Take me down to the paradise city where the grass is green and the girls are pretty...!
I'm so boreeeeeeed and its so freakin hotttttt!! Its like 95 degrees today and I'm tired but am so worried about stuff...

Some things that are constantly on my mind are: weight, skin, guys, future, and teeth. I hate my apperance so bad. The truth is that all I really want is to be wanted. The men that look at me when I'm walking down the street...well, I've classified them all as playa's and they mean nothing to me. Every guy that has hit on me, well they probably do it to every girl that is in their sight. I want to be able to crawl into my man's arms and tell him everything thats on my mind and have him genuinly care about ME...my mind, soul, and heart...and not just my looks. <~that is, if I have any. I mean, I would tell my friends my problems, but after graduation I feel so disconnected from them and almost as if our friendship never was. Almost to the point where I feel like I never went to grade school with any of them. And I tried telling Isabel but she just doesn't understand. I also think that sometimes I can be so naive its just insane how naive I am sometimes. It also pisses me off that Alex isn't around to hold me. He left without any indication and I have a feeling that I may never see him again, no matter how bad I want him. Well, I guess I should be going. MoM and I are going shopping for kleets tonight - maybe someone will deny my suspicions and want me.

I promised u an updated picture of me so here it is: http://www.geocities.com/just_duckie3/kel.bmp
^^^you gotta hover over it for a little while and then when the little pic with arrows comes up, click on it and it will get bigger so u can see it better.

First Official Day of Summer Vacation...
Well its the first official day...its boring. Everyone else is in school and how bad I wanna be there instead of here :(( Oh well, they get out in like 5 minutes. Isabel and I have actually become very close which is weird because I didn't think I could become such close friends with her.

The Day After Tomorrow was really good. Kody, me, Erika, Kayla, and Rios were there. It was fun, and I think I still have a slight crush on Rios but I'll never know now...

So anyway, I think I'm going to go be bored somewhere else. I'm going to make the most of this summer tho. I'm going to babysitting on Monday's all day and I'm going to volunteer at McAuley Manor...if I ever decide to call them. I'm so scared I guess. But I dunno. Ihave some plans.

Kris and my graduation party is this Sunday, and like everyone is going to be there. It's going to be the BIGGEST blowout I've ever seen

I like our new seminarian. He reminds me of me because he's so quiet and reserved but soo nervous at the same time. I think I will get along with him really well and I can't wait to get to know him better

Gotta go
~Kel~

As we go on, we remember, all the times we've, had together, and as our lives change, come whatever, we will still be, FRIENDS F
Well its over. I've officially graduated and as I type this, I hold my diploma in my lap which proudly says, "Kelli Chrisine S......" I cried so hard. I was embarassed as I could get. I mean, I was crying in front of my whole family. Seriously, I'm freakin graduated..this is so weird. I feel so empty. Knowing that I no longer belong to OLGC and the people that once were my friends are no longer my best friends. The fact that it took us how long to all realize that we could in fact tolerate each other...that really pisses me off. Now I miss everyone, even Kody's dumb ass. I miss Robert winking at me and writing all over my shoes...I miss Rios taking all my paper...I miss Erika and Felipe fighting like siblings in the back of History...I miss the empty desk next to me in History...I miss Billy retardedness...I miss Kayla and how attatched we became...I miss Allegra and how paranoid she was...I miss Courtney and how smart she was...I miss Abbey and how funny she was...I miss Kolleen making every teachers lives a living hell...I miss my gay-ass school and all I want is to go back there and be able to complain that I'm never gonna get out of there and how poor we are...and how we went to school in the ghetto. We never did tell Alex about the whole bee thing. LoL. I know, the bee is on me right? Awww...So, now on to describing graduation...

