This is my life
This is my love
This is my peace
and my addictive drug
It starts with a quarter, early today
Got out of the path and started to play
The machine got to me and didn't hold back
Till I got this addiction and soon sidetracked
This is my peace
This is my love
This is my life
This is my karma drug
I'm embarrassing you, and everyone else
All of our family
I have a drug, treasure to find
Harmless to body but kills the whole mind
Humiliation comes to all of us now
It's always me, right here, and how....
How could this bring
Such awful pain
It started a game
That triggered your reign
This is my life
This is my love
This is my peace
And my addictive drug
At the end of the day
I go home to unwind
With the love of my life
But to blow my mind
I cannot love
You yell murder words
That get to my spirit
It's starting to hurt
My drug is your hurt
My peace is your shame
You win in the end
Cuz my hurt is your game
My life is your vex
My love is your rage
Your feelings are heard
Your pleasure's my cage
This is my life
This is my love
This is my peace
My terribly addictive drug
Your potential
You don't understand it
Your awesome power
You can't comprehend it
No one dreamed of what you could be
I'll be the one to set your soul free,
to be........
No rhyme or reason
No right or wrong
You're just......
A phenomenon
Those yellow asses who say you're a mess
Don't know the power that you can posess
Don't be afraid, you will surely live
You're the greatest that there ever was and is
Nothing short nothing less than the best there can be,
Phenomenal as the world can see
PHENOMENAL.......
Phenomenon
It could be later, but now is more right
Give your all stand up tall and put up a fight
It is today and now is the time
No wrong or reason, no right or rhyme
You're phenomenonal so just time to go
You phenomenon
Two or four, maybe nine or ten,
It never matters cuz you're better than them
No further thoughts, just be ready prepared
You're the picture of courage you never get scared
You're always the best.....always strong.....enough to be.......
a phenemenon
I had a dream that took place the other night
I had a dream where everything was dry
In dream I was so young and scared and washed up on the sea
I screamed and yelled forever
In my own pathetic plea
(you're just no good to me)
If I could have it as I want
Everything would be all dry
Oceans would be washed up
With raindrops to the sky
While I shout to you
As I do with all my rage
This novel of depression
Is just a single page
(you're just no good to me)
The evaporation
Never comes into my life
I've got a feeling
That I will drown and die at sea
The truth is plain and simple
And you're just no good to me
The cycle goes around
And water hits the drain
I've got nothing left from this
Only my evaporated pain
If I could have it as I want
Everything would be all dry
Oceans would be washed up
And lakes gone up the sky
While I shout to you
As I do with all my rage
This novel of depression
Is just a single page
(you're just no good to me)
The evaporation
Never comes into my life
I've got a feeling
That I will drown and die at sea
The truth is plain and simple
And you're just no good to me
The cycle goes around
And water hits the drain
I've got nothing left from this
Only my evaporated pain
I could cry forever from the lake and pond and sea
The simple truth is.....
