Makin Good Love
OMG!!!!!!!!! YOU WILL NEVER GUESS WHAT HAPPENED!!!
Ok so last night, I'm talking to *him* right? And we're all talking about our past and I'm like, "Well do u think we're gonna talk anytime soon after this or is it gonna be another month???" And he goes, "no deff. tomorrow..." And so I was like jumping up and down with excitment!!! Then we're still talking about why I called it off and our feelings and stuff...(it was so awesome...I actually talked to him about my FEELINGS!!!)...and we both seemed pretty happy and I asked him if he wanted to be with me again...and he said YES!!!!!! And so after that I felt like maybe we moved things a little too fast and then I felt bad but it was a lot alot more comfortable talking about our past and stuff. And then he hugged me really tight and kissed me soo slowly and told me that it was nice havin me back. *swoooon...faint....* And I'm trying not to over-analyze everything because I have a tendency to do that ..... so I'm trying hard, baby, plz forgive me. I love him - I have found the man that I am going to marry, and the best part is that he loves me right back! And he likes me for ME, not for other reasons previously stated. :D It can only go downhill from here tho....Shopdoinkle!!!

Lataz!
Love Always,
Kelli
"I would swallow my pride
I would choke on the rhines
But the lack thereof would leave me empty inside
I would swallow my doubt turn it inside out find nothing but faith in nothing
Want to put my tender heart in a blender
Watch it spin around to a beautiful oblivion
Rendezvous then I'm through with you!"
Eve 6 - Inside Out
Good timez

Miracle Whip and Processed Oatmeal...???
That was the topic at lunch today with Austin, Puff, Xavi, Kolleen, and me. It was so funny. That one girl could rattle off everything in an oatmeal cookie and stuff in a salad dressing. In the words of Austin, "I have never met a bigger geek." Obviously, he has not met her friend. I wish she would bend over so I could show her where golfers really shove their clubs...she pisses me off.

Oh, lol I am taking golf this week. Dammit! You people have no idea how many GOOD dating opportunities there are at a golf course. Some of those young gentlemen are [rated R sentance goes here]. One of the instructors, Omillio, did like me a lil bit, but when he found out my age he was like, "OUT!" And I feel bad because I was bitching about something today and I think the person I was bitching about heard. I'm such an asshat sometimes. I really need to control my mouth!!!! I feel awful...

Anyway, I gotta go. I'm gonna take a nap cuz I'm really sleepy... ^_^
I wish I could re-do today...

OMG! ALWX IS BACK!!!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAY!

Take it easy.
Always,
KElli

Two quick jokes for the legally insane...
Ok these are both pretty corny but here u go anyway:

(This one is a tad bit offensive to Chinese ppl, so sorry in advance!!)
How do Chinese people name their kids?
By throwing a fork down the well.

You don't get it? I didn't think you would. I will explain.
What kind of sound does a fork make when its going down the well?? Ping! Pong! Ching! Chong!

Reminds me of Dumb and Dumerer: Ching Chongity!! LMAO! WooT WooT! Wow, I have a terrible sense of humor!

Ok joke two:
What do you call an upside down blonde?
A brunette with bad breath.

LoL too funny.

Well I guess I don't have much else to say. I'm pretty boring today. Softball game tonight. I hope Kristin is ok, she's been gone to SVDP for a long time and they never are in good area's...I guess I only need to be worried if she's not back for the game!!!

Lata Calculataz!!
~*~*~Kelli~*~*~
"No one knows what its like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind Blue Eyes
And no one knows what its like
To be hated
To be faded
To only telling lies."
~Behind Blue Eyes, Limp Bizkit

What an emotional day!!!
First off, I feel it is my duty as an American citizen and as an Illinoian to pay my respects to one of the most wonderful presidents this country has ever had, President Ronald Reagan. Rest in Peace, President Reagan, you will NEVER be forgotten.

Hmm, I feel a bit better now. That was pretty touching, don't you think???

Well onto the next thing...Last night, I was correct and unfortunatly mom and I had to go to the store. I was hit on like 3 times. I know, I know, it's what I said I wanted, but it feels so dirty. Part of me is like, "YES YES YES!! I STILL GOT IT!!!" And the other part is like, "yea...now what do we do???" I'll never see any of those guys again and same thing, they are all playa's and only liked me cuz I looked somewhat good. I don't suppose any of them cared if I had a good sense of humor, but all they really wanted was for me to get in their pants. Dammit. How can I be so naive and so mature at the same time?? Which brings me to my next point...How exactly DID I grow up so fast? It's like at one point I was 9 years old and so innocent and I turned around and I was grown up and mature to the point where I could deal with shit no one else could. Maybe it was when Paul committed suicide. Everyone kind of grew up after that....maybe it was when my body grew up faster than I was ready for, but not like I could stop it so I just decided I had to grow up with it. Maybe it was just hanging out with people that were older than me all the time, or listening to B96 when I was only about 10 years old. I was thinking about this a lot today which pissed me off a lot and then I thought about Alex and Bobby and Alex V. and my family, and some other things that piss me off which completly distracted me from the softball game tonight.
ANOTHER POINT! Is it just me or does Mike try to make me happy?? I mean ok that sounded gay, but seriously, its like he...I DON"T KNOW! Just something about how bubbly he is makes me mad, because I am so shy and reserved and I choose not to show a certain side of myself...just makes me mad, ya know?? I'm sure u don't.

