Worship
I'am just a little tired but what can I say we had our last mourning worship for the school year, and all Ihave to say is that God was In the House. I mean we worshipped for everything that we have been through this school year no matter how big or small. I anointed those who asked and prayer over and for those that asked and it was just awesome. I just Thank God for the opprotunity to be a willing vessel for him no matter what people have to say. I mean it just felt good to just be there for people when they need you. In other news the Pistons are going to the finalsI was so happy yesterday I didn't know what to do with my life despite the fact i had a head ache.All I have to sayis that Pistons have heart.

31 Days of Praise Insert #2 (Day 24)
This is also one of my favorite inserts from 31 Days of Praise, we get back to personal stuff tomorrow baby(lol)


Thank You, my loving and sovereign God,that my failures and mistakes are part of the "all things"You work together for good... as well as my tensions and stresses, my hostile and anxious feelings, my regrets, my trios into shame and self-blame--and the specific things that trigger them. I praise you that "all thing," including these, can contribute to my spiritual growth and my experience of Yu...When my heart is overwhelmed, I'm more aware of my need to cry to You... to take refuge in You... to reply on You.
I rejoice that these things keep reminding me to depend odyou with all of my heart...that theypropt me to trust in Your love,Your forgiveness, Your power,Yoursufficency,Your ability to overrule, and Your transforming presence within me. Thank You for ways that my shortcoming and failures bring pressure on me to open myself to You more fully, and the way they let You show me deep and hidden needs:griefs and hurts that I've never faced and acknowledged. How grateful I am foYour constant cleansing as I confess each sinYou made me aware of, and then turn back to You as my Lord. I praise Youthat I'm free from condemnation simply because christ died for me and rose again...that it does not depend on how well I live.
I praise You for how You use my sins and failures to humble me, and for how this opens me to the inflow of Your grace-amazing grace, that enables me to hold my head high, not in pride but in humble gratitude for Your undeserved, unchanging love and total cleansing!

31 Days of Praise Insert #1 (Day 22)
I am reading a book that was given to me by Antoine and I bhad to put this in here because this is one of my favorite entries:

Thank You, Lord, for each specific strong point and admirable quality in my life patner.* Thank You for bringing us together, and for the way Your love sweetness our earthy love! I bless You, Lord,for the many benefits You have given me through this dear one.

Here are some special reasons I want to thank You for this realationship:

Antoine knows already and I ain't about to put my business out like that.

Yet, Lord, I praise You that You far surpass even the best person in my life. You are distingushed above all," the most winsome of all beings". You are my share in life, my reward, my inheritance.
Who can compare with You? You are my perfect Life Partner, my dearest, most-delightf ul Loved One, My always-present Companion. You are the strength of my life, and my portion forever.
Only my relationship with You is sure to be lifelong and more, with never a good- bye.
Thank You that " You are so vastly wonderful, so utterjy and completely delightful, that You can meet and overflow the deepest demands of my total nature, mysterious and deep as that nature is."

He's What I Needed
To God Be The Glory For All Of The things that he has done.What a emotional weeks it has been for me but I am just truly glad that God saw fit to carry me into another week as well, and not just another week but through his grace and mercy another day in my right mind. I have been just resting in the love of God ALL WEEK LONG because I realize that he was truley all that I needed(no afence Snoopy I still Love You.......somtimes.......LOL). I realize now why I was not able to talk to those that normally call me during the week,God knew that I needed the time to allow him to rearrange somethings that have happen down through this week. I needed the time to find out where I belong in him, I found out that I have been out of place in the body of christ for a while now. Instead of steping out I took the turn and stepped in which kept my mind in wonder. What I mean is that I stould have stepped out and stayed out, I should have become the person that God has called me to be a long time before now but I stepped in the wrong way. Now that I realize the thing that I have done and the people I have done it to, IT TIME TO STEP OUT AND STAY OUT. I mean God was always there, but it tookme awhile to realize that, He's What I Needed all along.

I Love Him So Much
Today was just Today I guess,

I just my spirit is so heavy right now I how not slept since 5:30 a.m and I have just been tired. I ment to go to sleep last night but I was worried about my baby. I had to go into my worship last night because I was in submition to God ALL DAY and now I know why my Birthday just felt like a regular day. I know now that no matter how much you think some one you never know what that person is through.I love Antoine with all my heart but sometimes I just don't know. I have so many questions yesterday when pastor told us what happen I could not even talk. All I could do was cry I could even look at him so I just walk out of the church. I tried to suck it up and smile when he gave me me gift but to be honest that smile was fake as hell. And for that I apologize, because I just hate for people to see me cry. I mean I had to smile because I didn't want him to know that I was worried about the way he felt. but Baby if you read this I Love You

What Do I Say?
I understand that there are things in my life that I have no control over but how do I say that I have control over my emtions and men it?OR better yet let me ask you this what do you do when you don't know what to do/ How do you cope with the fact that God is getting ready to move and you are afraid beyond belief? There are so many other question that I have I mean I could go on for days but I won't. My day was lovely I mean I have just been in God ALL DAY and I can not, I will not, I shall not, give the devil the satifaction of controling the rest of my day. I don't understand why somedays I feel like I just lost my best friend and other days I feel as if I want to two step while turing in circles I mean my energy level was CRAZY today but I THANK GOD that i hsd the energy to get EVERYTHING DONE that I needed to do. So what Do you Say to a day like this?

GOD I SIMPLY SAY THANK-YOU

SPERATION
Today just feels like a normal Day although I did turn 17 today. I don't know how or even what to feel about my Birthday, I just feel calm and humble In a way like never before. Last night I went into wordship and the worst chestizment that you can receive is that of God. So I had to admit the fact that what happen with me yesterday was not suppose to happen and I did apologize to him for letting it happen. Anyways, I went in at 11:45p.m., and God was just speaking in a wa that you could not help but to shut up and listen. I heard him say SPERATION,he said that I am going to sperate the cold, the luk warm, and they hot so they everyone will know who is who in the body of christ. Which letts me know that we need to get our selfes together before the people that have claim God are falling by the dozens because they have just CLAIMED God and have not really taken him seriously. IT"S TIME TO STOP PLAYING WITH GOD BECAUSE HE IS NOT PLEASED WITH THE THINGS THAT ARE GOING ON IN THE BODY OF CHRIST.WHERE WILL YOU BE WHEN GOD SPERATES YOU?

Emotional
Today ahs been been what you call one of those days I mean ho wdo you tell the person that you Love about the person you used to be? I know that he is /was tired of hearing about my past but I don't know what will happen if i don't tell him the truth. I feel as if God made him just of me, to fit my life like a glove or a angel fits the qualifications to get into heven so I guess the emtion that i have today is fear. Well Not really fear because I know that God has not given me the spirit of fear but of powerful and a sound mind but I guess that this is my flesh trying to rise up against me.