Have a good night Sorin!
Hey hey hey all! I'm baaaaaaaaaack from Wisconsin and I had the best time ever! Wow I have a great story too. And it makes me really sad to tell it. It's about this guy I met while we were there. Well, at first I didn't really notice that he was lookin at me. He was pushin me and muh fam down the slide, nothing spectacular tho. When I realized As we were riding around the lazy river, I realized that he was lookin at me. Every time we went around he would look right into my eyes. He never smiled tho. That kind of made me mad. LoL. Anyway, after the lifeguarding shift changed he was in the lil kids pool so Kris and I went into the hot tub. We were in there for about 10 minutes and we decided to go into the big pool to play some water-basketball. Every now and then he would glance over from the lil kids pool into the big pool. And usually I'd be watching him drooling. Ha. But then the best thing happened! I was so excited. He was going to be watching the pool i was in!!! So I was like bouncin off the walls, right??? I mean, every now and then he would just stop and stare at me. I felt on top of the world. Most of the time I would miss the basket if I shot for it, but once when I made it he looked over at me, smiled, and gave me a thumbs up. I was laughing and I returned both. I was so happy. So then I was trying to be impressive. Every time I would purposly try to push the ball in front of his chair so I could swim on over there. Usually he would blush a little and look away though. I thought that was cute!!! So then the ball bounced out of the pool and I was like, "OMG THIS IS MY CHANCE TO REALLY SHOW OFF!" So I jumped out of the pool and I was going to slooooooowly, but seductivly going to make my way back into the pool. LoL Obviously that didn't work. I missed a stair and went flying into the pool so me and Kris were rolling b/c we were laughing so hard. So after a little more flirting with the eyes of course, it was 10:00 p.m. So I was sort of upset because we had to get out of the pool. I wanted to steal one more glance so I was "having problems putting my socks on." He was talking to one of his friends so I was REALLY HAVING PROBLEMS! :) His friend walks away and he bends over to pick up his stuff and he looks at me and mouths something. It seriously felt like my heart was in my throat. My stomach dropped to the floor. I didn't understand so I mouthed back, "What???" And he said it again. I really did not think he was talking to me so I turned around to check. Kris goes, "Was he talking to you?!?!" And I was like, "I think so!! OMG I HAVE TO FIND OUT WHAT HE SAID!!!!" And Kris goes, "Noooo!" And I was like, "oh please kris! Please!!" And I was begging to the point of tears and she goes, "Fine, but I'm waiting for you by the elevator." And I'm like "Fine whatever." Omg, I really couldn't believe it. I was actually doing something for myself! I was so excited!! So I walked down the hallway thing and I was looking for him. I couldn't see him, so just as I was about to walk away, he came out of the lifeguards locker room. I was about to die! I couldn't think of what to say so I just kind of stood there for a minute. I finally managed to whisper, "What did you say?" And it all happened in slow motion, but then it seemed like it was over before it even started. He wrapped his arm around my waist, pulled me soooo close to him and said, "I said to have a good night."
Honest to God, I have no idea what I said after that. All I remember is walking out to the elevator and yelling, "HE SAID TO HAVE A GOOD NIGHT!!!" Only to have a few people starring at me. Which is quite alright with me, because the feeling I get every time I tell that story is so pricless. You have no idea, and you will never know what I feel when I tell you that. *sigh* So this is love?
"And years have gone by, but I'm still as much in love as I was that night. The sun still shines, the moon still glows, can someone tell me where did my love go? The world still turns, I still believe, he's somewhere out there lookin out for me."
~LFO - I have no idea what the song is called. lol

Wow..!
Kris and I actually did not fight at all today!! We had a very pleasant conversation, and for once, she was acting like the older sister!!! Its great! It wont last for long tho :))

I still haven't finished my report and I really should have it in by monday :(((((((((

I need to call Cullen!! AAAAAaaaAAAH! I dont want to :'(

See ya!
Keep rockin the free world,
Kel
"Chi town put it on the flo Chi town put it on the floor!!!"

