I'm so boreeeeeeed and its so freakin hotttttt!! Its like 95 degrees today and I'm tired but am so worried about stuff...
Some things that are constantly on my mind are: weight, skin, guys, future, and teeth. I hate my apperance so bad. The truth is that all I really want is to be wanted. The men that look at me when I'm walking down the street...well, I've classified them all as playa's and they mean nothing to me. Every guy that has hit on me, well they probably do it to every girl that is in their sight. I want to be able to crawl into my man's arms and tell him everything thats on my mind and have him genuinly care about ME...my mind, soul, and heart...and not just my looks. <~that is, if I have any. I mean, I would tell my friends my problems, but after graduation I feel so disconnected from them and almost as if our friendship never was. Almost to the point where I feel like I never went to grade school with any of them. And I tried telling Isabel but she just doesn't understand. I also think that sometimes I can be so naive its just insane how naive I am sometimes. It also pisses me off that Alex isn't around to hold me. He left without any indication and I have a feeling that I may never see him again, no matter how bad I want him. Well, I guess I should be going. MoM and I are going shopping for kleets tonight - maybe someone will deny my suspicions and want me.
I promised u an updated picture of me so here it is: http://www.geocities.com/just_duckie3/kel.bmp
^^^you gotta hover over it for a little while and then when the little pic with arrows comes up, click on it and it will get bigger so u can see it better.