Happy Cinco de Mayo!!!
Well today was pretty boring for the most part. Blagh. What a boring day. I have the honors banquet tonight. I prolly should start getting ready for that. I mean, I don't really feel like getting all dressed up so my whole family can hear my name read off and, "Kelli was on the honor roll second and third quarter blah blah blah..." fun...:-/
Actually, for Art, we have this HUGEEEE end of the year project and I'm going to draw myself crossing the finish line of a huge race, but of course, I win on a very very big piece of paper. Its gonna look sooo good when I'm done - she's even gonna help me get started! YaaaaaaY! I'm happy for her, because I think that she feel sucessful in what she's doing and that pretty awesome considering her last marrige failed.............*awkward silence* Sooooo yea thats about it. And we had a Cinco de Mayo partay today. Twas awesome. The food was all sooo good specially Alex's mom's chicken. MMMMM! Yummy! I brought La Cabana chippies and dippies. Lmao. Foonay. But tis still good. It was a "cultural" experience. HaHa. PENDULUM! That was quite unexpected, wasn't it?
Alright well I should go get ready now. Wish me luck.
"I'm the lead singer of my band I get all the girls to take off their underpants. I'm the lead singer of my band my salsa makes all the pretty girls want to dance, my salsa...Where'd everybody go?"
~Eminem and D12, My Band
Lata,
Kel

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Ok so now onto excitment of this week:
Whenever me and Legra come back from the rectory its like a "tradition" to erase something on the board. Well yesterday I got this INGENIOUS idea to erase the 8 by the "6, 7, 8: 10 Sentences", move the colon over, and put an '&' sign after the 6, so it read "6 & 7: 10 Sentences" And I was like, oh no big deal. Mrs Beyrel wont know. Well when we came back from lunch, the board read, "8: 20 Sentances!!!" And I was like, "woooah shit. Maybe it was cuz we were talking." And Mrs Beyrel goes, "One of your fellow classmates decided that they didn't want to do 10 Sentences so now you are all going to do 20. You might want to have a lil chit-chat with that person to let them know that they might not want to do that." And then all hell breaks loose and everyones like, "OHMIGOD WHO DID IT!?" And I"m like, aww shit...but i didn't tell neone. But Mrs. Beyrel keeps/kept bringing it up by saying, "...your 20 sentances because someone tried to be a comedian and failed miserably..." And I"m like SHUT UP ALREADY! lol ok so I deserve it...and theeen, Kody is sitting behind me going, "Who would be THAT stupid?!" And I was thinking, "well...me..." Stupid Amanda probably gave it away already even tho she won't admit it, I'm sure she did. Thanks cupcake :/

Anyhoo, I don't really like Paul i think. It was just sum crazy spur of the moment confession. At any rate, I hafta go dad's home. So I will see ya later!

Monthly time, got braces on, and grandpa was rushed to the hospital...how the HELL do you think my week went?
Grandpa is doing a little bit better. Track went pretty well. I didn't run or throw too well, but omg I met Alex!!! OMG OMG OMG! He is so cute! You would not believe it. He walked by me when I wuz signing up for discus and I could hardley breathe. I was like, "omg, I am going to marry him." Erika thinks he's *sorta* cute. LoL ok here's what happened: I was telling her how much I liked him and so she goes up to him and goes, "your name is Alex right?" And he goes, "yea." And she's like, "oh, what high school are you going to?" and he's like, "Marmion." And I just sat there drooling. And the best part is that he's not like, popular at all! I mean, this would be a whoooooole different story if we were talking about M. Brown here, but we're not! We're talking about Alex B. and I think I really have a shot with him!!! AAAAH! But it seriously makes me consider transfering from Central to Rosary :-P Do people from Central date people from Marmion? I think Erika said Angie's friend does but I dunno. Wouldn't that be hard on him? I would kill for 5 minutes alone with him, just to stare at his beautiful eyes...*swoon faint* And all he knows about me is that I'm that girl that was drooling over him everytime he walked past me. I hope he didn't see my race >:-( AAAAAH! oh well. Ok and the bad news: Xavier is going to Central, or so Amanda S. says. MAKE HIM GO TO MARMION OR GIVE ME DEATH! :( I'm going to marry Alex tho, so yea, store that in your memory for awhile. I think I got hit on by a few guys today at the track meet! *brushes dirt off shoulder* I still got it! lmao jk jk. They were pretty scary, most of them. And the amazing thing is that I made friends with Isabel G., Julian's lil sis. So that was pretty exciting! She's actually really nice. I think she likes me too. I also made a friend from Annunciation thats going to Central today named Megan. She's nice too.
More news on grandpa lata, I got a big vball torn tomorrow. Last one and its double points day!!! We have a shot at placing! *does a happy dance*
"I found a reason to show, a side of me you didn't know, a reason to start over new...and the reason is you (Aleeeeeeeeex)"
~The Reason, Hoobastank
Loooooooooooooove,
Kelli