My dad finally set up the new computer!!!
YAAAAAAAAY!!! Thats very awsome. Well anyway, alot of interesting things have happened while he was setting it up:

*Kris and me have not cooled off each other a bit. Except this morning we played a game and managed to not get in a fight which was pretty amazing. Yesterday, she was like throwing a fit because I wanted to look nice when we went to get Abbi from the Pet Store...she was like...freaking out and such. So yea...I've also decided that she thinks she is God's gift to men because ever since some guy at church "supposedly" was checking her out, she thinks every guy on the face of the earth is attracted to her. So yea, thats pretty annoying.

*Kolleen and I went bowling; some lil kid kept writing me notes that said stuff like, "I love you so!" "Will you be my girlfriend?" "You are like a godess to me" ...ect ect ect. When we were getting into our car, there were some people going at it in the car next to us. It was veeeeeeeeeery uncomfortable!!!

*When we went to the mall, there was this guy talking on his cell phone and he was checkin me out and playin with his tounge ring. I was pretty red, thats for sure. lol And also i did the same thing to a guy who was actually good looking and he did it back to me!!! I was like...whoa...thats never really happened to me before, at least not to the point where someone did it back to ME! wOoo!!

*Sum 41 website is not working again...blah

*I SAW ANDREA!!!! I haven't seen her in like...forever!!! I miss her so much; Her birthday is on January 3, so I'm going to see if I can find her to send something to her.

Keep rockin the free world,
Kel
"Let the bodies hit the floor, let the bodies hit the floor, let the bodies hit the flooooooor....one nothing wrong with me...two nothing wrong with me....three nothing wrong with me..."
~Drowning Pool, Bodies

Hit in the face with reality
My new poem is going to be titled, "hit in the face with reality"
A lot of interesting things have already happened today and its only 4:45.

I got up around noon and took a shower. Then Uncle Ernie came over and yes that is his real name :-P He brought his geetar and gave it to me...actually im just borrowing it. Same difference. Anyhoo, we were talking about when he went up to Wisconson to see Butch and he wasn't at his bar. He was talking to the bar-tender lady and she said that he got pretty hammered the night before and he would be taking his time to come in that day. And when he finally came in he started drinking again and just kept going.... I have officially lost all respect for my Uncle. And thats it. I don't get it...and thats the reality lesson for today. I dont even want him here for my graduation anymore although it would mean alot to me if he was there...it would mean more to me if he was sober...

A couple years ago, my uncle commited suicide two days before my birthday. I spent my 10th birthday in a funeral home staring at my uncle's lifeless body. I didn't understand...now I do. He suffered from alchoholism and he killed himself because he couldn't take it anymore. I just don't want that to happen to Butch...or bonnie or tom...I want to stop it, but its too late.
And i have no respect or tolerence left for my family.

Keep rockin the free world,
Kel
"Its hard to say what it is I see in you wonder if I'll always be with you...words can't say, and I can't do enough to prove, its all for you"
~Its all for you, Sister Hazel

Merry Christmas to me..!
Butch came home for Christmas and he might come home for my graduation *dances*




