Angry Achy Anguish
Been following the news on the Internet, about the earthquakes in China, Cyclone in Myanmar, Floods and Tornados in the US, Fishermen and Hauler strikes over diesel prices in the EU. Soaring gasoline and food prices worldwide, food riots from Haiti to Bangladesh to Egypt, incredible numbers of home foreclosures, massive credit card debt, GMOs, salmonella in fresh tomatoes, bickering politicians, governments not allowing aid, terrorism, banks in a mess, crashing stock markets, war, the list goes on... I could blog about this alone, but I won't.
In my own world I've friends scattered over the US. Two weeks ago a friend's sister called her in total despair because she couldn't pay rent, buy groceries, or gas. Afraid her dog would be un-cared for if something happened to her. She'd been without a job since September, used up all her financial reserves and now she's broke. She wanted to die. Though in worse financial shape herself, my friend sold enough to buy a plane ticket. Cheaper then renting a car and driving. She can't afford to buy a car or rent an apartment. Those things are expensive luxuries. She's not working now. She needs a car to get to work, because there's no public transportation in the area... so is between a rock and hard space. Wonders what she did wrong. Cares so much for her sister she'd sell her soul if necessary, to help her survive.
Another friend works full time with autistic children, just loves them. She lives alone. Rents a very small house, drives a small car and is frugal. But doesn't make enough money to meet her bills, buy groceries, insurance and gasoline. Had to buy heating oil on her credit card this past winter so she'd have heat. Her cards are maxed out now, interest rates have climbed to 30.99%. She's stressed and wonders how she'll ever repay the growing mountain of debt. Hopes for a miracle.
Yet another friend is on a fixed limited income. Her husband died 2 years ago. Now she's living alone in a house that is literally falling down around her. The floor is mushy and gives with each step. She fears she'll fall through it some day. Her windows don't close very tight and leak, so the house is drafty. Her water went out this winter. She didn't have the means to get it back on again. Been without running water for 6 months now. Sometimes she feels desperate. She heats with wood. It's very cold where she lives. More so this year that's why the water went out. It just snowed again the other day. It's June, her wood supply is gone. She's had to cut up downed trees in her yard to keep warm. It's usually in the 80s this time of year. Crazy weather.
I won't tell you my personal story, now. But I will say, the other day I drove trough the Village (VOC), which now feels more like southern California. Along the newly spiffed up multi million dollar road. Wondered why they took a perfectly good 3 lane road with easy access to all businesses on both sides and turned it into 2 lanes with curb median and 3, no 4 roundabouts? Much harder to navigate. Had a gift card a friend gave me for my birthday so I took myself to Oak Creek Brewery for lunch. It was very crowded and buzzing with activity. My lunch cost $22.44 and I ordered one of the cheaper items on their menu. Left the server who was very good a $5.00 tip. Would have liked to leave more. She only makes $3.75 per hour, to think people stiff her sometimes. Geesh! At least SHE is working. The shopping center Tlaquepaque, home to the restaurant was full and crowded. I walked around after lunch looking in the windows at all the pricey, foo foo, frilly things. Slam! Wham! Bam.... Grrrr.
Guess I've had another EPIPHANY or something. Now I'm really angry. Sorting, spitting fire angry. Koyaanisqatsi! World out of balance! What the hell is going on?
There's massive worldwide suffering, massive worldwide disparity and massive effects of global warming. And denial. The world is out of balance. The rich, get richer... waste and excess; and the poor and middle class get poorer... starving, poverty and suffering. The planet is being raped, pillaged and becoming a toxic waste dump. And too few people seem to care. I'm on overwhelm! My shoulders are tight, I don't know what to do.
Wait. Stop! I know Reiki, right. I can do something to help and I will. Yes. I vow, to myself and all sentient beings...
From this point forward I will send 'Reiki to the planet, the people and all life for the highest and best outcome what ever that be' 24/7/365 until there is positive lasting change or I make my transition, which ever comes first.
So be it.
Will you join in and help me from time to time in ways that you know how?
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