There is an old country song that contains that line. Now that is the sentiment of the Chisum boys. Ranging from 67 to 53 we're all still dealing with our emotions as Mama's boys. Some think I have none. For all my life Dad was sick, in pain, and often mean to Mom. We justified all his errors as caused by the illness. Some months ago I posed the question of whether illness brought anger or the other way around. Last September Dad died and on March 5 Mom joined him at rest. Mom was the strong and resolute one who was never sick until this final illness. She justified all the things Dad did as related to his illness or pain. When she became ill she lost some of her ability to manage and control the family. In other ways it grew stronger than ever before. Who can say no to an 85 year old cancer victim? Yes she has always had a strong influence on Dad and most of her sons. I was always the rebel who left rather than be influenced in certain ways. Over the next few weeks and months a lot of things will be said about how who, what, why, where and when. We'll all make up various ways of explaining what we believe; what she believed and what happens when, and our feelings. In the funeral service the minister made one very true statement. Dad and Mom are no longer bound by this (silly) dimension called time. We can have wonderfully complex, sincerely believed conversations about Mom, Dad, JESUS, heaven, kingdom, resurrection, judgment, and so on. The fact is none of us know how GOD does His job. His ways are higher than our ways, His thoughts are higher than our thoughts. We are still finite creatures of finite mind, bound in this dimension called time. Then in our finite limitations we try to explain infinity by our emotion of self justification. Let me pose some questions and ideas to try to free our minds from selfishness or self pity. Mom was the teacher to always advocate right over wrong and to apply the rod of the advocate. Dad taught all of us how to cheat a little and get away with it. He was the one who took us to movies and did fun things. He was the easy one to let us have our way or to explain we were just boys; until, you reached his limit then he was far more severe. To all our wives Dad showed two faces and attitude. Religion and beliefs are and always were the problem. Refusing to play that game was my way out. Of course nine years in the Navy and not speaking to the family for years at a time had something to do with it. Mom figured out almost 30 years ago that I'd rather simply leave than argue religion or defend my wife against Dad or religion. I am the only son who never had a family problem over religion and my wife. At least not this wife. My first wife refused to ever visit that family again and was not a good hostess when they visited us (only once). My second wife and our children stole their hearts and never again was there a problem for me and mine. Dealing with death is probably the most valuable lesson wife #2 taught me before her death in 1974. GOD is the GOD of the Living, the only Living GOD. If we accept some small part of Mom's beliefs we have to know her days of suffering in this world are over. I agree the next voice she shall hear is the voice of JESUS CHRIST calling her to Him. Where we disagree is when that will occur. Of course that does not mean much to Mom. She will have no memory of whatever occurs between now and then, not being bound by time. Some will argue that the call of JESUS' voice came a the instant of the death of the flesh. Yet others can contend our resurrection is three days later like His. Those who believe we go to heaven immediately after death also teach resurrection to judgment. Do you really want me to believe GOD is cruel enough to take us off to heaven then bring us back to judgment unto life or death and throw some into a burning hell? We have a wonderful memorial to Mom and Dad. They raised five sons all of which have some sincere beliefs in our own brand of "Christianity." They have a whole quiver of grandchildren who are very sincere about their beliefs, some good and some bad, just like those who came before. The thing I want to get across is that GOD is big enough for all of us and graceful beyond our comprehension. Look at it this way, His majesty is infinite; His mercy is infinite; His grace is infinite. We are still bound by these finite minds in this dimension of time. Perhaps my nephew will have the best hope of comprehension. He is a Marine Colonel with 14 or so years in F18's. He has flown mach 2 or better and probably over 70,000 feet high and crossed the country and oceans very quickly. Doing things beyond the imagination of others helps to have some view of what infinity might be like, or at least how small and unimportant we are on the grand scale of infinity. If you ever have the opportunity to do any of those things beyond your belief go for it. For my wife it was the first cruise to the Bahamas for the foreign meeting. To be on a ship in the middle of the ocean the word FREEDOM means a whole different thing, depending on the GOD of the Universe to keep everything floating and safe has a whole new meaning too. It could help you with the size of GOD. One thing I am certain of is that GOD is in charge and His purpose will be served. I do not pretend to know or have an infinite mind. GOD remains the Master. Mom is in His capable hands and plan. I feel no need to grieve for myself or her. She gave me a wonderful heritage of trust in GOD. When all looked lost she survived three more years to serve and manage her husband to the last. The Mrs. butting in, even while she sat and had her lungs fill with fluids, she always made sure she prayed for the safety of her family, even us as we traveled for home after a visit. She was amazing to watch for she never faltered in giving thanks to GOD for everything, even the nursing home food. As a tribute to Mom, she believed as strongly as anyone I've ever met in the Biblical office of wife. She had a lot of strong beliefs in several good Biblical principles including eldest son, wife, husband, forgiveness, faith and mercy. Let us remember how Mom lives in her sons, not just that she died, for a time she lived in her own flesh. For those who only know Mom or Dad through their sons, you need to have some experience with each to find out about her. I suppose that is a lot like religions. If you confine yourself to too small a god or too narrow a religion you may never know Him. During my days