/dont forget to [sign it] before u leave!
"The best and most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or even heard, but must be felt with the heart."
/thoughts...
JAN 02-04 -it was getting late... and i wanted to go to bed..but i feel so frustrated right now and the only way to clear my thoughts is to write...
its the new year..time for new things to happen, trying to resolve all ofour past mistakes. god bless us for making it this far. its funny...actually. many people feel sorry for me and my life, how im so deprived of my childhood because i cant come out to play. as pathetic as it sounds.. i really dont mind staying home and babysitting. thats the tough thing about growing up in an asian family and hanging out with canadian people.. canadians dont understand the asian ethics and morals that each individual asian is raised with. so.. i know its really stereotypical to say that, as there are probably many asians who dont follow these ethics, but none the less, although i am very white-washed, i still have my asian morals planted deeply within. that said, i dont think anyone realizes how much i am doing for my family by watching my brothers every weekend. many of you... despite how close u think u are to me, u have no idea what goes on in my real life. no one does except those i live with. i dont suffer the same worries that the average teen has...since the only problems teens have these days is worrying about what to wear to school or what great social event is occuring on the weekend. anyways.. i think its funny, how you can be so close to people and just drift apart so easily. i had great friendships..what happened to them? i dont know.. some may say that its been hard since ive moved away.. but we survived one year, what makes this year any different? if anything it should be easier since so many of us are granted our licenses and stuff..but whatever.it hurts to realize that the ones that the ones u cared for no longer even realizes your existence..
"Nothing you love is lost. Not really. Things, people--they always go away sooner or later. You can`t hold them anymore than you can hold moonlight. But if they`ve touched you, if they`re inside you then they`re still yours. The only things you ever really have are the ones you hold inside your heart."
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DEC 31-03 - tonite is new years eve... the time where everyone looks back at their past mistakes for the previous year and vows to somehow make their lives better in the new year to
come. well..as i look back on 2003, i see that it was a year full of happiness, sadness, many regrets, angriness, grief, misery and so forth. so what can i say
to try to make this new year even better? nothing... because whatever happens in the future, whether it be good or bad, theres nothing i can do about it.
and u know what? that scares me.. because i see so much hatred around my house, within my family, in my school, and even online, and i have no control over it.
i guess thats just one of my flaws... i care too much for others. even if it doesnt concern me, i still feel responsible for all errors that occur around me.
i dont think people understand how much it hurts to care, or even how much more it hurts to not be cared for in return....
have a happy new year everyone....
"Find out who you are...and do it on purpose."
/quick statz...
name: eileen
sex: f
nat: lao|chink|thai
age: 16
d.o.b: 9/3/87
area: 905
school: hill park
/more...
nicks:leen, leenie, tiazzi, "leenis"
hair: long, reddish black
eyes: dark brown
height: 5'3 ??
lefty or righty: lefty
shoe size:8
sibs: 1 sis, 2 lil bros
occupation:tim hortons/cookie packager
/faves...
show: alias 
movie: beauty and the beast
actress: jennifer garner, charlize theron
actor: hugh grant, edward norton
food: pizza..yum
dessert: cheesecake
colour:pink and lime green
music: everything
band:sum 41
cd: christina aguilera: stripped
sport: volleyball, tennis
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/quick bio...
her name is eileen...knowing her on a first name basis is good enuff. she was brought into this world on september 3rd, 1987 at st. joeseph's hospital, and grew up in hamilton with her two parents, her older sister, and her 2 lil brothers. she is now your average 16 year old gurl, and if you haven't figured it out yet, she's a mix of laotian, thai, and chinese.
she has lived in almost every part of hamilton..and needless to say has attended a bunch of different schools. however, she currently attends hill park secondary... a very shitty school might i add. very soon she will be switching back to ancaster high, where she will FINALLY get to be back with all her friends.
besides school, she currently attained a job at tim hortons (the one across from limeridge, come by anytime to visit me!) where she has been working more than her share of shifts over the past few weeks. although it is not the best job in the world, its decent, but does not even compare to voortmans!! thats all about her for now... more will be added later when she knows what she wants to write about lol.
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" The greatest thing in life you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return."
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/song of the month...
"angel/by: sarah mclachlan"
Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe
in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
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/meet mah beautiful azn mamaz =D...
maery
natalie
sandy
christina
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"spiteful words hurt ur feelings but silence breaks ur heart."
/random pics...
