In everything you have to suppose that there is a begging and an ending. For many people in life there ending is there death and the beginning is there birth into liefs comforting bliss. But for this story there is no ending, the story as it is goes on. Young she was only the age of fourteen, unaware she was to what her life would bring her in life and unaware of the events that unfold before her that would bring an abundance of change and excitement to her life. SAM was a very confused and frustrated Young woman her life was simple and nothing seemed to be more exciting then to be more then what she was. Coming out of her adolescence and into her teens she ventures to wanting to see more of what the world had to offer. growing up with the know how of the delinquency that her parents bestow upon themselves. She was curious as to what she would end up becoming. Would she become the addictive, over bearing, dramatic woman her mother portrayed to her as a Young child or would she triumph as a strong independent woman that she only saw in movies and in the eye's of her teachers in school. SAM always new she had a very special talent and that through this she could escape the tor mentions of her child hood. Art. Her art was the escape that one day would save her but for now she grew to having the understanding that this brought her the approval and positive attention that she would need for now and that brought a but of happiness to her pessimistic world that consumed every emotion in her being. She had many friends even though SAM was not the popular one of the bunch she always had at least a few really good friends. Unfortunate she was to be raised in such a poverty in such a small town. Some of the time she thought that the only thing that she could relate to were the drugs and the smoking and the alcohol when it came to her mother and the rest of what she new of her immediate family. Turning to others approval and there confidence in her that she lacked in her self brought to her the keen eye for always doing the wrong in anything wright. growing up with no Father figure made SAM relate more to the other men in her life whether it be the lay or the friend she grew to feel more comfort with a mans relationship to her then a woman's. Through the violent thoughts and the emotional roller coaster that drove her to this point she is the story and this is all that she is. "It's all your fault you know?" Her mother screamed as she sipped back on another glass of gin and tonic. Still pushing it on her that her life was this horrid display of what is was because of her only daughter." I wouldn't be here if I hadn't kept you, i sacrificed so much and you little bastards do nothing for me, its just i want, i want, and crap." SAM always began to cry when her mother would say such hurtfully things to her. But her mothers only response was " Oh stop your crying, what do you have to cry about?" So she brought herself to stop. By this time she was only the age of nine and the world was still nothing to her. So the world that she lives watch day is all she will ever know. Same would go on in the next few years and realize that alto of changes were happening. Her mothers drinking and crazy rantings persisted. but she could see in her mothers eyes that the depression and the horror of what she was and where she was and how she ended up to be this was there everyday. Going into high school she had lost the only outlet that she had. Her mother no longer she saw as someone she admired and liked and her older brother she did not see as someone who cared for her well being and security. She instead always had her grandmother. But infinitely she was mentally ill and coping with this was very difficult and for that time in her life she looked for any out let to escape having to live with another Alzheimer's patient ( just as her aunt who died not but a few years back and lived with them as well). So Sam's alternative was for the summer before her start of high school she would go and live with a friend. It would calm the bickering and screaming that went on and it would make a great escape from the reality that trapped her in her mind tell now. That summer SAM learned many things and tapped the very crevices of what was considered the same mistakes of her own flesh and blood. Not that she did these things to rebel but knew that the detachment she felt from her family would and could be filled with these many people that partied and influenced her to drive the mental agony that stirred inside her, away.But this summer would change everything that she ever thought and would open a part of her mind that she thought did not exist.