as a drunken louse and rebel I sampled some 17 or 18 different religions and sects. I came to the conclusion GOD was all those things and none of them. He is the GOD of the Roman road for the Baptist's and greatly against being taken for granted. Mom was a very patient woman with a ample share of wrath to chastise and correct her sons. She taught much by example and charged us to always be the best we can be. The first time I sat shipboard in the middle of the ocean when there was no one or anything visible beyond our tiny ship, I began to appreciate boundless freedom. I suspect #1 Grandson at 1500 mph and 70,000 ft gained some of the same appreciation. Being in a submarine 400 feet under water with 120 other men in such a confined and contained world, sort of like a fighter cockpit you can learn your limitation and dependency on GOD's grace. Standing atop a mountain and looking out over GOD's creation when you can see farther than you could walk in a week with no people and no fences gives an idea of freedom and the vastness of infinite. Mom had her own vision of GOD, His greatness and her freedom. She inspired all her sons to be greater than anyone before in the family. We've all attained some order of greatness in her eyes. I became the rebel and fighter for liberty who accepted nothing on it's face and seeks the true meaning. Mom always wished I would surrender my fight against evil unjust government and knew I could not because of how we were raised. Brother #1 the eldest is such a charitable giver to all the family he gets treated like welfare. We all have had opportunity to take advantage of his charity. Some have and some have not. While Mom was especially proud of his work with camper on missions and the Gideons she always had her reservations that Baptist wasn't really Christian. The next two are both preachers, both have had little success as pastors, but Mom is none the less proud of their efforts and service. None of the wives were quite as perfect as Mom would choose for her sons. And all the grand children needed more hell fire and brimstone to be the kind of children Mom attempted to raise. Sometimes sweetness is better. Mom was deprived of her choice in a lot of things and ways. She would have been happy if none of her sons had ever left the hometown. All of us have been far away and only #2 returned to live as close as possible to the perfect life Mom imagined, narrow in religion and life. Mom and Dad fought all through my childhood. He was sick and couldn't be the provider they both believed in; she was forced to leave her home, husband and sons to work in order that we could be fed. This hurt both, made both mad, and resulted in an unhappy home. The first time I ever saw my parents hold hands or speak nicely to one another was after I left home. Was I the problem? Yes; I remember the good times, but there were very few in my youth. Yes, we had a few picnics, it was a big deal once every couple of years to visit Mt. Scott or Tarner Falls or Sulphur Hot Springs. For a real outing we'd go 30 miles to the Red River to swim and play. Dad was fully paralysed in my 11th year, had, had three spine surgeries and four heart attacks by the time I was three or at least that's how he told the stories. But I had the best of Dad. For three years from 15 to 18 he and I were almost always civil and pleasant. To one another. All us boys got a chance to be Dad's hands. His mind was good but his body wouldn't work so we, especially me, I got to be his hands and learned a lot of skills. I can only recall three problems in those three + years. Two of the three were my fault. I never saw or felt the cruelty Dad was capable of in my youth. I heard it expressed to others but not to me. Once I had gone away, he acted like he was glad to see me whenever I visited. I don't know how he was behind my back but I know it could have been very different as it was with others. Brother #4 commented in December that some of Mom and Dad's religion was not in the Bible. I found that to be true in all 17 or 18 I sampled. The earth could not contain all the books to report all the great acts of JESUS. Could it be that truth is more important than even that book? There is a lot of truth in the world not contained in that one book. Two pages of scripture contain 6 days of creation. Could our finite minds have a problem figuring out the infinite from one small book? Yes, of course that's what the gifts of the Spirit and life on the third rock from the sun is suppose to accomplish. Mom helped a lot in life's experiences helping us with truth. Dad had a little tendency to cheat for fun like condemning smokers while he dipped snuff. When we sneaked off to the movies he tried not to tell Mom. This was probably just the money. He was not working and she was doing double shifts to feed us. My goal is not to start an argument with my brothers. That will undoubtedly come later. They do not truly trust even one another. I have total confidence in the eldest son's dedication to family and truth. Of all the sons, he is least likely to take a dime or dollar for himself. I told my brothers 1 and 2 that I am very proud of and very much appreciative for the personal jobs they have done for Mom and Dad these last three years. I have no qualms about saying thanks. No, they did not do all things my way. They did it their way and it worked. I am glad for me and them. Mom manipulated and controlled to some degree all the way to the grave. Even when one brother thought another was doing a bad thing it is a safe bet Mom was still controlling. If she wanted something done she could maneuver with the best. Yes, I loved and appreciated her dearly; however, I see no reason to grieve or believe she would want us to. Some or many of you may wish to express your sympathy. Thanks, but no thanks. I do not need sympathy or to grieve. Perhaps our experiences can benefit others. Mom taught us to be strong and resolute; gentle and giving. She had a wonderful life until it was time to suffer and die. Dad had always been sick and complained regularly to get sympathy. Mom wouldn't tell anyone if she was hurting until the last 3 years. Mom organized oriented and controlled everything about life, health, doctors, church for the last 30 years or so. For the last 10 or more Dad could not remember any details of what needed to be done, even his own medications were her job and she did it with style. As poor sharecroppers who got burned out, we were never more