The questions stalk me night and day,
Yet I do not ask them of my own free will.
I know the answers are important
Yet they are vague and void of information...
It should all be so easy,
Yet it is one of the biggest challenges I've known.
The changes are all so beautiful
Yet I don't know if any change was necessary...
The beauty is often shadowed by pain,
Yet I am numb to all regret.
The confusion of emotions tires the heart and mind,
Yet ignoring feelings destroys the soul...
The memory burns what is already scarred,
Yet the flesh refuses to forget...
The times I've spend in sleep have been tormented,
Yet the dreams give me what I can not resist...
An ordinary, unexpected day,
A startling realization, a tension suddenly unbearable,
A panoramic view, a forgotten road,
No one but the spirits to bear witness...
Two souls - destined... urgent... curious,
Naked to all forces, laid open to bleed together,
Bonding for life in the eyes of ancient law,
In an effort to be set free, to be fulfilled...
The chains have tightened over a new emptiness,
And I'm fighting an unnecessary battle...
Why?
- L.C., 1998
