August 20, 2002
I have to go back to the boiling pit of conformity known as Barberton High School tommorrow. It really sucks, but I'll get to see some of the closest people to me in my life everyday from now on. So with the exception of that, this blows ass completely. I hate school, I think I went off about school in one of these chornicles or another. I don't know, it's just this thing I do that sucks the life outta me. Waking up in the morning, so early at 6 AM or so, to go see some people I love, but mostly people I hate. I wake up with this clearly disguinshed feeling of dread, the kind that you feel weighing down in your heart. I feel like I'm drowning, and dieing a little more. It actually makes me feel weak, like physically weak. For seven hours, I hate it. There's so much more to it than just going to school, but that place is where half of my problems came from. What else is new, oh yeah, changing the name. Abyss is beautiful to me, don't get me wrong, but Matt and Jay want a name change, so one just sort of happened. I bought this necklace at Hot Topic, it's really sweet. Anyway it has these thorns pertruding from sphere's laced with cubes. Matt turned to me and said "Thorncube". At first I didn't really care, but then I keep invisioning it more and more, and it does have a nice ring to it, for me anyway. That's what me and him want, haven't talked to Jay about it yet, but I think he'll like it. It looks cool. A name as meaningless as Thorncube is perfect, it gives the music the chance to define the name, instead of the name define the music.