than one paycheck from charity or welfare. We received a lot of charity and a little bit of welfare over the years. Our parents are an example of why SS and medicare are broke. In my high school years, Dad made $.58/hour as a janitor and Mom, $.78/hour as a small town nurse. I made $1.25 for looking after their boss's cattle and children. Even then cattle were more important than patients in his hospital. Later Dad retired on disability and Mom went to work at a larger hospital for minimum wage or a little over. So their contribution was small and their needs were large. Twenty-eight years for Dad and twenty-four years for Mom, drawing SS used up more than all their sons paid in and that doesn't include hundreds of thousands of medicare treatment expenses. Dad was sick most of that 28 years from skin cancers to heart attacks. Their nursing home care was far more than their contributions could afford. No, I'm not ashamed. For me it is just part of starving the dragon of big government. Two brothers commented that the agressive demanding style of #2 brother was just what was needed to gain the best care. Then why do you complain about the style offending others? People were paid and performance demanded. OK by me. No, that is not my style, nor Mothers, nor the other brothers. However, it may have become our style if we were there as much as he was; his personality is just best suited for that kind of effort. My questions are rhetorical because I know the answers. I do not mean to burden anyone to justify or explain. My effort is to help others. With Mom and Dad gone brother #2 has the greatest burden of finding new purpose in life. For three years they have been his life and mission. I shall pray that he find gentle compassion in his new life. He has had and given enough hell fire to cover all the enemies. Now it is time for compassion and love for the friends. I shall hope for the expansion of his mind and purpose to help others, as he has been helped. At 59, retired, divorced, alone and outcast with marginal health at best he needs to give and receive compassion. Brother #3 will be okay he recently remarried after his wife's death. A good woman I think Mom would have liked a lot except for the short hair, makeup and pants of course. Mom's religion never did expand or enlighten. But then it probably did not need to for her to serve GOD's pleasure and purpose. Mine keeps shrinking and getting more simple as I relate to the infinite. How Great Thou Art, and Mama died March 5, 1998, Amazing Grace How Sweet the Sound. This prayer that was sent to us. Thought this was the appropriate place to put it: · Lord of heaven and earth, I consecrate my remaining days to Thee; let them be many or few, as Thou wilt. Let me stand before the great or minister to the poor and lowly. That choice is not mine, and I would not influence it if I could. I am Thy servant to do Thy will, and that will is sweeter to me than position or riches or fame. I choose it above all things on earth or in heaven….. · Let me never forget that I am but a man of dust and ashes, a man with all the natural faults and passions that plague the race of men. I pray Thee, therefore, my Lord and Redeemer, save me from myself and from all the injuries I may do myself while trying to be a blessing to others. Fill me with Thy power by the Holy Spirit, and I will go in Thy strength and tell of Thy righteousness…Then, dear Lord, when I am old and weary and too tired to go on, have a place ready for me above and make me to be numbered with Thy saints in glory everlasting. · A. W. Tozer

TRUST COLUMN:

There are many things that need to be said and done about "trust." And all lead back to the same place. TRUTH! It has been written "America is great because she is good; when she ceases to be good she will cease to be great." It is my opinion that sad incident has happened. And that cessation of goodness is clearly and easily visible. Unfortunately, our media and news sources wish to conceal the fact that the greatness is also gone. Or do they? As we look at details and review specific items; the jots and tittles of the contract, I find a lack of knowledge. Is it an intentional slothful lack of knowledge? Or is the truth skillfully hidden in the mass of confusion? "My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge" seems to be quite an appropriate quote. We have always had the duty of seeking out the truth to avoid that destruction for lack of knowledge. Sadly like Eve and Adam we seek after knowledge of good and evil. Sadly also this land is full of those who choose evil over good. And this is no where more clear than in trust. Simply a Trust is a contract and has to have all the proper right character to be valid. In my recent travels I picked up another collectible booklet on Trusts. It is full of ways to cheat on truth and pretend trust. I collect those things for a couple of reasons. When you come to me with what someone else said, I want to be aware of the plan. I still pay to go to other people's seminars in order to seek out truth. One thing to remember is that the more complex the presentation and plan the more likely it contains confusion. Trickery of language has long been the tool of the enemy. You can talk about politics, finance, and especially religion and the language of the trickster come in to confuse and conceal. One political thief is quoted as saying "we don't have to change the law; all that is needed is to change the definition of the words in the law." Now we have Dorothy and ninth circuit of Oz saying there are no fixed definitions in law. Some new definitions are good and productive. Others are clearly planned for destruction. Which category does the changes in the definition of trusts join. As I review Trusts and plans it is a lot like reviewing various religions. "Whom do you trust?" Law merchants of confusion will advocate either side for the right fee. Most lawyers will admit their ability to argue either side from the history of court rulings and the variety of definitions. The reason for these writings is to provide our view of how to cut through the veil of confusion. I am basically a simple man who likes to keep things simple. If the world could look at the simple truth of GOD and love, instead of the merchants confusion of religious tradition, it would be a better place. The fact is we must find a way to trust GOD and His love for us. It is certain He has done His part over and over; over and over. It is plain we are the problem. In trust we are at a severe knowledge handicap because of the traditions of religion. While we read hundreds of times "trust in GOD" we have religions and tithes to buy insurance from man. Man is the tool of GOD not the other way around. We are not in control. Trust is a legal arrangement where ownership is vested in a Trustee for the benefit of beneficiaries. That is the same order as Psalm 24 and all the other Psalms that repeatedly say trust in the Lord GOD, Almighty. This is the same level of trust that must be vested in the Trustee to remain legal. All man's traditions of religion and finance are based on lack of Trust. All insurance is based on betting you will fail, and bonding by Trustees, would be betting I will fail. It is just a popular form of lack of Trust. Back to the contract. 