Ok my rants are done now. I'm thinking about losing about 11 lbs., maybe I'll be in a better mood after that. Hmph!!!

Lata calculata!
Love always,
Kelli

"I want to be the minority
I don't need your authority
Down with the moral majority
'Cause I want to be the minority"
Green Day ~ Minority

Take me down to the paradise city where the grass is green and the girls are pretty...!
I'm so boreeeeeeed and its so freakin hotttttt!! Its like 95 degrees today and I'm tired but am so worried about stuff...

Some things that are constantly on my mind are: weight, skin, guys, future, and teeth. I hate my apperance so bad. The truth is that all I really want is to be wanted. The men that look at me when I'm walking down the street...well, I've classified them all as playa's and they mean nothing to me. Every guy that has hit on me, well they probably do it to every girl that is in their sight. I want to be able to crawl into my man's arms and tell him everything thats on my mind and have him genuinly care about ME...my mind, soul, and heart...and not just my looks. <~that is, if I have any. I mean, I would tell my friends my problems, but after graduation I feel so disconnected from them and almost as if our friendship never was. Almost to the point where I feel like I never went to grade school with any of them. And I tried telling Isabel but she just doesn't understand. I also think that sometimes I can be so naive its just insane how naive I am sometimes. It also pisses me off that Alex isn't around to hold me. He left without any indication and I have a feeling that I may never see him again, no matter how bad I want him. Well, I guess I should be going. MoM and I are going shopping for kleets tonight - maybe someone will deny my suspicions and want me.

I promised u an updated picture of me so here it is: http://www.geocities.com/just_duckie3/kel.bmp
^^^you gotta hover over it for a little while and then when the little pic with arrows comes up, click on it and it will get bigger so u can see it better.

First Official Day of Summer Vacation...
Well its the first official day...its boring. Everyone else is in school and how bad I wanna be there instead of here :(( Oh well, they get out in like 5 minutes. Isabel and I have actually become very close which is weird because I didn't think I could become such close friends with her.

The Day After Tomorrow was really good. Kody, me, Erika, Kayla, and Rios were there. It was fun, and I think I still have a slight crush on Rios but I'll never know now...

So anyway, I think I'm going to go be bored somewhere else. I'm going to make the most of this summer tho. I'm going to babysitting on Monday's all day and I'm going to volunteer at McAuley Manor...if I ever decide to call them. I'm so scared I guess. But I dunno. Ihave some plans.

Kris and my graduation party is this Sunday, and like everyone is going to be there. It's going to be the BIGGEST blowout I've ever seen

I like our new seminarian. He reminds me of me because he's so quiet and reserved but soo nervous at the same time. I think I will get along with him really well and I can't wait to get to know him better

Gotta go
~Kel~

As we go on, we remember, all the times we've, had together, and as our lives change, come whatever, we will still be, FRIENDS F
Well its over. I've officially graduated and as I type this, I hold my diploma in my lap which proudly says, "Kelli Chrisine S......" I cried so hard. I was embarassed as I could get. I mean, I was crying in front of my whole family. Seriously, I'm freakin graduated..this is so weird. I feel so empty. Knowing that I no longer belong to OLGC and the people that once were my friends are no longer my best friends. The fact that it took us how long to all realize that we could in fact tolerate each other...that really pisses me off. Now I miss everyone, even Kody's dumb ass. I miss Robert winking at me and writing all over my shoes...I miss Rios taking all my paper...I miss Erika and Felipe fighting like siblings in the back of History...I miss the empty desk next to me in History...I miss Billy retardedness...I miss Kayla and how attatched we became...I miss Allegra and how paranoid she was...I miss Courtney and how smart she was...I miss Abbey and how funny she was...I miss Kolleen making every teachers lives a living hell...I miss my gay-ass school and all I want is to go back there and be able to complain that I'm never gonna get out of there and how poor we are...and how we went to school in the ghetto. We never did tell Alex about the whole bee thing. LoL. I know, the bee is on me right? Awww...So, now on to describing graduation...