Well this sucks...
My family sux. Ok u must be thinking, "How can you say that?" Well before you judge what I'm saying listen to my story:
My grandpa was rushed to the hospital on Tuesday morning. Since then, Bonnie, Tom, and Butch have not been in the hospital once to see him. Their own father!!! They don't even care!!!! They finally released him and Bonnie wants to make shit for him...Well guess what!! You don't know what the hell he can and cannot eat! She's gonna kill him by putting salt in there and he's gonna get too much sodium and ferking die!!! And she can't get off her lazy ass just to help. I mean, grandpa can't stay by himself, nor would I want him too. He's been in the hospital for how many days? So mom has to give up her whole weekend to watch him cuz no one else can. Sure they can have grandpa take care of them their whole lives, but when he needs us the most its, "ooh, well I can't do it this weekend." Well you know what! They don't deserve such nice parents! Seriously...! And its not that grandpa is a burden or anything. Hell, I actually enjoyed being able to give something back to him considering everything he's done for me. And they cant even take one hour out of their lives to visit their sick father. They are gonna ferking regret it if/when he dies. And I was talking to dad today and I was asking when grandpa was going to start acting like his old self again and he told me that I have to be prepared for him to not be his 'old self' ever again. I almost started crying. Thats just too much...
Plus my friends aren't really helping. Tomorrow morning after track, I'm going to see grandpa for the rest of the day and then go to church, come home to sleep for vball on sun and then go back to his house or bring him here. And kolleen keeps asking, "what are u doing this weekend?" And I"m like, You idiot! my grandpa has congestive HEART FALIURE what the HELL do you think I'm doing!?? I WANT to be with him. I don't want any regrets after he's gone. NONE WHATSOEVER. If HER grandma was sick, we'd all be suffering for it, but I'm trying to hold my head high. Kayla has been especially sweet and I"m so thankful for that. Allegra has tried, but I had to break it to her but she's just making it worse. I mean today after school she's like, "I think we should go to the dance tonight." and I'm like, "I can't." And she's like, "why not?" And I'm like, "I just can't." And she kept asking me why and I'm like, "BECAUSE I HAVE TO GO VISIT MY GRANDPA IN THE HOSPITAL!!" God! And she's like, "oh, sorry." And I was like in tears. I hate this so much. My poor mom. She's like an angel, seriously. No matter how much she annoys me sometimes, she really is an angel. She's amazing. Plus, we were working on our class play and I was telling Allegra how badly I wanted to be the Baliff and she's like, 'oh thats cool...I wanna be the DA." So we both had our parts. So when Mrs. Beyrel asked for volunteers for reading the parts, I raised my hand and Mrs Beyrel goes, "oookay...Allegra!" And I turn around and she ferking raised her hand!!! I'm like...OMG YOU BITCH! How could she?!? I had just finished telling her how much I wanted that part. HELLO! We're friends. Step off...seriously. And then after we were done, Mrs. Beryrel went to the back of the room and Legra goes, "I really like that part...do you think I'm going to get it?" And Mrs. Beyrel says, "yea you have a good chance." If she gets that part I"m going to be soo pissed. And Kolleen doesn't understand because she got the part she wanted so she's like, "oh well deal with it." Wtf. Whenever something doesn't go her way, I take her side. Oh well, I guess I just gotta do this by myself. I hafta go to bed now, track tomorrow. I hope it gets rained out :-/
Lata,
Kel
"Cheerio-eo-eo-eo-eo-eo-eo"