1. Agreed purpose - Do you have a clear unquestionable agreed purpose in the trust? Do all parties understand the same purpose? Is it in writing? Were there any Trustee changes? Does the new Trustee understand it the same way? 2. Consideration - All parties to a contract must both give and receive consideration. Do you know what the consideration is or was in the formation of the contract? Can you verify yours and the Trustees consideration? Did you trust enough to give consideration? Do you comprehend the consideration given by the Trustee? 3. Communication - All the terms and conditions of the contract must be communicated to all parties. The constitution refers to obligations of contract. All parties must communicate so that every obligation of contract is exposed. 4. Offer and acceptance comes in on all parts of the contract, but especially the consideration and obligation. An offer of consideration of necessity must lead to an acceptance of obligation. 5. Disclosure is another term that comes into the mix of things. It is really just another way of expressing the need for communication. All obligations terms and conditions must be disclosed. 6. All the elements of a contract, oral or express, go into formation of the meeting of the minds. Now here is where trouble begins and ends. Do you feel confident in your meeting of the minds? Do the sellers of contracts called Trusts meet your mind? Are you in a meeting of the minds when you buy something you do not understand? As I write these newsletters I seek to reaffirm our original meeting of the minds. TRUST is a living concept. The Trust is a living contract and needs to do certain things to verify life. People speak, move, eat and breathe to prove life. We use various instruments to verify continuation of life. In the contract called Trust, we use simple concepts to verify life. Trustee Control is the first test we must pass to prove we're alive. Benefit to beneficiaries also proves the life of the Trust. Minutes are how the Trust speaks to the paper world. I like to keep my speech simple for all who hear to comprehend. I like minutes that simple state the facts in the life of the contract. A Trust is not a corporation and does not have statutory requirements or guidelines for minutes. My basic philosophy is that a minute should take a minute. It doesn't take long to make a simple statement. Complex minutes to get around truth are hard to write and take a long hard effort. A minute should say when the event occurred and when it was memorialized in writing. The minute book is like a personal diary or ledger of events. The only purpose in memorializing if for evidence to those outside the Trust or to confirm the meeting of the minds in the Trust. Minutes can inform beneficiaries of events that affect their benefit. As long as the Trustee has direct control and personal knowledge there is no separate requirement for minutes. Usually minutes are done to inform the Trustee of events that happened out of his view and convey Trustee agreement that the event was legitimately Trust related. To assure proper benefit to the Beneficiaries and correct, accurate tax filing and reporting an annual meeting of Trustees and annual minute is a good policy. If there is to be a change in purpose or indenture minutes are necessary. This is an obligation imposed in the contract. If a clause is to be invoked to withhold any part of the distribution from the beneficiary, minutes should reflect the reason and when it is expected to be restored. All changes in parties to the contract are necessary minutes and any change in delegations of authority must be covered. All changes to the assets held in trust are required to be covered with the reason for the changes. All delegations of authority must have with them the proof of Trustee control over the delegation and the delegate. See how important that little meeting of the minds can be? It matters not who wrote the contract, where is the meeting of the minds? This becomes a lot like our necessary surrender of self to spirit. Only when we yield self to the Will of GOD (the Trustee) do we achieve a meeting of the minds. Masters stay masters and servants shall always be servants. I receive benefit from Almighty GOD in JESUS' Name; He is the Master and I the servant. Beneficiaries receive from the Trust in the name of the Trustee (Master) and servant. Some pretenders use trickery of language in complex arrangements to avoid the truth of simplicity or the simplicity of truth. Where do you stand? Are all the minutes current? Do you comprehend obligations? Are your trustworthy? Do you truly trust? My opinion is that the vast majority of religion is merely traditions of man that make the laws of GOD of none effect. Usually for love of money. My opinion is that the vast majority of man's law is because we fail to do the will of right in good behavior and love for others. My opinion is that the vast majority of those present in this land have never been taught enough truth or right behavior to have a clue what it would mean to trust and be trusted. Keep it Simple Servants. In all things do the will of the Trustee and love the doing of it. Sadly there is only a tiny fraction of Trusts in America that have anything to do with these simple concepts of trust and truth. Sadly there are only a few, a small remnant, who are dedicated sufficiently to truth to form trust. Sadly there are now a multitude of merchants for profit selling useless packages of paper calling them Trusts. It is as hard to find truth in most merchants of law as trust sellers. Sort of like the merchants of religion and truth are not found in the same place.

