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Tried hard to displace myself
As my life shattered into pieces again
Being alone shouldn't stun me anymore
I thought I must have grown harder
I didn't cry when you whispered goodbye
Held me so tight as if you didn't really want to go
Or you thought it would be the last time
But the familiar warmth spread like wild fire
Through the depths of my soul
When you called to tell me everything was fine
And the weakness in me became apparent once more
Just like those hours between dusk and dawn
When the silence around me is deafening
The screaming within me remains unheard
And the shadows threaten to swallow me whole
I seek shelter within myself
Try to hide from the darkness I once longed for
I found its embrace comforting
Now I can only drown in its wrath
My dreams hold no mercy
So rare that they lead me to you
Yet in the light of day
The memories burn every thought
You haunt every song I hear
I can't go anywhere without remembering
Perhaps the night is forgiving after all
Such a damnable desire
Sometimes I wish I didn't love you like that anymore
That I could shrug and move on
Burning our bridges behind me
Give all that I am to another
Maybe a smile with every step away from what we shared
But then the truth obliterates the fool who dreams of forgetting
And the reality kicks me so hard
This passion keeps me from dying
The pain of losing you again
Is what tells me I'm still alive
My heart beats out its aching desperation
I am not mine to give away again
Somehow it is a consolation that you're happy
Still it is a hope running deeper than blood
That this is only an intermission
In a movie meant to last forever
The bond grows stronger every day
From a distance which seems endless
I sense you're still close
I hear your every word, feel every touch and emotion
Taste every breath from your body
Is it an illusion or madness?
Or the essence of being soulmates?
It doesn't really matter to me now
The fates would have me believe it's over
But destiny offers the solace of the truth
Otherwise, living without you would kill me
- L.C. 2000