Ocean Avenue....!
So yea, how goes it? Hopefully goin pretty well. I'm not doing so hott. I mean, monthly *aheeeem* and I just got my braces on and I feel so ugly. And my grandpa was rushed to the hospital yesterday and he has congestive heart faliure....Heart Faliure.... Omg, I don't think I can go on living if grandpa dies. I can't. I love him so much...it makes me so upset just thinking about it...and...everything. I'll only have to have braces for 6 months but I feel so ugly. I'm just not used to not turning heads in a crowd, but I'll have to get used to it I guess. Plus, my teeth are soooooooooo sore and omg its horrible. I can't eat anything. Nothing I tell ya!!! And today me, Kayla, Erika, Kody, and Felipe were all hanging out during grandparents day and so yea. They were all perverted but I just dont fit in with them at all and it makes me so mad. They just piss me off when they talk about...well I don't want you to know, but I know what I'm talking about. I need to finish my 5 page paper for Friday. I have 3 pages done already so I should be doing that now :D Tomorrow I go to Cullen (Omg I'm so scared, he hasn't seen me with braces and he used to hit on me when he wuz tutoring me...omg omg omg...YIKES I KNOW HE"S GON MAKE FUN OF ME!!!!) and then I go to the Cougars game for serving...Kayla and Stephanie are gonna be there YAY! I almost started crying today when I told kayla about g-pa today :(( I have grandparents day tonight and I am going to wear black pants and a white tank top shirt with a lil shirt over it so that will be cute. I THINK I LIKE PAUL! OMG OMG OMG! ITS REALLY WEIRD! And I think he likes me too....but I think he might be going out with Sam M. so I'm going to ask her about it, but I'm hoping not. I doubt it...but I really think I like him. LoL omg thats so weird. But I think I do. :) Maybe thats a good thing. The amazing thing is that even though I do have braces now, he doesn't seem to talk to me less, but I dunno. Kris keeps going, "Kel, it hasn't changed who you are." But I mean, it has changed how I look and I just can't get used to it. I really hate it. I just keep thinking 6 more months and I'll have the perfect smile. PERFECT! Kris said Dr. Kay would give me whitening too!!! Ergo, my teeth will be straight AND white. So I won't go into my freshman year with perfectly straight teeth, but it will be sort of close and I will look good. I think I should not have picked orange for my bands but o well. They change in June. I only have about 20 more days till graduation. We have an 8th grade play and I want to be Attorney Wombat and I'm not sure if anyone else wants to so I'm really really really hoping I get that part. We decide tomorrow so I guess I'll let you know eventually. I GET TO CROWN MARY!! OMG WOOOHOOOOOOO! And we have the confrence meet for track this sat.
:((( I'm so scared. YIKES!!! Last vball torn this sun. YAAAAAHOOOOOOOOOOO! I'm not even nervous cuz I know it won't matter. The only sad thing is that I'm just starting to get to be really good friends with my teammates and breaking away from Allegra. I don't think she's too happy with me for that. I'm also really scared about going to high school. I mean, I know NO ONE. AAAAAAAH! Very scary. OH well I'll get over it eventually. I have to call Feltes now about my pics. They turned out really good :)) Last good pix til STRAIGHT TEETH *does a happy dance*
Wow sorry about the sudden bursts of randomness :)) Pray that grandpa gets better, mmkays? TY TY TY!
Much love,
Kel
" If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away"
Ocean Avenue - Yellowcard

That was fun...
Yesterday was awesome. As my group sat in Religion class waiting for the bell to ring, we discussed what Anne Frank and "Petel" were doing on Dussell's cushions. Lmao. OmG riot. And in the process we somehow discovered that I was a baragge. Go figure.

Today was track. I did ok. I beat my PR in the 400. Stoopid "person" kept bringing our relay team down, and Julian was acting like an ass. I mean really, I hate living in Allegra's shadow, and I cannot wait until next year when I can live in NO ONES shadow and refer to her as, "That-person-I-used-to-hang-out-with-and-secretly-greatly-despised"
Well its not really a secet...Sven knows.

My mom just did my eyebrows and they hurt like a bitch. Seriously. Take my advice and do NOT i repeat, DO NOT let your mom EVER wax your eyebrows - it will result in wax plastered on your forhead and a loooot of plucking.

Jared's makin his first Communion tomorrow. AWWWW! Seems like juss yesterday the lil bugger was born.
how cute!
Anyhoo I should be goin off to bed. I'm so tired and my eyes throb in pain :-P

Lata masturbater!
Kel

I hate salespeople that call while you're trying to do stuffz....!
Ok well the other day I think I was just tired and being retarded with my whole "I love Derick" confession and the truth is I do love him...but not as my boyfriend anymore. I used to...but I just can't anymore.

