The questions stalk me night and day
Yet I do not ask them of my own free will
I know the answers are important
Yet they are vague and void of information...
It should all be so easy
Yet it is one of the biggest challenges I've known
The changes are all so beautiful
Yet I don't know if change was necessary...
The beauty is often shadowed by pain
Yet I am numb to all regret
The confusion of emotions tires the heart and mind
Yet ignoring feelings destroys the soul...
The memory burns what is already scarred
Yet the flesh refuses to forget
The times I spend in sleep have been tormented
Yet the dreams give me what I can not resist...
An ordinary, unexpected day
A startling realization, a tension suddenly unbearable
A panoramic view, a forgotten road
No one but the spirits to bear witness...
Two souls - destined... urgent... curious
Naked to all forces, laid open to bleed together
Bonding for life in the eyes of ancient law
In an effort to be set free, to be fulfilled...
The chains have tightened
Over a new emptiness
I'm fighting an unnecessary battle...
Why?
- L.C., 1998 (for Wolf: thank you for helping me find myself...)
