Today is August 7. 2000. One year and 3 months we are 'together' I can't believe how time has past by so quick ! Sometimes it seems like it was yesterday we talked for the first time. But most of the time, I am wondering where is that day when I will see you and where is that time when I will hold you tight ? It is so hard to wake up every morning knowing that you are so far away from me and that I can't share my day with you :( I miss you so much and I need you. I need you to be my best friend and my lower.

You have teached me so many things and you did awake a woman in me. A woman that I did not know about. Thank you. Thank you for being so nice to me and for making me laugh even when I did not feel for laughing. You are a wonderful man.

When there is no letter from you I can't take my mind of you. You are always here, with me. You are my first thing I do think av in the morning and my last when I go to sleep. And sometimes I think how I do not have a contact with reality anymore but, I know you are there and I know you are real. It is just this terrible distance in between us that is not alowing us to be together in person. But, deep down, in my heart, I am with you and you are with me.

There is many things that I wish to tell you and things I want to show you but there is one thing I can do now and this is to let you know that ~~~ I LOVE YOU, BRIAN ~~~ I love you with all my heart, and maybe I will never see you but I want you to know that. I am sorry if this is not exactly the right time to tell you and maybe you will not believe me or maybe you will get 'scared' but I am 'scared' myself a little.

I cryed so much this morning. I don't know why, but I just cryed. I missed you so badly and I can't describe to you how worried I am every time when I do not hear from you. And how happy I am when we do talk and when I can see your face on the camera or hear your voice over the phone. And these are the moments when I realize that I do really love you. And that I do care about you so much. And that I want to hug you and comfort you when you are feeling sad and to laugh with you when you are happy. If this is not love, then I do not know what it is...