Everything is getting so stressful!!! The end of the school year and we gotta take tha Constitution test thing. GrOwL. God I hate Z. He's such a bastardo. Today he tells us tha the HUGEEE test is on Fri. WTF!! And B told us yesterday tha our outline is due Friday for Lizzie Borden. Plus I still hafta do tha reading and we had our Anne Frank test today which I seriously think I failed :-P And also a Science Test tomorrow. Welcome to the end of the year!!!

Yesterday at track, Julian was trying to help me with the spin and he told me tha "Legra does it really well..." blahblahblah. He's so hott but he's sorta jerk-y sumtimes. I'm like "If u ferking think u can do it better than go right on ahead." So yea. Damn weirdo. And for the record, Steve didn't even ask where Legra was yesterday seeing as tho she didn't call him and I don't think its MY place to say nething to him. If he says NOTHING to her I am gon be so pissed. But hey, on the good side, only 3 more practices and one torn. and I'll be gone for good. I'm not playin for Pazazz next year but probably Great Lakes cuz they are sooo much better and their coaches probably aren't bastards...and also to get away from you-know-who (not steve...well steve too but someone else).

I found out why Kris gets so pissed everytime I meet a new guy but...its not like I can help her situation any so I wish she would just leave me alone.

Well I really should be going to do my homework instead of dicking around on the computer.
lata calculata.

"Wake up tired
Monday mornings suck
It's way too early to catch a bus
Why conform without a fuss?"
Skye Sweetnam - Billy S.

Hott boys all around!!!!!!!
Lmao I read the last thing that I wrote and I'm like...wow, Kelli your a dumbass. ;-P

Well yesterday we went into Chicago which was so awsome. There was this one guy who was hitting on me - I only got hit on twice which is a very very very good thing - and he looks like Dominick L. that lives behind me. (I'm watchin the Cubs came and it looks like Kerry Wood just got in a fight with sum1...haha!!!) Anyway I guess the only real important thing you need to know is that the first guy, I thought was way out of my league (I'm talkin khaki shorts, white and blue striped polo shirt, b-e-a-utiful young man). So I was flored and as we were walking into this one building, he came up the stairs. And we locked eyes for about a mili-second and I looked away. So he was walking behind us and I'm like...omg omg omg....as with the advantage of long legs, he was able to get in front of us and was standing by his family so as I was walking by I tried to get his attention and when I caught his eye he looked me up and down, licked his lips and smiled...! I was so estatic...omg!! LoL I almost peed my pants I was that amazed. For once, I actually got a guy who was out of my league!! *at a loss for words*
The second guy like I already said look identical to Dominick with brown-ish hair and blond streaks thru it. He was hott! And while we were at Uno's, we would keep locking eyes for a few seconds and then look away and as I was leaving he smiled and me and nodded. LoL ok that sounds lame, but if u were there, and saw this guys face, you'd be just as happy. So they made the trip totally worth it.
It was also really fun w/ my fam, even though ur prolly gagging about it, it was fun. We went to Lincoln Park Zoo and walked around Chicago for a long time. Then we ate at Uno's that has like THE best pizza in all of Chicago.
Yankee's play the Sox tonight!! OMG OMG OMG ALEX RODRIGUEZ LOSSSSSA ALEX WOOOOOO!
So sexy. (HUGE ASS!! LMAO!)
Oh another thing, we went to the first contemporary mass tonight. Something weird happened...when I was walking in, Dominick (a dif. one than I was talking about before) goes, "Hey Kelli..." and it wasn't regular...i could like feel his eyes running all over me. It was gross I mean, Dom has been my friend for so long and when ur friends start checking you out...I mean, Dom is even my ex-bf but we won't go there.....
Just the whole friend issue...messed up.
OMG! One more thing...Last thurs, we got to dress up for church cuz the 8th grade was doing this thing and I wore black pants and this cute lil baby blue shirt and the shirt kept coming up when I stood up. But sometime during school, Kody saw my thong and told EVERYONE that I was wearing one!!! I was sooo embarassed, omg. And then Manda was all like my friend cuz I was gettin so much attention. I was like.....grrrowl. I'M NOT LOOKING FOR ATTENTION!!!! WHY DOESNT ANYONE UNDERSTAND THAT I CANT HELP THE WAY I LOOK!!!!
With that said...
I'll c ya.
"Most illingest b-boy - I got that feeling
Cause I am most ill and I'm rhymin' and stealin'"
Beastie Boys - Rhymin and Stealin

