| A reference to Jonathan's drug use during his early years. "Another place I find to escape the pain inside" The drugs controlled his life. They provided an escape from the pain he endured as a young adult, and he couldn't see any future direction for himself. "see through the grey that clouds my mind" He wants to escape the confusion in his mind but his self esteem is so low that he is not confident enough to make change for himself. He wants to leave the world and start again but he doesn't know how, so he uses drugs to distort reality.
While the lyrics to Ball Tongue would have you believe otherwise it has always been said that the song a guy with a pierced tongue who used to make t-shirts for the band but ended up screwing them all over. "There you are alone, with no hope of ever having something to be proud of, something earned without begging" It appears that the person was close to Jonathan but he had doubt that what he was doing for the band made any difference, so s/he backstabbed them. S/he disconnected her/himself from Korn and ended up doing nothing, in the hope that they would come running back to save him/her from his own self pity. "Why are you at home buried in your own self pity? Why do you insist on living the life clean out of me? " The person was one of few who shared time with Jonathan but became obsessed with him, expecting him to give all his attention. "Yes,
I know you're the person, the person that took time with me. Does it give you
the right to expect your life revolves around me?" "You pull me closer, I push you away, You tell me it's okay, I can't help but feel the pain" Jonathan was used to being fucked over by people he loved and any future relationship was going to feel the same. Every time he thought he was getting too close he would push her away. "I hate you .... Fuck you, bitch" Jonathan
already resents tthe girl because he's so confident that she will end up breaking
his heart. He hates her before she has even done anything. "A tatooed body to hide who you are, Scared to be honest, be yourself" It seems that this incident was a breaking point for Jon. As the Clown video shows he was a victim of torment from his peers at school because he was different. He was an individual, and this was hard for others to accept. Everyone else hid behind an image that wasn't representative of themselves, but of what others wanted them to be. Divine "You're
suffering 'cause of me, it's divine" He wanted to show her how it felt to want someone you can't have, and he knows now that since he lost interest in her she realises what she's given up. Now it's his turn to have some fun, and he is enjoying it. "You know what, Fuck you, I'm fed up with you, I'm not as good as you, Fuck no, I'm better than you" Jonathan knows he's a better person than her by showing that he's not a doll that can be picked up and put down at will. Faget Spend
any time with Davis and one is likely to be subjected to an endless barrage of
queer references and gay jokes. But what might initially come across as small-town
homophobia turns out to be something more, a by-product of a lifetime of sexual
confusion. One Davis-penned song, entitled "Faget," reflects on time spent as
a Duran Duran-loving New Romantic, when the singer would don makeup and hang out
in gay bars. "Everyone thought I was gay my whole life," says Davis, "so I have
to joke about it just to deal with it." - Spin Magazine "I can in every way, mistake the pain I feel inside. It comes to me, evil thoughts is creeping through my mind" How can he deal with the situations of a failed relationship but to remove himself from the world, or remove the other person. If he can't have them, noone can. Fake "I can't stand the sight of you, I can't stand what you put me through. Your life's a lie, that you hide. Is it that terrible being you inside?" Jonathan is persecuted for being himself rather than another person trying to fit in with the crowd. "You try so hard to be wanted. False emotions tells you fronted. I think being a person relies on one thing. Be yourself, let you come through" Everyone wants to fit in so badly that they will change their appearance and opinions to that of the mainstream crowd. "Fake, you'll regret it, you'll regret it" Once
they are older they will realise that they've wasted their youth by trying to
be something they're not. "I
want you to see the life you have disguised" He is pointing out those who fear they too will be persecuted if they step outside the line of individuality.
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