Get there about 6:20, graduation is at 7. My mom and Mrs. Beyrel helped the girls get their collars on and the girls showed each other their dresses and shoes and stuff and marvelled at each other's nails. Then we took a ton a ton a ton of pictures of every step we made and Erika complained about the fact that she had like 30 inch heels on and she couldn't walk. Then the boys showed up in a limo. LoL they were sooo late. They got there about 6:50 and Mrs. Beyrel was about ready to kill each one of them. And then she was trying to get us in line but people wanted to take pictures of everyone together for the last time in their gowns. So we did that instead of listening so mrs. Beryel was like having a coniption. Then we all got in line, wished each other luck and walked up the aisle. Erika started crying right away...mostly cuz of her feet :-P Me and Jessica didn't even think about our feet anymore. We were pretty much blinded by all the cameras and then mass went as usual. Fr.'s homily was really good and I hope I remember every piece of advice. And then I read my intention, "For all those who are sick, especially those close to us." and then everything went well. Allegra's speech went really good in spite of everything that happened just to get someone to read the damn speech. And then they read off the awards. I got called a lot of times, I was pretty happy. And Fr Russell is all lookin at me and I'm like, "What is his problem??" and then they had one award left and it was the Jason Forrestal Scholarship and I'm like, "Well screw that, its not gonna be me." Guess what?!?! IT WAS!!!! I got $1,000 for a freakin scholarship!! And I also got $500 for the alumni award!!! AH!!! WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I was so excited! My family was so proud!!! So in total, I got $1,500 in scholarship money, so I'm very proud that I got to help my parents pay for my tuition. Then they gave us our diploma's....I was so proud. I mean, it has MY name on it. MINE! I have a diploma....wow..that is so scary. Then we were announced as the Class of 2004 and we got clapped for for a loooooong time and we walked out of church. Then everything went to hell and all the girls cried...even some of the guys. Kody, Alex, and I think Ryhno were crying and Rios had tears in his eyes. Kody was pretty much full-fleged crying which made me sooo sad because all the memories I have with him. And Rios...when we got out to go to Communion he looked back at me and smiled. I was about ready to take everyone's diploma and throw them in the fire because thats how bad I do not want to leave. Maybe I'll still do that :-P Seriously tho, I don't want to go to high school...I wanna stay in eighth grade forever and keep everyone with me and we'll all be best friends for the rest of our lives...but there is no way in hell that will ever happen.
So now I'm all depressed and we're going to the movies tonight. I think its Kayla, me, Erika, Kody, and Felipe. Aww good times :(( We're going to see The Day After Tomorrow. So that should be good. I'll let u know how everything goes. I'm sure a ton of people are gonna show up that aren't supposed to be there but ooh well..I don't know about it :D

Graduation Day...!
Well everyone...today is the big day. Its my big day. IM GRADUATING!!! I did it! And I cannot wait. It was very emotional though. I mean, I have been with the same 27 people for the past 10 years of my life. They know more about me than I know about myself. For the longest time, we have been together. And it so cruel to pull us apart. But still, moving on to highschool is so amazing, I can't believe its finally here. I got my nails done and Kristin is going to do my hair. Mrs. Beyrel bought us these cute photo albums and I already got my pics from House on the Rock in there and so now I gotta get the ones from today developed.

You know, the weirdest thought in the world is knowing that I do not belong to Our Lady of Good Counsel anymore. Can you even believe it? I can't. I mean, I do not go to school there anymore. My grade school years are in the past...how freaky. I dunno, its mind boggling. I thought I would be stuck an eighth grader for the rest of my life, but I'm actually graduating. And next year, I AM going to highschool. This is so crazy. I hope I recieve an award tonight...I think I got the Algebra one but I dunno if any "character" ones. I will not let that bother me tho because the truth is that even if I didnt do anything overly "BLAH" I still had a fun time throwing stuff into the bucket and throwing food at the young lads (Peter Pan *sniffles* I miss you) and talking to the janitor.

Say hello to a member of the Graduating Class of Our Lady of Good Counsel of the year....2004
IM SO EXCITED!!
Wish me luck tonight.
Friend for life whether you want me or not
Kelli

Pics...!
I am a lucky lucky lucky girl:


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Alex

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Whats a girl to do? He's not responding at all, and I think its cuz of his dad, ya know? But I dunno. Gut feelings if ya catch my drift.

Sports Fest was fun fun fun, but I'm so tired and anxious that I don't really wanna write about it right now.

I still need to finish my analysis :-P

What else? I think thats about it for now. I'll update everything later.

Graduation on Friday :((
Lol oh yea, my bands faded so they look pink now not orange :-/
One thing tho, I have battle scars from the tug-a-war in the East high gym. Lmao. My kneeee..ooooowwie!
Okay, well lataz then.

"Catalyst, you insist to pull me down.
You contraditct the fact that you still want me around.
And its all downhill from here.
And its all downhill from here."
~New Found Glory, All Downhill From Here

leK

Crutial analysis of my entire class...
I really just want to be able to come back to my blog and laugh and cry about my class so here goes.

