Copyright ©1998, Christine
To survive the demands of the world, I entered into the spirit. There,
I met the phantoms of my father, reflections on the face of God. I could
not escape life there; all my reasons for running met me in the spiritual
world. I ventured deeper into the journey and confronted my deepest fears
about God, trust, fear and lies. Afraid to move in any direction, I lay
paralyzed near death, prone on the tabernacle of fire between hope and
fear. Fear would have me believe I was the worst person alive and I feared
death terribly because I believed in punishment. The light of gentle insistance
tries to persuade me to unclench my fist from my litany of faults and to
let them fall away.