WAAAAAAAAAAAAAHOOOOOOOOOOO! That's right all!!! And I'm soooo excited to graduate anyway. After I post this, I'm going to go count how many days. Well let me tell you about my most wonderful Christmas:
Dec 24 - Went to Grandpa's house...Butch was actually there!! :-O Amazing am I right?!?! Bonnie and Tom were there aswell. Well yea, we all know how that goes. Aunt Rose was there too...and she asked a veeeeery personal question to Kris...I was offended myself, and I felt reeeeeeally bad for her!! lol!!! I got a gift card to Wet Seal for $40, earings, and lotsssssssa mula. Not bad, eh?!
Dec 24/25 - Went to midnight mass. Brian came over afterwards!!! Omg it was fuuuuun. But I had a terrible headache - which has been happening - But Brian kept talkering so that could have been part of the problem. LoLz...jk jk. He left around 2:30 am. So that was coolz.
Dec 25 - Kris and me got up around 9:00 am. We waited for mom and pops to get up. They were awake by 10:00 and we tore through our stockings. I got neeeeeew make-up and i look reeeeeeal cute!!! lol..! I also got new jeans and a cute hoodie that actually FITS plus, I have money to go shopping so I can start dressing half-way decent, seeing as though I don't right now and it bothers me alot alot. :P I got Now 14 which was awsome, lotsssssa duckie stuff, cause of course I asked for it! :) And that was pretty much it. And we got a fooseball/airhockey table! w00tZ!! fun stuff...But, the ultimate Christmas present was having Butch here to celebrate the holiday. It meant a lot. He took down the dates for Kris and my graduation!!! I think he might come back and I would be soooooo excited and I would freak out!!! It would mean alot aswell. Hopefully he knows...
I also got the A.F.I. cd and $25 more to Wet Seal. :))
I was out to dinner with my family and reality hit me in the head like a baseball bat. I know Butch owns a bar, and I accept that. I realize that he may have a g/f which I also try to accept and I realize that a business is difficult to run and you can just pick up and leave town without a lot of arrangements. (ha I spelled that wrong!!!) But, I didn't realize that Butch goes bar-hopping...I mean, its not like he's 21 anymore!! he's like...55!!! Literally, I kid you not friend. I try to accept that but I just can't. I've been thinking about it alot; I just cannot see that happening, and I always trusted him like no other even though i barley know him. Now I don't and I don't know why. I think he respects me...like he doesn't smoke when we're around and he doesnt drink. But...I talked to mom and she said even if he knew we were coming yesterday, he might have been drinking anyway. So what does that mean? Maybe I over-estimated him. If there is such a thing, I think I'm totally guilty of it.
Keep rockin the free world,
Kel

"Now I will tell you what I've done for you...50 thousand tears I've cried..."
~Going Under, Evanescence

Christmas Eve
Well well well...its Christmas Eve which should be pretty obvious as you look at the title and the date for that matter!! I was up until 2:00 a.m. last night baking cookies after I got home from my cheerleading party. They look really cute, but i'm hella tired.

I got in another fight with her...but I don't wanna talk about that...

To whoever is reading this: Get off your arse, turn off the computer and go do something...It's Christmas, you should be hugging someone or enjoying the day with your family. I'm going to go do it, and we all know how hard it is for me!! :P

Good luck with the in-laws!! lmao!!
Keep rockin the free World,
Kel

"Feliz Navidad"

Yea I know its the second time I've blogged today...!
Well at least the second half of my day went better than the first. I'm a little bit cooled down, but not much. Better than before. I don't even want to talk to her because I feel I could go off on her. As I was telling my mom the story, I realized that I was as wrong as she was. I could have just gone back in. But I'm sick of getting pushed around!! That's all that ever happens to me, and I'm putting a stop to it. It's like..."ooh its kelli, we can say anything and she wont do s*@#! to us!!" Well you know what? Thats over, so you can kiss that goodbye.

Kayla sometimes does that to me. I just laugh and pretend like it doesn't bother me...it does. And Allegra joins in. Kolleen can tell when its pissing me off and she'll come over and defend me or give me a hug or something...even when I was being bitchy to her all night. I love her...I can count on her and I'm so happy for that. I'm lucky in that aspect. But yea, back to Kayla. She goes, "yea when u and david broke up u came up to me and said, 'how are you and rhyno?' and i said, 'fine' and you said, 'that suprises me.' and u turned and walked away." I was like...yea that sounds like me!! Whatever!!! And Allegra's like, "Yea I think i remember you did do that!!" And I was like, "umm...I don't..." I WAS upset when me and david broke up, but I would never ever say anything like that. Really, I wouldn't. Especially when I'm upset. I'll write down what I feel, but u'll never know if ur talking to me. Unless ur Kolleen. GOD!!! And its like she can't let it go!! Every single friggen time we're talkin about our past she goes on about how i did that to her. And I'm like...I have soooo much on you..! So u best shut up. I didn't say that tho. I should. I'm sick of this!! What should I do when her and Allegra gang up on me as always? I feel like lining them up for a b!@#* slap. Maybe I'll do that too.