Kelli's Critical 'Scientifical' Analysis of the Eighth Grade Class of 2004.

Billy B: Billy has provided my class with innumerable hours of entertainment. Its impossible to describe the hilarity of Billy. He has always been "retarded" and always tried to hard to make us laugh. We have finally started to appreciate his dumb sense of humor.

Kolleen C: My bestest buddy in the whole entire world. Although some people think that she is very very very annoying, I still love her to death. I can always count on Sven to make me laugh, make me cry, make me spread my wings to length's I would have never imagined...but mostly to make me laugh!!!

Mike D: Well, I really have not ever been very fond of him. I know he has had a particularly rough life but still...DEODORANT PLEASE! All I know is that he liked me for awhile and thats just...gross....

Abbey F: Abbey has always been so awsome. She also has provided my class with hours of entertainment, mostly in Mr. Z's class. Never particularly polite, but she still cracks us up and I love her.

Joseph G: Italian boy...What am I supposed to say about Joey? Ever since I can remember, Joey has been this quiet, laid back guy...He's probably never said more than two words to me. Not from lack of trying, but he is just overly shy. I feel sort of bad for him, and I wonder if he'll make any friends in high school because of his shyness. I know that we used to write notes last year in Math class about Friends, and I often wonder if he remembers that or still watches it. I'll probably ask him about it the last day of school or something. If I can see him thru the tears...

Ryan H: Ryan is most likley to become some huge ass business man who cannot and will not sleep until he settles that big deal he's been working on. Ok, so he's not the brighest crayon in the box, but still...He has this whole candy-thing goin on in Science class and he's always makin big deals with people. Its too funny. He's always been particularly nice to me too, but never really goofed around with me.

Erika H: Hmm, Erika. I can't really say too much about her. She's a huge backstabber, yet I still let her be my friend. I dunno about her, such a bittersweet girl. I can't help but hate to love her. (I know, kind of word reversal there...) I can't help myself tho.

Ryan H: Yes, another Ryan H. What to say about Ryan...He came here in 5th grade I think from Atlanta Georgia. He's pretty cool, very very smart. I like talking to him, for the amount of talking he does to me. He's a great athlete and an even better student. So that's why he sucks, but I'm going to miss him so much...

Dan J: Danny, I have never really been a fan of Danny's. He's ok but eeh...I sit next to him in Homeroom and he's cool if I don't understand something, but I do most of the work for him. So he's ok but he's pretty annoying.

Stephanie L: Steph is pretty cool. She's also kind of a backstabber. But she's always been exceptionally polite to me and my family so she's ok. We have some great discussions about music and stuff. She's got one neck for music, that's for sure. She's also pretty smart. We've grown so close over the years...

Bruce (lol but we call him Jake) L: I can't ever remember calling Jake "Bruce..." only if we're cheering for him in Gym or something. Too funny. There's rumors about him being suicidal. I think some are true. He takes a hell of a lot of medicine and I don't know why. Overly hyper too. I think he's a tad bit on the depressed side :-P But he's ok, he's had a crush on me I think for awhile too... I'm probably going to miss him too...

David L: Ok, well obviously, he doesn't go to our school anymore. He was expelled for Sexual Harassment. He's never been too nice or nething...we went out for awhile and I'd rather not talk about that time of my life....


Well kiddies, looks like its time for me to go get ready for the Sports Banquet. I don't know what I'm going to wear. BLAH! Jeans or black pants jeans or black pants...DECISIONS DECISIONS! AAAAAAAAH!

Oh yea, my GRANDMA was rushed to the hospital on Monday....I'm so sad...she's going to die......
And like my best friend died, Mr. Moore. I miss him so much already...It hasn't quite sunk in that he's gone. And Dad keeps bringing it up and I wish he wouldn't It makes me so sad....
I will continue my analysis at a later time.
Goodbye alllllllll...
"first you say whoa then u say yea, make up ur mind throw ur hands in the air!!"
~Sev

Love always,
KeL

Bakin a cake for muh mum!
Happy Mothers Day world! Am I the only person out there who doesn't have anything for their mom? LoL probably. Anyhoo, I'm baking a cake for her so I hope that counts somehow. I'll prolly get a poem somewhere for her too. I dunno, I gotta look around.

