September 5, 2002
Back to making music is nice. Proxima Centauri, the closest thing I'll ever come to being shown what heaven is like. That is the song we had begun today, and it felt good. I am the most hesitant and uncomfortable person when I'm singing, getting comfortable in my own skin is a war that I can not win. But it doesn't matter, my insecurities are what give me a reason to do this, so I except them, and maybe someone else will too. I don't care what anyone thinks, I don't do this for you, I do it for me. So you, whoever you are, whoever is expecting something, if any at all, can suck a dick and go to hell.