WoHw!!! Here I go again, you know this morning, I have my first ever patient in my life. Her name is Marzel, Catalina, she gave birth to a baby girl. Men! My C.I.          assigned me and my partner to her. At first start, I really felt that my body is shaking, I was not in the room yet, iam still in the hallway but im really nervous. The whole inside me is gone, I don’t know what to do. But after that, we knock on the door, I felt like im knockin on heaven’s door. I remember that once I hold a patient it’s like holding God. So we introduce ourselves to our patient and to her husband, damn, it’s cool. So, we take and we done what  we have to do. It’s nice to have an interaction to people like that. “pero mahirap pa rin”. I forgot to say that, when I was in that room, wearing a nurse’s uniform. I remember that, last year, when my father was in the hospital, there’s a student nurse doing the same thing that I’ve done today, “ciguro”, everytime that I will go to a patient’s room, it  will reminds me about my father that is being a patient. That  was my worst nightmare in my life, like I can blame everything and I hated all that sorrounds me. The death of my father, was a big lost to us. I lost everything when that day came in to my life. First my engineering career, my band, and my girlfriend. “ganon talaga”, parts of Gods plan. May be God will give me a good nursing career instead of engineering, a friend instead of a band, and my greatest gift instead of that girl.

          Now the presence of my father’s spirit will keep on my heart as I do my job on the hospital. Thanks to God, I realized that, he took my father, to make me work on my own and to complete my mission here on earth, like my father did. I believe that he’s on heaven now, so I got to be good, so I can see him again when I leave this world.