Merry Christmas to me..!
Butch came home for Christmas and he might come home for my graduation *dances*




WAAAAAAAAAAAAAHOOOOOOOOOOO! That's right all!!! And I'm soooo excited to graduate anyway. After I post this, I'm going to go count how many days. Well let me tell you about my most wonderful Christmas:
Dec 24 - Went to Grandpa's house...Butch was actually there!! :-O Amazing am I right?!?! Bonnie and Tom were there aswell. Well yea, we all know how that goes. Aunt Rose was there too...and she asked a veeeeery personal question to Kris...I was offended myself, and I felt reeeeeeally bad for her!! lol!!! I got a gift card to Wet Seal for $40, earings, and lotsssssssa mula. Not bad, eh?!
Dec 24/25 - Went to midnight mass. Brian came over afterwards!!! Omg it was fuuuuun. But I had a terrible headache - which has been happening - But Brian kept talkering so that could have been part of the problem. LoLz...jk jk. He left around 2:30 am. So that was coolz.
Dec 25 - Kris and me got up around 9:00 am. We waited for mom and pops to get up. They were awake by 10:00 and we tore through our stockings. I got neeeeeew make-up and i look reeeeeeal cute!!! lol..! I also got new jeans and a cute hoodie that actually FITS plus, I have money to go shopping so I can start dressing half-way decent, seeing as though I don't right now and it bothers me alot alot. :P I got Now 14 which was awsome, lotsssssa duckie stuff, cause of course I asked for it! :) And that was pretty much it. And we got a fooseball/airhockey table! w00tZ!! fun stuff...But, the ultimate Christmas present was having Butch here to celebrate the holiday. It meant a lot. He took down the dates for Kris and my graduation!!! I think he might come back and I would be soooooo excited and I would freak out!!! It would mean alot aswell. Hopefully he knows...
I also got the A.F.I. cd and $25 more to Wet Seal. :))
I was out to dinner with my family and reality hit me in the head like a baseball bat. I know Butch owns a bar, and I accept that. I realize that he may have a g/f which I also try to accept and I realize that a business is difficult to run and you can just pick up and leave town without a lot of arrangements. (ha I spelled that wrong!!!) But, I didn't realize that Butch goes bar-hopping...I mean, its not like he's 21 anymore!! he's like...55!!! Literally, I kid you not friend. I try to accept that but I just can't. I've been thinking about it alot; I just cannot see that happening, and I always trusted him like no other even though i barley know him. Now I don't and I don't know why. I think he respects me...like he doesn't smoke when we're around and he doesnt drink. But...I talked to mom and she said even if he knew we were coming yesterday, he might have been drinking anyway. So what does that mean? Maybe I over-estimated him. If there is such a thing, I think I'm totally guilty of it.
Keep rockin the free world,
Kel

"Now I will tell you what I've done for you...50 thousand tears I've cried..."
~Going Under, Evanescence