I'm so damn tired! Today for track my dad pretty much had to DRAG me out of bed. Track didn't go so well, but who cares right? Its over, thats all that matters. We did get first in the 1600, so thats a good thing. All because of Ryan tho. I drug us down to 3rd I think it was. So I'm lucky that Hunt brought us back up. Thank you Hunt! I owe you!!! So yea, we did pretty well. For the Warm up, we got 4th. But it was intense, and pretty fun. Disc, i didn't do so well. But I tried and had fun this year with Julian and all of the lil 6th grade friends I made. So thats pretty cool. I gave Isabel my dad's sn. Spiffy!!!

Hmm I think thats it. Kris had a great time at prom which is awesome cuz she deserved it so much. I'm happy for her, but I haven't seen her in 2 days exactly. :( Ima miss her when she goes to college. Blah. I think thats about it....Anything else I'll tell ya lata. Goin to take poodlez for a walk.
Oh bad news too. I think Alex has a girlfriend. I was talkin to Amanda Stan. and she said that she thunked he had a girl, but that she wasn't too pretty. Dammit! Oh well, I can take her out. *growls* Watch out un-pretty-alexs-girlfriend! Here I come!!!! GROAR!
Ok I'm done.
Love,
Kel
"Where is your boy tonight? I hope he is a gentleman.
Maybe he won't find out what I know:
you were the last good thing about this part of town"
~Fall Out Boy - Grant Theft Autum (Where is your boy)

Hmm this is going to be a long ass entry...!
Okay so here we go:
Today was the 8th grade trip to Wisconsin. It was so awesome! We had like the best time ever!!! We went to House on the Rock and Cave of the Mounds. The infinity room was pretty much the best part! We were all bouncin off the walls and stuffs. Hilarious. And Robert was doing his impression of Christina Agulara. It was so funny. We were trying to imatate him in the resturant. LMao omg too funny. We were all so damn tired tho. We had to be at school at 5:50 in the freakin morning!!! We all were sleepin pretty good on the bus. Once I get my pics developed I might put some on here I can't decide yet. I feel like I'm on a permanent slant tho because thats all we did today is walk on a slant. But we survived. And we watched the Sandlot on the way there and now I have that stupid tequilla song stuck in my head. And it really makes me wanna go on a spinning ride. But yea that caroseul was HUGEEEEE! It felt so weird standing next to it. And the caves were awesome!! It was really wet tho. I hope my pics turn out!! My legs also feel like jello. LoL we were all so tired that we found every little thing to be absolutly hilarious. Like Roberts, "NO NO NO NO NO!" And the bus was sooo comfy. More tomorrow, dad is yelling at me cuz i gotta go sleepy. WISH ME LUCK AT TRACK TOMORROW!!!!!! AAAAAAAH! YIKES ME SCARED!
"We come from the land of the ice and snow..."
~Led Zepplin, Immigrant Song
~*~*~Kelli~*~*~
p.s. Kris-b is a prom!! aWWWWWW!

Happy Cinco de Mayo!!!
Well today was pretty boring for the most part. Blagh. What a boring day. I have the honors banquet tonight. I prolly should start getting ready for that. I mean, I don't really feel like getting all dressed up so my whole family can hear my name read off and, "Kelli was on the honor roll second and third quarter blah blah blah..." fun...:-/
Actually, for Art, we have this HUGEEEE end of the year project and I'm going to draw myself crossing the finish line of a huge race, but of course, I win on a very very big piece of paper. Its gonna look sooo good when I'm done - she's even gonna help me get started! YaaaaaaY! I'm happy for her, because I think that she feel sucessful in what she's doing and that pretty awesome considering her last marrige failed.............*awkward silence* Sooooo yea thats about it. And we had a Cinco de Mayo partay today. Twas awesome. The food was all sooo good specially Alex's mom's chicken. MMMMM! Yummy! I brought La Cabana chippies and dippies. Lmao. Foonay. But tis still good. It was a "cultural" experience. HaHa. PENDULUM! That was quite unexpected, wasn't it?
Alright well I should go get ready now. Wish me luck.
"I'm the lead singer of my band I get all the girls to take off their underpants. I'm the lead singer of my band my salsa makes all the pretty girls want to dance, my salsa...Where'd everybody go?"
~Eminem and D12, My Band
Lata,
Kel