You're just no good to me
You built me up
Piece by piece
One stacked bottle at a time
You built in me
Brick by brick
A foundation solid
Just so you could
BREAK IT
Break it all down
Your betrayal
Manipulation
That sick plan with a back-stabbing twist
A mind along your lines
Just would love to
Break it
Break it all down
When I was up top
Before you broke everything
I fell off my summit of hope
When I stopped, and hit the ground
You did the worst
You had to
Break it
Break it all down
I shouldn't have to take it
But you go and
Break it
Break it all down
You just had to
Break it
Break it all down
Letting it all go wouldn't be so hard
If I had a clever plan to try
But it's always agonizing to the Nth degree
I'm fighting for all that I'm worth
An everlasting war
As I drop to my knee
Another raging battle with my
Insecurity
I can't, I just can't
Begin to understand
Think in any way
I won't, and I can't
Kill my nervous wreck of a mind
The battle rages on
Me against myself
I against me
It's happening now
No one but me
Can see the war I'm facing
With my insecurity
Today it's all calm
The ashes have cleared
The dust covers everything but I hear
A shaking ground below
Underneath my feet
Looks like a disturbance
Another fight with me
A battle raging on
With my
Insecurity
It's an everlasting war
I drop to my knee
Another raging battle with my
Insecurity
I can't, I just can't
Begin to understand
Think in any way
I won't, and I can't
Kill my nervous wreck of a mind
It's an ongoing war
I drop to my knees
The battle rages on with my
Insecurities
These four years that I spend to myself
Every hour every long day
I hide my fears with a caution mask upon
But they never seem to go away
Is it yet behind me
Have I pulled through
This path ever grinding
Is what I have to do
These four years that I spend on my own
Trying to survive the time
The pushing from my rents
The pressure from my friends
I don't think I'll live to be
High expectations and your low commendations
Seem to be taking a toll
It's hard to go through, it's hard to fight back
But everything is up to me
Is it yet behind me
Will I pull through
This path ever winding
What I'm gonna do
A loser and a freak, is all that you seek
Living up to that I can do
You ridicule me and you think I can't take
But I've got some news for you
I've been through it all
I've been through the worst
Your ######y little ways just ain't gonna work
I'll fight through.....
These four years every minute all the time
My image is on the line
Reputation lost, pressure can't be beat
I'm the picture of failure.....
I suffer defeat
Is it yet behind me
Have I pulled through
This path ever grinding
What I have to do
You say that in your life
It's the best four years
I don't hear a word you say
I don't believe a thing that you shove down my throat
Or the BS that you throw my way
You said it's crucial
You say it's all that matters
I'm second rate to this
The violence in myself
The knowledge that I lack
Makes life hard to live
I do what I can, with what I have
But everything that I put in....
Is not enough to give
Is it yet behind me
Have I pulled through
This path ever grinding
It's what I'm going through
It's hard to go through
With the knowledge that I lack
I just can't survive the time
All I wanna do is throw my fears away
To survive every minute
.......every hour
.......every day
It's what I can take
I've been through enough
Could there be a reason
The world seems to hate me so much
I want to journey through time and space
And maybe find a better place
Without this hatred and vengence
I want a machine
To take me back
I'm feeling regret
I want to go back
To where I was before
For whatever made you seem to hate me like this
I never imagined
It would come to this way
Was it something I've done
Or something I had to say
It happened before
It happened again
It'll be in the future but I don't know when
I want to journey through space and time
And maybe find another kind
Without this evil and violence
I want a machine
To take me back
I'm feeling regret
I want to go back
To where I was before
For whatever made you seem to hate me like this
The trouble it's caused me
The pain that's been eating inside of me
I can't deal anymore
I want to journey through time and space
And maybe find a better place
Without this hatred and vengence
If I had a machine
To take me back
I'd have a reason
Before I regret
I'd have a cause
Before I remourse
I'd have a plan
For everything time
In my dream
I had no where to travel
In my mind
It's just another footstep
In my head
My imagination started
The realization that I
Had no one to turn to
Look what I've gone to
A figure of lonliness in bitter isolation
A kind of captivating souless mind to be here
Turning in each direction winding up in shambles
A thoughtless destiny seems it's where I'm going
A thoughtless destiny seems it's what I have
In my dream
There was no where to travel
In my mind
It's just another footstep
In my head
I had someone to turn to
In a dream
You have no isolation
In a dream
It's recreation for your mind
And your soul
You can't deny your thoughts or your ideas always
Just as your heart
Is bolding red or when the day is very long
What you can count on is the resting at the end
Dreaming of a place without your isolation
The recreation of your mind
In my dream
I had nowhere to travel
In my mind
It's just another footstep
In my head
There's someone to turn to
In this dream
I can't deny my thoughts or my ideas always
In fact it's hard to even find someplace to travel
In this dream
The red in my heart or the longevity
Of the day never comes into play here
Neither does my soul
In this dream
It doesn't matter when I see footsteps behind me
Cuz they're mine