WOULD YOU BELIEVE - A REASONABLE NICE MAN AT THE IRS?:

Yesterday (4-29-98) we had a meeting with an IRS Appeals Officer. Much to our surprise this was a reasonable, calm, courteous agent. There were too many good things that happened to recount at the moment. In reviewing the taped conversation I find it even better than I recalled. However the best part was off the record. After we had agreement (meeting of the minds) on how to settle the case without great expense and with reason and logic, we had a second conversation. On the record I believe I or we said all the right things including calling for change within the service. After the record ended the agent said he did not see how anyone could claim Christianity and no obey the laws of the land and pay their fair share. Of course I calmly informed him, we were, and that it was the IRS who was not obeying the laws of the land. At one opportunity I said I do not see how anyone can claim to be Christian while supporting an anti-Christ government that pays to murder babies in the womb. He said "I see your point." We had a very frank positive conversation about living what one confesses to believe. He walked straight into all the traps of his false doctrines. I suspect there were some interesting conversations within the belly of the beast since our visit. It could be that this beast office has some indigestion. Yes, he raised render unto Caesar and I did not use the argument about who is Caesar in America. I went to his belief system. What would the Almighty GOD of the universe want with an idol to Caesar, a graven image of man and dead presidents? Yes, we got to Romans 13 and Paul's admonitions. I reminded him there were no chapter breaks in Paul's letters and gave him the context from Chapter 12, reward evil with good and in so doing heap coals of fire on their head; therefore submit yourself to the civil authority. He really didn't like the idea of my submission meaning that coals of fire would be on his head. Of course Paul had several years of prison and prosecution because he chose to serve GOD rather than man. I knew GOD had a plan for yesterday and we submitted ourselves to it. This officer of conscience and desire to do right is like a cancer within the dragon. He will accept the duty to do right, even if it means finding another career. Perhaps he can be the balm to cure some of the evil. We did get in all our legal arguments and promised legal memorandum to verify our arguments. We did agree to back up the numbers we put on the return. For those who are unaware the appeals officer has broad, far reaching authority, and is not hard to access. Sadly it is quite a secret that is well hidden. I did discuss with him my sincerely held beliefs and parts of the history of why those beliefs are sincere and strongly held. He is aware I am unwavering and unable to compromise or to surrender to evil just because it is easy or popular or cheaper. I informed him I was very radical about truth and law. We even discussed the Void for Vagueness doctrine of the Supreme Court. I told him that there were only three paragraphs in the 2,300 pages of the IRC that were legal to apply. Yes, we will offer more truth and knowledge in the hopes he will accept truth and cease from his evil. At one point I even offered him my wrists to be led away in chains. He is not interested and now know there are at least a few good men who will not surrender truth to get along. We did let him know that we are sincere in our beliefs. Oh yeah! In the discussions of Christian and beliefs he had no argument about my points. We laughed together about the reaction I get when I tell agents I am praying for them. Yes, I told him it was like King David prayed for his enemies in the Psalms. We did discuss peaceful redress as the law of the land. And I declared that neither he nor I wanted to even consider any other possibility. Open revolt and blood is the result when man becomes immoral and will not repent of his error. We did not act like we had anything to hide. And we did not concede to being the bad guys. From the beginning of this case we have stood firmly on our rights and the due process requirements of the law. And we still have not compromised. Our appeals officer was genuinely unhappy about the attitude of the revenue officer. I suspect there are some attitude adjustments coming. I may even have a better attitude about charity toward agents needing truth before this is done. Now the commissioner testifies before the people and Senate that "The IRS has to show more respect to people and their rights." At one point I looked him in the eye and said "it just may be that my whole last 17 years of diligent study and service may have been all directed to this end of being the one to bring him some truth or another view of truth. At which point it has all been worthwhile." What our appeals officer does not understand is that truth will always triumph over evil. If he accepts and advocates truth he will win over evil, even the service and its agents. This appeals officer received a lot more than he expected in the volume of truth and knowledge. He even acknowledged the churches teach false doctrines. Yes, we got around to tax protester and the CID. He knows it is an illegal misuse for agents to assign that title for simply asking questions. Yes, I intend to send him a thank you note for courtesy and reason. I'll probably pray for him too; that he be strengthened in his resolve to do right. Yes, we'll do our legal memorandums so he can see the clarity of the law. This is no less than JESUS regularly did with the Pharisees from age 12 to ascension. The law of the land and the works of the Pharisees (bureaucrats) were regularly pointed out as error. Yes, we will follow through with our word and commitment.