Thats pretty much what happened all night at the cheerleading party. And then we went caroling...and we exchanged gifts. I got a lava lamp!! w00p! So yea that very kool. I dunno when I'll write again...maybe another time tonight if i get worked up again. Bbyeeee
Keep rockin the free world,
Kel

I feel like I have just entered hell...and came back out with all the scars to prove it
Thank God she's gone for at least an hour. Thank God, that's all I can say. I don't think I've ever been so pissed at a family member like I am right now. I wasn't even this pissed at Abbi (my doggie) when she ate all my gum and then barfed it up all night long and refused to let me have a minute of peace and quiet. Hell no.

The Story:
She sent me in the store to get sour cream and onion, cuz she didn't wanna go, and of course she's the best so whatever she wants, she gets. So I went in, cuz im the younger sister and blah blah blah...! I did exactly like she asked and I came back out and gave it to her. And she goes, "is that the biggest one they have?" And I'm like, "yea" And she's like, "Go get another one." And I'm like, 'No!" And shes like, "Just go! Its sour cream and onion, god!!" And I'm like, "no i'll look like an idiot, u go in!!" And she's like, "it's not that big of a deal!" And I'm like, "then u do it if it's not that big of a deal!" And so I handed her the money and she said, "Fine! I'm not moving this car until u go in!" And so I said, "Thats fine with me, we can sit here all day long for all i care!!" And she's holding the money and she said, "JUST GO!!!" And I kept saying no and finally she yells, "WHAT THE HELL!" And she throws the money in my face. And so I was red hott and soooooo pissed my god, I could just...! And she keeps yelling, "what the hell!" And I'm like, "shut up!" And so we drive home in silence and she keeps going, "i don't see what the big deal was." And I'm all quiet. God, I don't want to see her face anymore...at least not until i cool down.
Right now I don't care about anything else. And some real cool stuff went down yesterday, but i really can't tell you now.
Keep rockin the free world,
Kel

On Christmas Vacation...and lovin every minute of it!!!!!
Today is the first official day of Christmas Break! 16 GLORIOUS days of no teachers, Algebra book, history class, Cullen and most importantly...Alex and David!!!

So yea...tutoring has been going well so far. I think he got really frusterated with me the first day...lol. He kept burping too!! :-/ I was like...yea... Anyway, things he has taught me that I will NOT forget: .6 repeating is ALWAYS 2/3...12*7=84, math was made by lazy people, my algebra book sucks, and if u want a ball to roll down the table and accelerate the fastest, u want it at a 90 degree angle=common sense. And this is what we're paying him for!! *hits self in head* So yea... he has a pretty good sense of humor. Ooh, and one thing I've also learned is that u don't have to do multiplication in ur head...u CAN write it down!! And calculators are ur besssssst friend!! I actually understand direct variation (y=kx) and i'm getting better at simple interest...but i'm still a lil hazy on percents. Well it all comes with practice, eh?

Yesterday was my mummy's birfday. We celebrating tonight. I got her a foot massager thingy and I also got her the movie "Misery" by Stephen King. It was actually on sale at Music FYE and I wanted it so i got it for her!! See thats the trick..get something that YOU would enjoy so YOU can use it!! im so smart...so why don't i understand math?!

Umm...school has been going well. We got in trouble the other day for playing bloody mary in the bathroom!! Ha!! Ooh well...and Gina (legra's sis) came back from FL today. So that was exciting. And we all ran down the hall yelling "HIIII GINAAAAAAAA!!!" and she was like...ooookay...but that waas fun.

Plz pray for our soldiers fighting in Iraq.
Keep rockin the free world,
Kel

P.S. If u like rap and are lookin for a good old song, listen to "Hey Sexy Lady" by Shaggy...and if u like R&B and are lookin for an oldie but goodie i reccomend anything by Avant!! Peace

No, YOU put a title here
Hello!! Today has been good so far. Kind of...ya know. Well I went to the doctors and I actually think I wanna be a pediatrician. Or..um..I think I spelled that wrong :P Anyway, I would love to work with kiddies and such. So we shall see what happens.

Now I'm going over to Allegra's house becuase Kayla got the flu and we need a person to do the solo w/ Legs. So thats me. Which sucks. Because I have no clue how to dance!! Dance well I mean. Kayla is reeeeeally good and im...not! And well, ya. My mom thinks its "funny." pssh!

Keep rockin the free world,
Kel