I'm reminicing, dreaming old dreams, wishin old wishes...like you would be back again
Hmm severe sadness has taken over. I just can't help it whenever I hear that song. LoL whenever I hear a lot of songs I think about *him* and wonder if he's ok. I haven't heard from him so I wonder how everything went at the doctor's today. Yap Yap. So I dunno. Its almost been a year since I met him. So yea thas awkward. I knew it would be rough tho so I'm not complaining.

I worked a lil on my site today. Sumthin I haven't done in awhile. So thas cool.

The weird thing is that I think heem - (code name for Derick, lol and I'm telling you) misses me too. Like when we were talking yesterday, we were both remenicin about our past together. I mean, the last thing he needs right now is me, but I'd do anything.... he told me about a friend he made and it makes me so sad because I'd kill to be tha girl. I don't know if right now if he's trying to make me jealous, if he knows what he's doing to me, or if he's really that naive. (I'll see you again, pretend your naive, is this what you want, is this what you need?) Good times man.
When I said that to heem about our past, he goes, 'very'. What does that mean?!?! Is that good?! Bad?! Does he miss me. Would he keep talking to me and hanging on to the past if he didn't? I dunno I haven't really thought about this whole situation like this in a loooong time and I actually thought I was doing pretty good. I love Derick, i really think I do. and its seriously killing me. And I think a moth just bit me in the neck. Ewwie.
LoL ok but serious: whenever I think about dating someone else, or getting serious with another guy, I keep going, "aww hey, remember when me n heem used to..." and it goes on like tha forever. I so wish for him to hold me in his arms like he once did....but it won't happen again. I don't see it happening anytime soon at least...

So thas pretty much all thas been goin on. *shrugs* Dammit, SB is almost ova :(( But, maybe once I get back to school and my life gets back on track everything will be betta. I dunno

"Don't be stupid...you know I love you!"
Shania Twain - Don't be stupid

Thanx for shopping at a;dklf;zcmasodifrj;wlek HAVE A NICE DAY!!!
LoL umm...yea...!
I mish Derick. He told me something today...he has a heart problem. He didn't tell me what it was about or anything but he finds out Thursday if he needs to go back to Texas for surgery. :( I told him to let me know. So yea. He's really hott to. LoL But yea, I miss him so much. I can't believe I actually broke his heart. I keep telling myself it was the right thing to do tho, because of two reasons:
1.) It was the right thing to do
2.) It was right after I met Sorin and everything just started happening at once and I just couldn't take it...i felt like I was cheating on him and tha just wasn't fair.
So hopefully everything will go betta. But I dunno.

Today was actually pretty good. Me and Kris got along great and hardly fought at all which is pretty amazing. We went to the club for taco's. So yea tha was cool

When I came back I went running down by the school. There were these guys playin baseball and I heard someone yell, "oo yea keep runnin." And I didn't know if they wuz talkin to me or wha so I juss kept goin. I turned the corner (went right, they were to my left) and I heard someone else yell, "No not that way! Come back this way!!" So I sort of turned but kept goin. So yea tha was messed. I dunno if tha was just sum big coincidence cuz maybe they weren't even talkin to me but I dunno.

I made cookies AGAIN for Kris and her SVDP meeting and they went over well as far as I heard.

I actually survived vball last night. To my luck, Ashley wuz gone so I passed with Justine. Thas sweetness dude. Everyone was like, "WE MISS ALLEGRA!" And I"m all like...thx guys...
Oh well. I only got like 2 more weeks with them and then ima be done for the rest of my life. *does a jig*

I guess thas all for now. Praaaaaaaay that I see Derick again soon and pray that he be ok. :)

"I wake up and teardrops, they fall down like rain. I put on that old song we danced to and then, I head off to my job. Guess not much has changed. Punch the clock, head for home, check the phone. Just in case. Go to bed, dream of you, thats what I'm doin these days."
These Days - Rascal Flatts

And

" all this time i can't believe i couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
i've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life"
Bring Me to Life - Evanescence

Last but not least

"I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear"
The Reason - Hoobastank

Keep rockin the free world
*~*~*~Kelli~*~*~*