BIRTHRIGHT DEFENDERS, MORE THAN - - IS OR WAS RAISING UP MAN:

We are so busy trying to make GOD small enough to understand we spend our time Raising Up Man. Frequently I receive compliments and accolades. I try to do my part very humbly and leave those judgments to others. I do not appraise myself as so very special. On most days I do the minimum required for my job. GOD gave me the job and the ability to do all that He says. He even guaranteed I could overcome all evil (perhaps even you or myself). Unlike Limbaugh my talents were a gift. Parable of talents, gifts, loan, or stored? Knowing my efforts have blessed or helped you is very rewarding to me. However, it is not necessary for me to keep going with this crusade. From the lowest of my corruption in the will of my flesh, GOD called me to Him to do His work. This call came in a simple statement "It is my time for you," (now Dave Miller would say that is the IRS's time for the FBI since pronouns should never be used). I like GOD's way better and JC was not confused by the fact JESUS was speaking in the first person (pronoun). It seems to me that we tend to elevate anyone who displays a jot or tittle of knowledge which has not yet been revealed to us. The fact that TS has become aware of the Federal Reserve System errors and decided to teach on the subject does not make him a great man; or great servant of GOD. He may very well be both of those in truth and deed. And his service to GOD might result in his knowledge becoming great or his blessings to others wonderful. The fact that VJ is a tenacious fighter against "the system", does not mean she is great in person or service to GOD. Again we tend to overly elevate those who have even a little knowledge we do not possess. I do admire and appreciate her efforts on behalf of our client. However, I do question the high position and authority she ascribes to herself and seeks from others. A little more humble attitude to GOD's order and call might serve her better and help her better serve the Will of the Master. Please do not feel picked on, I'm just in the preface of this idea. Usually when a simple mortal declares what they are going to do, they need a little more humble. V J started out that way but quickly humbled to be helpful, cooperative and productive. As usual I want to use a family example to show my point. In the first part of this newsletter I wrote about Mom just a little bit. This was a humble wife and Mother who directly or indirectly ruled the roost and family. Many gave her accolades yet others complained. Perhaps the things she taught her sons to be will be both her best legacy and our greatest opportunity to honor our Father and Mother. Over the years our Mother caused a lot of thinking in her sons. Many times I have reconsidered decisions I knew were right and proper to please Mom and do things for her. Usually I stayed with what I know to be just and proper. The best example is my efforts to bring truth to government and the IRS; for 12 years she repeatedly asked me to give up the fight and surrender and I refused. Finally about 4 years ago I gave her the correct answer and she changed how she spoke about my efforts. The correct answer was that she and Dad had trained me to be a very moral man, rejecting and opposing evil. And once I had discovered the evil I was required to oppose it. Mom's comment was "I know you're doing right, I just worry about your safety." WOW! I was on a role; I had the right answer for that too. Thomas Jefferson is quoted as saying if we value safety more than freedom we shall soon have neither. Wallace and FREEDOM! Two in a row. As long as I am doing GOD's work to champion Good over Evil, I see no reason to worry about safety. If memory serves me correctly that was the end of our discussion on that subject. As the youngest of five sons I have a different view than my brothers. As a youth and teen I had very little contact with Mom. She and I worked different hours from school to job. From the time I was 7 or 8 she worked second shift most of the time. This gave her the ability to take care of house and family business without us in the way and made sure she was there to care for Dad who was ill. Mom was a dedicated wife and Mother and would rather have not worked or been away from us at all. She stayed married to the only man she ever loved for over 68 years and did a lot of good things. But that was the job GOD gave her and she did not go beyond. She could have died anytime in the last three years according to the doctors. Her will to stay until Dad was gone and her work as wife was complete kept her here. Once he had died, her last purpose for staying was fulfilled in speaking her wishes to her eldest son and she died at the proper time. She was aware it was time. Mom was a strong believer in the biblical order of the family and whether he likes it or not she made her eldest act the role most of the time. Even after he had been married 48 years and away from home 50+ years she could draw him back and get what she deemed was right from her prodigal Son. I also like that biblical order in the family. I like being head of my family, so I can try to be even as Christ is head over the church. I have a long way to go in the forgiveness and charity area and even approaching his level of patience seems remote to me. I really don't want to be GOD; His job is too hard for me. I like being shoulder, or toe as servant to the Godhead bodily. My wife likes being my body (flesh) and leaving a lot of these other things to my headship. Yes, of course she gets impatient with me but it's just sort of a little tummy ache or muscle twitch. Mom wanted desperately for Dad to do the Biblical headship job and just any time he wanted to take over supporting and running the family would have been great with her. My brothers and I will have a big task to honor our Mother and Father. That will require all of us changing our way of thinking about a lot of new issues. It is most likely this body will fragment into nothingness. And that's not all bad. Each of us needs to be head of our own family, (remember GOD sent Abram out from his family before he could determine that he was the righteous one for the Covenant) with the patience, forgiveness, humility, and charity of JESUS CHRIST as our example. Yes, in our own way we'll all miss her. Some will grieve greatly and some a little. Personally I see no reason to grieve but I choose rather to celebrate. We can celebrate her life of 86 years; her marriage of 68 years, her 5 grown sons