Pain, suffering, torment, grief, sorrow...
These are the feeling that I feel, only feelings that I know now, before this, there was others too, happiness, joy, trust,
and love, but now they are gone, from my life, even if, we think these words, mean all the same, they don't, they include much more, I can't describe it, I can not talk to you about them, but, I don't know, maybe I am just being, no, not being, telling you about things that, I don't know, maybe ain't true, I am saying this, writing this, because I am trying to make the pain go away, but it won't. It is in so deep, I have tried to cover it, like, hoping that if I don't think about it, it will go away, but doing this, I have only stored it deeper, and when, I am alone, thinking about you, me, my life, it comes out again, the pain, the memories, a teardrop falls down.
Sometimes, you ask, what's wrong, I say, nothing, and look the other way, you ask, have you been crying, I say, no, you see, I am not telling you the truth, but you think, that I want to be alone, that I don't want to open up my self to you, to anyone, but you are wrong, I don't want to be alone, I want to be loved, by someone, I need a friend, but it is not easy, because you have hurt me so much, but you don't realize it yourself, you think everything is okay, you think, nothing is wrong, never been, never will be.
And, when I scream, you don't hear it. When I cry, you don't see it. You hurt me, you don't care. I hurt myself, because of you, you don't care. Or then you just don't realize it, what you do to me. Why can't you see, I need you, so much...
