Do you remember when you promised me that you would never hurt me Taylor? You were never good at keeping promises. You lied about loving me, you lied to me about wanting to spend the rest of your life with me. You would rather smoke pot with your friends, and fuck an ex girlfriend than care for me. Im sorry I couldn't be who you wanted me to be. I am sorry I couldn't change for you. And I am sorry I am gone. I love you Taylor, I told you that long ago and I still mean it- I will until the day that I die. I dont lie about love. I miss you. I miss being in your arms, I miss kissing you, I miss the way that you smell, and the way you always made me laugh, I miss the way you made me feel and knowing that all of it was a big lie is the worst pain that I have ever felt in my life. I have never believed in god Taylor, but every night I pray to god to make this pain go away. A huge chunk of me is missing, and its you. I still wake up some nights and reach over to see if you are laying next to me- you never are Taylor- you never were. I know you will never read this, I just want you to know that I never meant to fall in love with you. I never meant to give you my heart - but I do have a safety pin stuck in my heart and it will never leave. I just wish, for one more second I could be curled up in your arms, but I realize that that can never be. I love you- through all the pain, and the tears and the blood: I still love you. I wish the best for you in your life. I will never forget you. Good- bye Taylor.