with their own distinct print of Mothers hand; how about 17 grandchildren all of whom she knew and put her mark on. Can't we celebrate all the people she helped as a nurse and as an elder in His church? We can all choose to ignore that she had a strong opinion about our wives and a sharp tongue to deliver it. Sometimes right and sometime wrong but never silent about giving her opinion. Mom was a lot like GOD in her correction and chastisement. We had the choice of obeying easy or hard just like GOD's people. She was quick to forgive and quick to punish for error. It was a good balance. To this day, I feel no need to grieve, or cry over Mom. I have known or believed for most of my life she would most likely die before me. I do not believe I failed to get her message or opinion. I did not leave anything to say I'm sorry for on either side. The last 10 years or so I enjoyed Mom and did all I could to assure her she had done a good job with me. One of the last things I did in showing her was verify I had a proper biblical order home with a wife who would stick with me. Once she knew that was a settled issue her anxiety about me was relieved. Oh by the way, neither of my parents openly criticized my wife as I saw them do to others. I was head over her and would not tolerate that error. Eldest son told me a few fragments of his last conversation with Mom. And I'm glad he had that time with her. The eldest son should be the one to receive the last and best conversations in GOD's order. The birthright passed to him and he has the need to know. I greatly admire my oldest brother, He is the first one to show concern for all the family. He is the first one who has done more for all his brothers than any of us have a right to, or deserve. Of course being 15 years my senior helps a lot. I'm only 6 years older than his son, yet he always treats me with respect and courtesy. I escaped a lot of family religion and family prejudices by being over a thousand miles away the last 35 years. In that last conversation Mom revealed what most of us already knew. She had some reason that made each of us her favorite (probably a lot like GOD has some reason for treating each of us special and separately as His favorite). Mom, like Jacob, gave each of her sons particular tasks, character and blessings. One of the things Mom had told me, years ago to convince me I should be at her funeral, was that she hoped her 5 sons and oldest grandson would be her pall bearers. I was the only one she told and it did not happen. Do you suppose that was manipulation or just gentle coaxing? This came when I had told them I saw no good reason for funerals, theirs or mine. Both our parents understood my feelings and beliefs, they were here in 1974. Mom had secrets and special messages for all her sons. Sort of like GOD does for all His children and exactly how she wanted to teach us to train and love our own children. Mom made mistakes too and there were bad times, but I choose to not remember any unpleasant thing between us. Am I putting up a false image of her? No, just choosing to forgive and forget any ought or error between us and she never had to ask. Dad is easy for me. The three years I was home after all the other sons were gone from home were his best years for me. He was much more obvious and vocal, if he disapproved or disagreed with anything. In many ways he was easier but he was sure swifter with his criticism and chastisement. In some ways he was more tolerant and more forgiving. When I left home I knew Dad and I would never have anything like those teen years again. Dad was at times cruel, mean, angry, selfish, and abusive. That is just the facts. I choose the memories of the good times and take all the rest as wise counsel of how to act leading my family as it's head. Forgiveness is necessary. While Dad and Mom were alive they were the center of the family. Now there are five centers of five families who really don't even know one another. Yes, we all have strong opinions of each other, but it has been 35 years since I left Oklahoma. I know the man is much different than the boy was in 1963. The oldest brother now Patriarch is the only one who ever tried to know or understand. All the rest form their opinions by talking instead of listening or by doing neither. The purpose of this is to say to you, do not think of anyone more than you should. Do not lift people who surprise you with their knowledge up on too high a pedestal, especially me. I see no reason why GOD has given me this knowledge or talent except He chose to do so. "You have not chosen me I have chosen you." Just doing the job the King gave His servant to the best of our abilities, does not mean we should be elevated. The fact that Mom, VJ, TS, JC DR, or anyone else did a good job is not cause for such accolades. We do that from the weakness of our flesh and carnal need to be pampered, caressed, and cajoled. If we give out enough praise, we hope when we make some small accomplishment, our flesh will be glorified and praised by other flesh. For years I really got enthused when someone praised me. Now it is just passing the test of doing the job appointed. Yes, I am glad to know there is another group rising up for their own crusades. But that is their job. Why should they be praised? It is not GOD's job to do all the things He does for us. He has no requirement to keep on trying to get us to do our job. There was no requirement for His gifts. It was not His responsibility to take on flesh and sacrifice that flesh for us. All these things are gifts from His magnificent charity. I routinely hear people brag about how great someone is or even extol themselves. Yes, I occasionally brag about someone following the King. The only one I know of who is worthy of praise is our Righteous King JESUS CHRIST. And for all of those who choose to brag about your own acting; shame on you. GOD is not mocked. For our Mother, I say to you and my brothers, lets not raise her too high, she was a very humble woman sure of the Majesty of the Great One. Bless my wife, she does not think I have adequately dealt with the death of my Mother, perhaps soon she will know. I am able to accept my parents beliefs about and in GOD as their own. How can any expression of belief and trust miss the Infinite, Omni-present Master? If you (or I in times past) choose to believe that someone else is wrong because their beliefs are not yours, take a look at the Infinite. The Bible can not contain all of GOD; only the guide maps of how to find a path to the