, at least not to the point where someone did it back to ME! wOoo!!

*Sum 41 website is not working again...blah

*I SAW ANDREA!!!! I haven't seen her in like...forever!!! I miss her so much; Her birthday is on January 3, so I'm going to see if I can find her to send something to her.

Keep rockin the free world,
Kel
"Let the bodies hit the floor, let the bodies hit the floor, let the bodies hit the flooooooor....one nothing wrong with me...two nothing wrong with me....three nothing wrong with me..."
~Drowning Pool, Bodies

Hit in the face with reality
My new poem is going to be titled, "hit in the face with reality"
A lot of interesting things have already happened today and its only 4:45.

I got up around noon and took a shower. Then Uncle Ernie came over and yes that is his real name :-P He brought his geetar and gave it to me...actually im just borrowing it. Same difference. Anyhoo, we were talking about when he went up to Wisconson to see Butch and he wasn't at his bar. He was talking to the bar-tender lady and she said that he got pretty hammered the night before and he would be taking his time to come in that day. And when he finally came in he started drinking again and just kept going.... I have officially lost all respect for my Uncle. And thats it. I don't get it...and thats the reality lesson for today. I dont even want him here for my graduation anymore although it would mean alot to me if he was there...it would mean more to me if he was sober...

A couple years ago, my uncle commited suicide two days before my birthday. I spent my 10th birthday in a funeral home staring at my uncle's lifeless body. I didn't understand...now I do. He suffered from alchoholism and he killed himself because he couldn't take it anymore. I just don't want that to happen to Butch...or bonnie or tom...I want to stop it, but its too late.
And i have no respect or tolerence left for my family.

Keep rockin the free world,
Kel
"Its hard to say what it is I see in you wonder if I'll always be with you...words can't say, and I can't do enough to prove, its all for you"
~Its all for you, Sister Hazel

Merry Christmas to me..!
Butch came home for Christmas and he might come home for my graduation *dances*




WAAAAAAAAAAAAAHOOOOOOOOOOO! That's right all!!! And I'm soooo excited to graduate anyway. After I post this, I'm going to go count how many days. Well let me tell you about my most wonderful Christmas:
Dec 24 - Went to Grandpa's house...Butch was actually there!! :-O Amazing am I right?!?! Bonnie and Tom were there aswell. Well yea, we all know how that goes. Aunt Rose was there too...and she asked a veeeeery personal question to Kris...I was offended myself, and I felt reeeeeeally bad for her!! lol!!! I got a gift card to Wet Seal for $40, earings, and lotsssssssa mula. Not bad, eh?!
Dec 24/25 - Went to midnight mass. Brian came over afterwards!!! Omg it was fuuuuun. But I had a terrible headache - which has been happening - But Brian kept talkering so that could have been part of the problem. LoLz...jk jk. He left around 2:30 am. So that was coolz.
Dec 25 - Kris and me got up around 9:00 am. We waited for mom and pops to get up. They were awake by 10:00 and we tore through our stockings. I got neeeeeew make-up and i look reeeeeeal cute!!! lol..! I also got new jeans and a cute hoodie that actually FITS plus, I have money to go shopping so I can start dressing half-way decent, seeing as though I don't right now and it bothers me alot alot. :P I got Now 14 which was awsome, lotsssssa duckie stuff, cause of course I asked for it! :) And that was pretty much it. And we got a fooseball/airhockey table! w00tZ!! fun stuff...But, the ultimate Christmas present was having Butch here to celebrate the holiday. It meant a lot. He took down the dates for Kris and my graduation!!! I think he might come back and I would be soooooo excited and I would freak out!!! It would mean alot aswell. Hopefully he knows...
I also got the A.F.I. cd and $25 more to Wet Seal. :))
I was out to dinner with my family and reality hit me in the head like a baseball bat. I know Butch owns a bar, and I accept that. I realize that he may have a g/f which I also try to accept and I realize that a business is difficult to run and you can just pick up and leave town without a lot of arrangements. (ha I spelled that wrong!!!) But, I didn't realize that Butch goes bar-hopping...I mean, its not like he's 21 anymore!! he's like...55!!! Literally, I kid you not friend. I try to accept that but I just can't. I've been thinking about it alot; I just cannot see that happening, and I always trusted him like no other even though i barley know him. Now I don't and I don't know why. I think he respects me...like he doesn't smoke when we're around and he doesnt drink. But...I talked to mom and she said even if he knew we were coming yesterday, he might have been drinking anyway. So what does that mean? Maybe I over-estimated him. If there is such a thing, I think I'm totally guilty of it.
Keep rockin the free world,
Kel

"Now I will tell you what I've done for you...50 thousand tears I've cried..."
~Going Under, Evanescence

Christmas Eve
Well well well...its Christmas Eve which should be pretty obvious as you look at the title and the date for that matter!! I was up until 2:00 a.m. last night baking cookies after I got home from my cheerleading party. They look really cute, but i'm hella tired.

I got in another fight with her...but I don't wanna talk about that...

To whoever is reading this: Get off your arse, turn off the computer and go do something...It's Christmas, you should be hugging someone or enjoying the day with your family. I'm going to go do it, and we all know how hard it is for me!! :P

Good luck with the in-laws!! lmao!!
Keep rockin the free World,
Kel

"Feliz Navidad"