Get there about 6:20, graduation is at 7. My mom and Mrs. Beyrel helped the girls get their collars on and the girls showed each other their dresses and shoes and stuff and marvelled at each other's nails. Then we took a ton a ton a ton of pictures of every step we made and Erika complained about the fact that she had like 30 inch heels on and she couldn't walk. Then the boys showed up in a limo. LoL they were sooo late. They got there about 6:50 and Mrs. Beyrel was about ready to kill each one of them. And then she was trying to get us in line but people wanted to take pictures of everyone together for the last time in their gowns. So we did that instead of listening so mrs. Beryel was like having a coniption. Then we all got in line, wished each other luck and walked up the aisle. Erika started crying right away...mostly cuz of her feet :-P Me and Jessica didn't even think about our feet anymore. We were pretty much blinded by all the cameras and then mass went as usual. Fr.'s homily was really good and I hope I remember every piece of advice. And then I read my intention, "For all those who are sick, especially those close to us." and then everything went well. Allegra's speech went really good in spite of everything that happened just to get someone to read the damn speech. And then they read off the awards. I got called a lot of times, I was pretty happy. And Fr Russell is all lookin at me and I'm like, "What is his problem??" and then they had one award left and it was the Jason Forrestal Scholarship and I'm like, "Well screw that, its not gonna be me." Guess what?!?! IT WAS!!!! I got $1,000 for a freakin scholarship!! And I also got $500 for the alumni award!!! AH!!! WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I was so excited! My family was so proud!!! So in total, I got $1,500 in scholarship money, so I'm very proud that I got to help my parents pay for my tuition. Then they gave us our diploma's....I was so proud. I mean, it has MY name on it. MINE! I have a diploma....wow..that is so scary. Then we were announced as the Class of 2004 and we got clapped for for a loooooong time and we walked out of church. Then everything went to hell and all the girls cried...even some of the guys. Kody, Alex, and I think Ryhno were crying and Rios had tears in his eyes. Kody was pretty much full-fleged crying which made me sooo sad because all the memories I have with him. And Rios...when we got out to go to Communion he looked back at me and smiled. I was about ready to take everyone's diploma and throw them in the fire because thats how bad I do not want to leave. Maybe I'll still do that :-P Seriously tho, I don't want to go to high school...I wanna stay in eighth grade forever and keep everyone with me and we'll all be best friends for the rest of our lives...but there is no way in hell that will ever happen.
So now I'm all depressed and we're going to the movies tonight. I think its Kayla, me, Erika, Kody, and Felipe. Aww good times :(( We're going to see The Day After Tomorrow. So that should be good. I'll let u know how everything goes. I'm sure a ton of people are gonna show up that aren't supposed to be there but ooh well..I don't know about it :D

Graduation Day...!
Well everyone...today is the big day. Its my big day. IM GRADUATING!!! I did it! And I cannot wait. It was very emotional though. I mean, I have been with the same 27 people for the past 10 years of my life. They know more about me than I know about myself. For the longest time, we have been together. And it so cruel to pull us apart. But still, moving on to highschool is so amazing, I can't believe its finally here. I got my nails done and Kristin is going to do my hair. Mrs. Beyrel bought us these cute photo albums and I already got my pics from House on the Rock in there and so now I gotta get the ones from today developed.

You know, the weirdest thought in the world is knowing that I do not belong to Our Lady of Good Counsel anymore. Can you even believe it? I can't. I mean, I do not go to school there anymore. My grade school years are in the past...how freaky. I dunno, its mind boggling. I thought I would be stuck an eighth grader for the rest of my life, but I'm actually graduating. And next year, I AM going to highschool. This is so crazy. I hope I recieve an award tonight...I think I got the Algebra one but I dunno if any "character" ones. I will not let that bother me tho because the truth is that even if I didnt do anything overly "BLAH" I still had a fun time throwing stuff into the bucket and throwing food at the young lads (Peter Pan *sniffles* I miss you) and talking to the janitor.

Say hello to a member of the Graduating Class of Our Lady of Good Counsel of the year....2004
IM SO EXCITED!!
Wish me luck tonight.
Friend for life whether you want me or not
Kelli

Pics...!
I am a lucky lucky lucky girl:


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Alex

Alwx
Whats a girl to do? He's not responding at all, and I think its cuz of his dad, ya know? But I dunno. Gut feelings if ya catch my drift.

Sports Fest was fun fun fun, but I'm so tired and anxious that I don't really wanna write about it right now.

I still need to finish my analysis :-P

What else? I think thats about it for now. I'll update everything later.

Graduation on Friday :((
Lol oh yea, my bands faded so they look pink now not orange :-/
One thing tho, I have battle scars from the tug-a-war in the East high gym. Lmao. My kneeee..ooooowwie!
Okay, well lataz then.

"Catalyst, you insist to pull me down.
You contraditct the fact that you still want me around.
And its all downhill from here.
And its all downhill from here."
~New Found Glory, All Downhill From Here

leK