Infinity. The Apostles wrote that the whole earth could not contain the books to report all JESUS' miracles and great acts in just 3 years. And even Paul acknowledge that there are those who will believe and those who believe not. It's all in the hands of our Infinite, not ours, we never saved a soul. It doesn't take a whole computer disk to extol all your (or my) greatness and report all our acts of goodness and kindness. It may take several computer disks or books to account for all our errors and attempts to make ourselves important in the flesh. Now Hear This; VJ, TS, BB, DR, LS and others: This is spiritual warfare and no one is great who is using carnal weapons to fight Spiritual warfare. That's sort of like bringing a knife to a gun fight. That only works in John Wayne movies (pretense) or Indiana Jones. Yes, there are carnal battles to be fought and one because we are trying to be in and of this cosmos, part way (just a little bit of leaven). If you want someone to brag about, find someone who will lay down his life (and property) for the service of the King or the needs of His friends. William Wallace laid down his life, because it was better to die than compromise with man's lusts. Jefferson and the patriots pledged life, liberty and sacred honor to separating from England and her false religion of taxation. What will you sacrifice and surrender for truth? Will you tell the truth only as long as there is no threat to your life, liberty, or sacred honor? How about your home, mate or children? Only in willingness to sacrifice and give can you find. He that looses shall find. In both our Kansas cases, we'll fight for right up to a limit. We sought to and succeeded at protecting the ground in one case. We even have used carnal trickery in man's law to hold on to the money and trinkets. Have we or have we not been willing enough to sacrifice to the glory of our King? In the other case, one party is not willing to loose Grandma's house for truth or right. I'll champion truth as long as it is cheap and easy. How high do you want to be lifted up? When I discovered wrong in 1974, 1981, 1984-85, 1987-88, 1995, I was and am willing to give al I have of life, liberty, property, sacred honor in the doing and teaching of good over evil. I routinely give my time, money, and knowledge to help others; usually at the expense of my wife and grand children. Many of you congratulate me for our efforts on behalf of grandchildren. That is the minimum I can do. It is the least I can give. I deserve no accolades for merely applying the knowledge GOD has given me to the task He has given me. Grandma has been great as my flesh in support of me as her head, but has done nothing more than apply the talents GOD has given her to the task JESUS has sent her way; even the grandchildren we raise and a lot of you. GOD is Great; GOD is Good; GOD is Glorious; GOD is Wonderful; GOD is Magnificent. Praise GOD in the Highest. JESUS is GOD, our Living King. The highest I can hope for is to be a good and humble servant so loyal to the King He may one day call me friend. My friend in Florida regularly shakes his head and says "you are a brave man Jimmy." Why is it considered so brave, unusual, or high to keep my word? Why is it called brave to refuse to compromise with evil? Why am I so unusual for doing only the minimum with my talents granted by Almighty GOD? Don't raise this humble servant any higher than I belong and don't expect me to raise you up either. If you feel like I am pulling you down into humble you're probably right. JESUS is the one who lifts you from the humble bottom, "rise and follow me." If you are so sensitive about your greatness or your money you need to repent. I had to, a long time ago. And I can assure you it is easy and fun. Money makes me lazy and slothful. If I have a lot of money, I don't want to work very hard. If I have a lot of property to pretend Godhood over, I play with the toys instead of doing the job. So the first thing GOD let me do was go broke. It all went or real close. We got rid of everything that could become idolatrous or interfere with our service to the King. My wife was good. What a perfect help. Please do not be afraid to examine your own self. Faith without works is dead. Works without faithful service leads to "depart from me, I never knew you, you workers of iniquity (lawlessness)." My stewardship is of knowledge for Spiritual warfare. What is yours? Who will you praise? Our people are so accustomed to making man greater than he should be, because our religions make GOD less than He is and always has been and forever shall be. There is so much false doctrine about becoming GOD or like GOD, we have no concept of truth and reality. Humble servants praising and serving King JESUS is the highest office any of us can achieve. The important prosperity is the Spiritual service in His warfare. Now who do you wish to lift up or brag about? Raise no man higher than they ought to be. Oh by the way, do not pull anyone down lower than they should be either: especially King JESUS.

From the Mrs.:

As you can see GOD is still in control. Sometimes not fast enough for me, sometimes I feel like the rotation of the earth has slowed way down, but it is in HIS timing not my impatience. The meeting that J C and Dick had with the Appeals Officer left me with a feeling of peace that I have not had in a long time. It also confirmed my beliefs that the GOD of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob-Israel has His own people in places where He wants them and sooner or later we will run into them. They are there for a purpose, they will hear the truth and in the capacity of the job GOD gave them, they will do His purpose, not ours. The children are doing just fine. We had a round of them trying to copy their parents in the act of shoplifting. They didn't really care for the results. So now it is "Grandma we aren't going to touch anything in the store." To which I say "Good the police station is just across the street." They are only to be afraid of Policemen if they are doing something wrong. Otherwise they are just doing their job and need to find bad guys, not those who don't break the laws. When you have a four year old mimic the straw in the nose and sniffing, you know you have lot to overcome. They really do reveal to us some of the horrors they have been through. They have really come a long ways, but with the help of prayer and guidance from GOD they have a long ways to go yet.

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